You & Mama loved each other around a bottle. Mama on the wine, you on the whiskey. Then I came along... 10 weeks too early. That's when you quit drinking. But Mama didn't. So you went to court. Divorced her. Got me. And so it goes.
I just turned 18. You're paying for the college I want by working yourself to death at the auto shop. I always beg him to slow down, that I'll stay closer. But you won't have it. Still, as we countdown days, there's a sadness in your deep blue eyes. I'm all you have left. I'm torn. My boyfriend is going to the same college. He's great and all... but I can't live with myself if I leave Daddy.
Today, I turn in early. I've been crying all day at school because you cried last night. You didn't know I heard. But I did. When I get home I'm exhausted. You're still at work. My boyfriend texts me, asks me to come over, give him some loving. I break up with him over text and turn off my phone.
When I wake up, I hear quiet. 10pm. You should be home. I get up, slink out of my room wearing just my red lace bikini panties and my white cami. I slink against the wall. Peek around the corner. You're sitting in your chair.., drinking...
Oh no. I've made a huge mistake. I drove Daddy back to the bottle. I hurry toward you and fall at your feet, lay my head in your lap, holding your thighs. "Daddy please dont drink. I won't leave I promise. I'll stay with you. Please Daddy please."