All characters are at least 18 years old.
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Drew was certainly in a good mood this morning. And why wouldn't he be? His mother whom he lusted after was slowly surrendering her inhibitions. A small and particularly feeble part of me chastised myself for my behavior. That voice was getting quieter each day. Besides, we were only kissing, and we kept our fantasies to ourselves. We were still leaving many lines uncrossed. And I was actually beginning to believe my own bullshit.
I had pumped myself before moving to the kitchen. Three quarters of a bottle of milk this time that I sighed at before pouring right down the drain. At least I had clothes that fit today. Couldn't go around showing that much cleavage all the time.
"Morning, mom," Drew said as he came out of his room.
"Morning, baby," I replied, turning away from the pancakes for a moment. He leaned down toward me, and I thought he was going to kiss me on the lips. In broad daylight! But instead he pecked me on the cheek and sat down for breakfast. Why was my heart beating so fast?
"Ugh, I'm so glad finals were done early this year," he groaned. "And I'm so glad the college apps are in, too." He rested his face in his hands, exhaling heavily.
"How many did you apply to?" I asked as I plated the pancakes and set them down on the table.
"Thanks. Seven. Eight, if you count the community college in town."
I frowned quizzically. "No offense to the school, but why did you even bother? You've got the smarts. You could get into Ivy League if you wanted."
"No I can't. I don't test well, you know that, mom." He was shoveling his food down quickly. "I have *one* reach that is Ivy League. A couple of target schools, and then the rest are safety."
"Including community college?"
"What's wrong with community college?"
"Oh come on, Drew. You can do better. And it's not like it'd be breaking the bank. I have enough set aside for two full years of private school, without needing any financial aid. If you have to settle, at least pick a state school." I arched an eyebrow at him.
"Anything besides community college means I need to leave town," he stated flatly.
And an ugly feeling in my stomach felt like it was about to disembowel me. How had I forgotten? Drew would have to leave home. Leave me. Which was completely normal, and would help him grow as a person, and would lead him toward a healthy life, and oh my God please not my baby.
I took a deep breath. "I just don't want you wasting your potential," I said simply. "Being on your own will be good for you." I couldn't even feel the words pass my lips.
When Drew answered, his voice was like gravel. "Yeah. Thanks for breakfast, mom." With that, he stood woodenly and left. I remained, with a growing pit inside me that ran as deep and cold as Tartarus.
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"So, you still milking?" Jazz asked at lunch.
"Why don't you just tell the whole office," I hissed, looking around warily. She gave me an infuriating grin, and I sighed. "More than yesterday. I think it's getting worse, and I don't know what to do."
"Y'know, some guys are into that. Find you one of them, and you ain't never have to pump again."
"I think I'll stay away from fetishists, thanks," I muttered.
She chuckled. "Anyway. You sure it ain't serious?"
I shook my head. "Just inconvenient. Doesn't pose an immediate health risk, but I'd like to figure out the cause."
"Aight. Damn, why does all the cool shit happen to you?" She held back a snicker, knowing the glare I cast at her was coming.
"Define cool shit," I said sourly, and she laughed.
I had to speak with Leon about my irregular presence lately, and though he refrained from asking many questions, he was firm on the matter of me making it up to all the people who had covered for me. Like I said, the best manager ever.
I was later than usual arriving for coffee with Sasha.
"Privet," I said hurriedly, sitting down.
"*Privet*, Coco," she replied. For once, today she hadn't ordered my drink for me. "You are sure you are not pregnant?"
"Absolutely. Unless I'm the second coming of the Virgin Mary," I joked, waving down a waitress. She nodded and went to get my coffee without even taking my order.
"But *Deva Mariya* was virgin. Are you?" Sasha chuckled, and I blushed. "Do you want child?"
The question caught me off guard. It seemed out of the blue, but we actually were on topic. I almost told her I already had a son when I caught myself, and she cocked her head questioningly.
"I like children," I deflected. "But at my age, I don't know if it's the best idea."
"You are still young!" she insisted. "Plenty of time to make baby." What a strange turn of events, that a teenage girl sounded more like an old woman waiting to become a grandmother. I laughed and shrugged.
"First I'd need a guy to help with that," I chuckled.
"You will have Drew's baby?" she wondered innocently, and I think my heart stopped. "Coco? You are alright?"
"I'm-- I'm fine. No. Yeah, no. I don't think so. Probably not a good idea," I rambled, flustered. If only she knew what she'd just suggested. My latte arrived, and it turned out Sasha had already torn open a packet of sugar for me. She poured the white powder into my coffee and I thanked her, stirring while I stewed in my thoughts.