A second before I looked in the direction where my daughter was standing, I had become aware of her presence, but it was far too late to stop what was happening. To say it was not one of my proudest moments would be the understatement of the century, and it wasn't like I hadn't been caught before either.
Decades ago, back when Nixon was president, my mother had walked in on me as I made love to a picture of Karen Valentine in one of my sister's copies of Teen Beat magazine, but I had been caught just when I had begun my stroking, and after she made a choking noise she ducked out of the room, and it was never mentioned again.
This was different. Getting caught masturbating by your 18 year old daughter is about as low as you can go, but I had managed to make it even worse. How could I get more disgusting that getting caught jerking off in the laundry area of my farmhouse that I thought was deserted at the time?
I think I managed that with the panties that I was clutching to my face with my free hand; slightly stained pink panties with a discolored white crotch that belonged to the young lady who was standing open-mouthed, her eyes fixated on her father's hand wrapped around his beet-red cock which was spitting semen onto the dirty towel I had placed on top of the washer.
I didn't go into the laundry room with masturbation on my mind, but when I saw the panties sitting on top of the pile of dirty clothes, my hand went down and picked them up. A tiny brown hair was at the elastic of my daughter's underwear, and as I took a closer look, wondering if Joni's pubic hair growth was as thick and as dense as her mother's had been, the panties somehow came up to my face.
The pungent aroma nearly made me faint, and before I knew it my cock was out and I was pumping myself like a deranged chimp, inhaling the sweet and sour scent of my daughter's pussy that filled the crotch of her panties. Was there anything else was in the aroma, I wondered? I doubted that, because her boyfriend had just gone off to boot camp, or else it might have been his cum too and that would have grossed me out.
They had been fucking, that much I knew, but now with him gone, who knows. Joni surely had the body for sex, just like her mother used to. Joni's body was a little plump, but still shapely. Her tits were big and full, and the 36D bra she wore was nearly as big as her mother's were. I knew that from a previous inspection of the clothes hamper.
But at that moment I turned and saw Joni, gawking at me with a weird look on her face, everything else seemed unimportant. The checking out the size of her bra, the sniffing of the armholes of her blouses, and pondering her pubic hair development; all of that seemed minor.
I tried to cram my still-ejaculating dick back into my pants while spinning around and brushing back Joni and into the safety of my bedroom. Joni called out to me, but I stayed in my room and blasted the TV until I was sure she was gone.
It wasn't my fault. That's what I kept telling myself. A voluptuous teenage girl who dressed very provocatively, like all kinds these days do, prancing around and giving me an eyeful - what did you expect?
More than that. You have the right to expect more than that from your old man. You don't expect him to be so weak as to be tempted by the charms of one so young and fresh as your own flesh and blood's. My old man would never have touched my sister, at least not like that. Might have whipped her and punched her like he had me, but would not been caught jerking off by her.
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I made myself scarce around the house for the remainder of the day, but eventually I knew that we would come face-to-face. I dreaded it, but when it happened later that evening at dinner, Joni didn't mention a word about it while we ate, and instead just talked about her boyfriend's letter.
She missed him so much, she kept saying, and one time she mentioned that I must know how she feels because of her Mom passing suddenly like she had. I knew alright, but it had been three years and the pain was more of a dull ache by now.
After we put away the dishes she retreated to her bedroom, probably to talk on the phone with her boyfriend Eddie, while I sat in front of the TV until my eyes grew weary and I headed to bed. The problem was that sleep wouldn't come, so instead I just stared at the ceiling and counted sheep while trying not to keep thinking about what had happened that day.
That became impossible when I heard the sounds of Joni walking out in the hall, and when I saw the shadow of her feet at the bottom of the door I prayed that I wouldn't hear the sound of tapping from the other side, but my prayers went unanswered.
"Daddy?" Joni whispered as she tentatively opened the door a crack, probably afraid that she would see me jerking off again.
For a moment I considered pretending that I was asleep, but since I had sneezed a minute earlier that didn't seem plausible so instead I just replied, "Yes?" in a voice that probably gave away the dread inside of me.
"Can we talk, Daddy?" Joni asked as she came into the bedroom, leaving the door open, and the resulting light that poured into the room was disconcerting as a spotlight would have been.
"I suppose," I replied and watched Joni come over to the side of the bed and ease down on the edge next to me while I got up on my elbow, making sure the sheet stayed over me.
"About this afternoon," Joni said, and hushed me up when I started to speak. "I'm not mad or anything. I wasn't sure what you were doing at first."
"Nothing I'm very proud of," I admitted. "I'm ashamed and I'm sorry."
"What was it you were doing to my panties?" Joni asked. "It looked like you were smelling them."
I nodded yes as the burning sensation covered my neck and face.
"How come?" Joni asked innocently.
"Been so long since - you know - I've been with a woman," I said, trying not to let the tears welling in my eyes fall. "I've always enjoyed the aroma associated with women. Something about the scent of a woman I guess."
"I like that," Joni said. "You calling me a woman, I mean. Makes me feel all grown up."
"Well, you are," I said, my eyes involuntarily going down my daughter's body, even though the shapeless night shirt revealed little of the lushness underneath.
"Did I smell like Mom?" Joni asked.
"A little, I guess," I said, but it was getting so distant that I hardly remembered her natural scent. The panties that had remained unwashed after her passing had long ago lost that fragrance after holding them to my face countless times.
"That gets you excited?" Joni asked.
"I don't know if we should be talking like this," I suggested, but Joni kept pressing.
"I want to know," Joni explained. "Eddie's the only boy I've ever really been with. Don't know much about men - what makes you guys tick."
"We're all different."
"Then tell me about you," Joni said, making the bed jump as she moved further onto the mattress. "You said the scent excites you?"
"Yes," I said. "Your mother - poor woman - was so willing to do anything to make me happy, and she would let me do just about anything to her, no matter how weird she probably thought it was."
"Like what?" Joni said. "I won't think you're weird. I'm pretty weird myself."
I jumped when I felt my daughter's hand on my knee, and even though it was only through the sheet it still startled me.
"I don't know. I loved the way she smelled. Even after she would come in from gardening all sweaty, I would love to lick the back on her neck - under her arms - places like that. She showered every day, so it wasn't like she smelled bad. Just the fresh scent of her - the pheromones and all - would send shivers down my spine."
"Did Mom like that?" Joni asked.
"I'm not sure she did at first, but as time passed I think she not only tolerated it but began to enjoy it as much as I did."
"That's cool," Joni said. "Her panties - did you used to smell them too?"
"Sometimes, but when the real thing is next to you in bed you don't need to... you know?" I asked, and then saw Joni ease up from the bed and fiddle with something.
"Here Daddy," Joni said calmly as she held the panties she had been wearing in front of me. "Take them. Do what you were doing before."
"I can't," I said as I tried to nudge them away from my face, but as they moved the pungent aroma of her sex washed over me.
"Please," Joni said. "That turned me on so much when I saw you. I - I can do that for you if you want."
"What do you mean?" I asked a second before my daughter's hand slipped under the bed sheet on a mission, and to my shame I didn't stop her.
"It's terrible to be lonely," Joni said as her hand slipped into the fly of my pajamas and found my cock. "I've only been away from Eddie for a few weeks and it hurts so bad. You've been alone for so long. Please - let me."
I looked down at my pajama bottoms, which my daughter had opened up, and her right hand had wrapped around my semi-turgid cock. Her left hand was bringing my hand - the hand that still clutched her panties - to my face.
I groaned as I inhaled the still-warm panties, the pungent scent of her sex fresh and raw. Joni had probably worked the fabric into her pussy for them to be so strongly scented, and the aroma was so intoxicating that not only did I not remove my daughter's hands from my cock, I felt myself getting hard.
"You've got a real thick one, don't you Dad?" Joni said as she began to stroke it gently, running her fingers up and down the length of my cock, moving the foreskin up and down as she did. "Do you like what I'm doing?"
"Yes honey," I answered, my voice muffled my the panties I held to my nose.
"Am I doing this good for you?" Joni answered, her eyes fixed on my cock as she milked it.
"So good."