*****Tom POV*****
In the light of the morning, it was hard to not feel like I had taken advantage of my daughter. She had been upset and vulnerable, confessing things that must have been unbelievably difficult for her, and I let my emotions get me carried away. I spanked her out of frustration and had her ride my leg until she came for my own sick satisfaction. I want her like a man wants a woman, but even more than that- she's my daughter. She's my baby girl, and I want more than anything for her to be happy, safe, and loved. I know that I could put aside my lust for her if that is what's best. She's more important to me than anything in the world, but could she be more than my daughter? She's so precious, what if I drive her away? Push her too far?
I let out a sigh, I didn't know all of the answers. And I wouldn't let her feel unwanted or take away her ability to choose, so we would have to talk about it. With our lust locked away, for us to clearly think about things. I love her more than anything or anyone, even her mother. Thinking of my wife- Jesus I was lucky that she had a girls night with her friends the night before. Could I have contained my lust even if she had been here last night? No, I didn't think so. I was a lucky basterd. I've known for a long time now that I wasn't in love with Amber. We married because she became pregnant, and it seemed like the right thing to do. I don't hate my wife or even dislike her. I love her, she's been my partner and friend for a long time now. Lying to her? Keeping secrets as drastic as this? I can't do it. Though she isn't the love of my life, she deserved more than this from me. Even if Rachel and I don't pursue a full relationship, we've already pushed it far enough for me to be truthful about my desire for her to Amber. I may not be a perfect man, but I try to be a good man. I'll have to speak to Rachel about this, how to approach Amber.