Let me introduce myself. My name is Terri and I am the 41 year old mother of an 18 year old daughter and a 19 year old son. My husband left when the children were 10 and 11 years old respectively. With my ex's financial help I have managed to keep us fed and with a pretty nice roof over our heads. I am a big believer in recognizing the difference between wants and needs. I have taken care of the kid's needs as best I could, and we pay less attention to our wants.
My son, Jeff, is in his 2nd year of college. His sister, Alex, is in her first year. With both of them away from home during the school year, I have been able to spend a lot more "Me" time. I must admit I haven't been happy with my physical looks over the past few years. So when Jeff left for college I joined a gym and got serious about getting myself back in shape. It was also time for me to get back in the dating scene, which I had pretty much avoided since my divorce. Although I have periods of sexual frustration, I have managed to keep myself content by pleasuring myself with the help of my hard rubber friend.
This brings me to my story. I can't believe I am writing it, much less that I have a story to write. I suppose anything could have created the first spark, but I blame it on a pair of high heeled pumps.
My story begins early this summer, a short time after Jeff came home for the summer. You see, after putting in about 9 months at the gym, I decided I wanted a tan to go with my revived body. What better than a cute little bikini to allow the sun to do its magic on the biggest part of your body? Each day I would rush home from work, change into my bikini, and catch an hour of good sun in our back yard. What I was not prepared for was the fact that my son had never seen me in this state of undress. Seeing me like this had a rather unnerving effect on him which showed in his tongue tied conversations with me. His eyes seemed to be taking in every inch of my body. I felt embarrassed at having him stare at me the way he did, but I didn't make an issue of it. Even his sister noticed and teased him about "checking out" his own mom. I tried to ignore her teasing so not to make Jeff feel uncomfortable, but I couldn't totally ignore the tingle that the situation was creating in me.
I lay in bed at night thinking that I would have to watch what I wore while he was home. After all, he was young with hormones running wild. I caught myself giggling wondering if I had given him an erection? Oh my, where did those thoughts come from? My arm moved across my breasts to discover blood gorged breasts with the most sensitive nipples. Oh my indeed! I told myself to get my mind out of the gutter, but sleep wouldn't come until I had masturbated myself to an intense orgasm.
The next day at work I caught myself feeling guilty. Guilty! Guilty for what, wearing a bikini at my own house? I decided right then and there that I would not compromise my lifestyle just because my son had a problem with it. Besides his sister wore bikinis showing just as much or more. Holy shit, now I was worrying about him staring at his sister. I'd have to keep an eye on that boy.
Things settled down pretty much after I had that little battle with myself. I did catch myself watching Jeff to see a lifted eyebrow or any other indication that he was checking out me or his sister. If he was, he was certainly discreet about it. Damn, was I disappointed that he wasn't? Maybe I have an overactive imagination? He even offered, and I accepted his invitation to massage tanning oil into my back. He made no move to cop a feel. Was I disappointed that he didn't?
As had become tradition at our house, with all three of our birthdays falling within a 2 week period, we planned our joint birthday party for the end of July. I let the kids make the plans. They decided on a family cookout with a couple of movie rentals for later in the evening. This was fine with me, I secretly wanted every minute I could manage with them before they went off to school and left me alone for the year.
Our gift choices were always somewhat predictable. Because we concentrated on the needs the rest of the year, birthdays and Christmas gave us the opportunity to buy something that could only be described as a want. I bought Alex an I-Pad which she had been saving for. For Jeff I picked out a new monitor for his computer at school that I overhead him and his sister discussing.
The party was laid back and both of my gift choices were a hit. Then it was my turn to open my gifts. Alex said that I needed to open Jeff's gift first. I could tell by the box and weight that it was clothing. As I unwrapped it, I saw that it was from my favorite store. I opened the box and folded back the tissue to find the most beautiful little black dress that I had ever seen. I looked at Jeff and he said, "Alex helped me with it, but it was my idea. I know you plan on dating some, and I thought you might like it". I could tell that he was quite pleased at his choice and so was I.
"Open mine now" said Alex. She handed me a box which could be nothing but a pair of shoes. That was exactly what they were, but what shoes. The shoes were red pumps with 5" heels. I laughed, "you expect me to walk in these"? "They will go great with Jeff's dress. Come on mom, let me help you try the outfit on" Alex said, pulling me to my bedroom. She was so excited I thought she was going to totally undress me. I had to remind her I was old enough to undress myself.
She helped me into the dress. It was backless and was to be worn with no bra. I wondered if my smallish "B" cup breasts would hold it in place? As Alex zipped the short side zipper it pulled the front tight so that I needn't worry. I looked into the mirror and had to admit I looked damn good in it. The shoes came next and Alex had been right, they were perfect for the dress. I stood at the mirror looking at myself and liking what I saw. Alex said, "you know what we call shoes like that don't you?" "No", I said. "We call them fuck me shoes". "I don't think I want to hear that from my daughter who is getting ready to leave home for college" I said in the best authoritative tone that I could muster, but I could tell that she knew I was smiling inside.
"Come on, let's show Jeff" Alex said almost running toward the family room. I'm not used to heels, so I made a more cautious entry. I looked at Jeff and saw the same look on his face that I had seen the first day he saw me in my bikini. "Mom, you look incredible" said Jeff. "No she doesn't, she looks hot" piped in Alex, "just look at how great her ass looks". They both laughed as I felt my face flush. I hugged Alex and gave her a kiss on the cheek as I thanked her. I turned to Jeff and put my hands around his neck to pull him down where I could kiss his cheek and hugged myself against his chest. It was then that I realized my nipples were erect again.
The next two weeks flew by with us getting Alex ready for her early freshman orientation. She had to report 10 days before Jeff had to report to class. You probably guessed that I cried like a baby when Alex left. But I wasn't alone, Alex cried almost as much as me. I even saw a lone tear running down her brother's face. Although I was going to miss both of them, I wanted them to make their own ways in the world.
Sending Alex away, brought Jeff and I closer than ever before. We held hands as we took evening walks around the neighborhood, although I tried to make sure we didn't when we were near any of his friend's homes. It didn't seem to be of concern to him. Our conversations seemed more mature and we even discussed the fact that I needed to start dating. I have to tell you, it certainly feels odd to have your own son tell you that you need more male companionship. I promised to start putting myself out there. The fact was there was an older doctor friend who had recently been showing some interest in me.
It was just two days later that the good doctor called and invited me to dinner and dancing. This would be my first opportunity to wear my new dress and shoes. Or would this be seen as too forward for a first date? I decided to go for it.