You & Mama loved each other around a bottle. Mama on the wine, you on the whiskey. Then I came along... 10 weeks too early. That's when you quit drinking. But Mama didn't. So you went to court. Divorced her. Got me. And so it goes.
I just turned 18. You're paying for the college I want by working yourself to death at the auto shop. I always beg him to slow down, that I'll stay closer. But you won't have it. Still, as we countdown days, there's a sadness in your deep blue eyes. I'm all you have left. I'm torn. My boyfriend is going to the same college. He's great and all... but I can't live with myself if I leave Daddy.
Today, I turn in early. I've been crying all day at school because you cried last night. You didn't know I heard. But I did. When I get home I'm exhausted. You're still at work. My boyfriend texts me, asks me to come over, give him some loving. I break up with him over text and turn off my phone.
When I wake up, I hear quiet. 10pm. You should be home. I get up, slink out of my room wearing just my red lace bikini panties and my white cami. I slink against the wall. Peek around the corner. You're sitting in your chair.., drinking...
Oh no. I've made a huge mistake. I drove Daddy back to the bottle. I hurry toward you and fall at your feet, lay my head in your lap, holding your thighs. "Daddy please dont drink. I won't leave I promise. I'll stay with you. Please Daddy please."
Before you can react aside from setting the bottle on the side table , I'm pawing at the zipper of your grey pants, my big green eyes turned up at you, begging, while you try and form words.
"Baby no... what are you... n—oh, god... stop..." you beg me.
But I know you need me. You've been so lonely all these years. I know you need me to pull back your pants even though you try to push away my hands. I know you need me to take your swelling shaft and slide my lips down over the sides of it , kissing it, licking it, my tiny mouth fighting to take your thick meat in my mouth. And when I do, the fight is over. You're arching your back. Gripping my arms. My hair. Squeezing your eyes shut. Begging...