"Not a great day for a Migraine." I told my sister as I walked into our parent's kitchen to find her hunched up and massaging her temples.
"You're telling me." Her voice was never deep but it was wispy now, for sure in some real pain.
"You need some medicine or a cold cloth or something?" Not rushing to her side but certainly feeling bad for her.
It was the Fourth of July and there would be no place in (or even around) town where she could escape the near constant explosions of fireworks. One went off right then, like I had conjured it, my twenty-four year old sister nearly collapsing to the floor from it. Luckily I had gone to her because I caught her before she could, not needing to pull her to me as she turned to press her face into the crook of my neck and shoulder. Seeking the comfort of another person in her pain. I obliged her by wrapped my arms around her, internally remarking that she was somehow tiny and tall at the same time.
Jenna was 5' 10" and I was 6' 3". I had her by a few inches but she was easily the tallest woman I'd ever embraced. I liked it, I hadn't really thought about it before but I guess I always dated short girls. Having my sister in my arms meant I didn't have to stoop over to hug her. At the same time I also liked the slenderness of her, she was willowy and seemed so fragile. Her long arms between herself and the outside world for a moment before they came up and wrapped around my neck.
"You need anything?" I asked her.
"Just... This for a second, okay?" Squirming her way further against me.
I looked out the window over the sink, which had a good view of the backyard. Mom was lounging on the porch, dad was throwing a frisbee to their dog Mouserat. It probably shouldn't have mattered, but it did. If mom or dad would have come in I would have broken the hug. I don't know why but I would have. Even though mom would have probably smiled and put her hand over her heart, Dad would have pretended nothing a little off was going on. But something about it would have freaked me out. Since they were both outside and seemingly staying that way, then my anxiety at the embrace subsided.
"Yeah, it's okay for a few." I let one arm slide down to her lower back, not because I was going to cop a feel of anything but because it allowed me to pull her tiny (but tall) form against me more.
"Thank you!" She said immediately, clearly preferring the tighter contact as well.
"Mmm hmm," I answered, feeling really comforted myself, holding her and just listening to the AC blowing from the window unit. "Shh, shh, it's okay, I got you." I knew it wasn't fear that was causing the headache but my calming words or maybe just the embrace seemed to help. My sister didn't lose her feet when the next firework went off. I almost thought I wouldn't get an answer, that she was asleep standing up when I asked. "What kind of shampoo are you using?"
"Strawberry Fields," She whispered back. "It's my perfume."
"It's amazing." It wasn't saying that so much as putting my nose to her and inhaling deeply that I wanted to take back as soon as I did it.
"Thanks." Another explosion, just the smallest pain induced spasm. "You smell good too. Not soaked in cologne like most boys your age."
"Thanks," Smiling, unable to help myself. "But you forget I'm twenty-one now, not thirteen."
"I think most males under thirty are boys, even then."
"Yeah okay, I don't need a lecture." Wishing I could debate that but I'd just left my friends house where he was still living with his parents and yelled at his mom for vacuuming and waking us up at ten past eleven.
"No lecture, I just... Sorry." Patting my chest in further apology.
I saw mom get up, I assume she'd heard my car pull in and was wondering what was taking me so long. I had more than enough time to separate from Jenna, but I didn't. She shifted around, no doubt feeling the tension in me build up but not exactly knowing what was happening. Mom did exactly as I thought she would. Stepping in, her mouth fell open in a big happy smile, both hands going over her heart. I rolled my eyes, mom padded over softly before letting her hand rest on Jenna'a back.
"That headache got worse? Even with the medicine?" Mom asked, Jenna thrashed, not because mom was loud, she was far from it, I knew instantly that she had not wanted to get caught like this with me. But moving so fast sent a spike to her head and she fell against my chest, staring up at me weakly. "Baby, you should go lay down."
"I tried and the booms felt like they were booming in my skull." Softer than mom or me, her brown eyes blinking at me a few more seconds before she buried her face back in my chest. "Timothy makes it better though."
"Yeah, he's such a sweet little brother." Mom kissed her finger and then put it on my cheek, beaming at me. "Maybe he should take you to your room and cuddle with you more until your headache goes away." That churning in my stomach to get away streamed loudly at that, at the idea of laying in bed with my sister. While people KNEW! And mom might go bragging to her friends about it. "Tim?"
"No, that's okay. I'm..." Feeling the same way as me she pushed out of my embrace, but the pain hit her and she grabbed for temples while I supported her.
"Jenna! Don't be stubborn! You get that from your dad, let your brother take you to your room. Close the door and the curtains, the dark and quiet will help." Mom pushed her daughter into my arms, then moved both of us towards the other end of the house. "No, no, no. I'll tell dad that him and Mouserat have to stay outside, you know that stupid dog will be sniffing and scratching at the door if he knows you're both here and not petting him. Dad is five beers in, that means he's singing 80s theme songs without knowing it. I'll keep them outside."
I let Jenna do the resisting, only she didn't do any. Mom slowly but surely guiding us to the hallway off the kitchen that lead to the far end of the house. Partway there Jenna looked up at me. Embarrassed that we'd been seen, that this was happening, but in enough pain that she hoped I was okay with it. I wasn't, my brain was doing the math on how long it would take for the entire town to know about this.
"Don't post anything mom." I said, which put a little relief in Jenna's brown eyes.
"I... I won't, although it's super cute and I don't see why..."
"I know you don't, that's why I'm telling you." Mom thought about it for a moment and nodded her agreement.
"And you can only tell your friends that Timothy..." Talking, walking, and a firework had her overcome with pain again. I just scooped her up, mom letting out a cry of pure delighted approval at the sight. Jenna knew it would only make it worse but couldn't help herself but to wrap her arms around my neck, head on my shoulder, hurting too much to care. She gulped and went on, "Only tell them that Timothy really helped me, not how."