I thought I had overcome my insecurities. I have become a thirty-five year old man of the middle class America. After settling down with a hard working wife and having a beautiful daughter I was all set to live my American dream: working to death while enjoying the finer luxuries of life.
Somehow I can not avoid feeling mediocre and the stress has gotten to me. I haven't been able to concentrate on my job; I've been procrastinating and even allowed myself to become isolated from friends.
I felt myself on the verge of an extraordinary mental change, perhaps even slipping into insanity.
I find myself with my young daughter's head resting in my lap... just the two of us alone in the house. As if fate were mocking me my wife is gone to work overtime, finding success where I have given up. She has no idea how discontent I've lately become with my routine because she is always at work.
My daughter finished high-school recently, but I could not find it in myself to congratulate her or celebrate her graduation. I never thought I could become so weak as to envy my own child, but I can't help feeling left out when she speaks about her hopes and dreams, the future and options of youth I can never relive.
I could not look upon her smooth skin and lithe body without becoming wholly irritated at my own obvious imperfections which inevitably accompany middle age.
I had before been especially proud of having such a beautiful daughter, the attention she garnered had made me the envy of other parents.
People would always compliment her beauty and I felt that she was the best parts of my wife and me.
If I had flawless glowing skin like hers, so unnatural that it can not exist outside the brief span of youth, I would not waste it lying inside watching television.
In a sudden spasm of anger I clench my fist around the remote and squeeze until the plastic begins to creak. I want to destroy myself, but lacking the courage to do so I fixate my rage on the objects around me.
My angelic Marcelle's blonde curls are suddenly far too warm on my lap, combining with my explosion of anger.I feel alone, alone amongst millions of other men who must share my fate: dissatisfied with easy and meaningless living and delirious to bring about a sudden and violent change.
Marcelle's perfectly round ass becomes the focus of my rage. There is a such thing as being too damnably perfect. Her scanty gym shorts barely complete their journey over her smooth firm buttocks. I remember the same shape in my wife years ago, but I am long accustomed to the developing cellulite and wrinkles.
Marcelle is sleeping in the fetal position like the baby she is, the drone of the television keeping her oblivious to my now heavy breathing. One of the shoulders of her small gray tank top has fallen to the side.
I imagine the soft pink nipples beneath the thin cotton. As she sleeps I set a hand onto her shapely hipbone and realize that my hand can almost entirely cover either one of her ass cheeks. I feel my cock pleasantly throbbing against the weight of her resting head. Even if my job is terrible, I can always feel good about my body, for I wasn't shorted when I was given my john.
I stare down at her passive face, at her rosy red cheek and think of it's companion underneath pressed against my hardening manhood.