Jim Swanson knew his family was middle-middle class: they had some money, but it wasn't like they could afford to just go anywhere at the drop of a hat. He knew if his parents had never met then he wouldn't be alive. He knew that his mother, Sharon, was unhappy and he wondered why she stayed with his father. Finally, he knew that because of the maltreatment of his mother at his father's hands, that he hated his father.
James, Jim's father, never physically abused Sharon. His maltreatment came in the form of neglect. James was only thirty-nine, but he was an old thirty-nine. He had fallen into the routine of coming home from work and isolating himself from Jim and Sharon. He would take his meals in front of the TV instead of at the table with them, and he generally would fall asleep there, too. He wouldn't permit Sharon to work, and he absolutely refused to allow her to return to college to finish out her degree.
"Why do you continue to put up with this?" Jim asked his mother one night. "You know he's never going to change." He stopped, took a deep breath, and said, "You deserve better, Mom. All he does when he gets home is eat, shit, pop the top on a beer or six, fart, and watch reruns of
The Dukes of Hazzard
until he passes out while you're left alone and lonely." He placed his palm against his mother's right cheek and added, "You are too sweet and beautiful a woman to continue living like this."
Sharon looked down, unable to say anything because she knew her son was right. Still, she was unwilling to do anything to change her circumstance, which frustrated Jim even more.
This happened on a Thursday. The following day, another conversation ensued. It was around eleven o'clock. Jim had just gotten home from school and went to tell his mother about the good fortune he had. "I aced my Algebra test today, Mom, and seeing as I have a ninety-eight average, I am dismissed from taking the final."
"Well, isn't that wonderful," Sharon said as she gave Jim a congratulatory hug. "Of course, I'm not surprised. You're one of the smartest people I know. Now, grab that laundry basket and carry it into my room for me, Brainiac."
Jim chuckled as he did so. His mother sat on the bed and he placed it before her, then sat next to her. He looked at her and smiled. She smiled back, then picked up one of James's T-shirts from the basket and began to fold it. Out of the corner of her eye she saw him staring at her. She turned. "What?"
"You're too good for this, Mom."
"Too good for what?"
"You know, if Dad wants to throw his life away, then to hell with him. To hell with all of this. It's not too late for you to go back to college, Mom. You can be so much more than a widow to a half-live gimp."
"Your father, he said ... and the money it would take ..."
"First of all, fuck what Dad said."
"Jim!!"
"I said it, and I meant it." He took a deep breath. "I'm sorry, Mom. I just ... Look, you could get grants to go back to college. Hell, if it comes down to it, take out student loans. Dad's gone all day. How the hell would he know what you were doing?"
"I just ... don't want ... any arguments ..."
"What is wrong with you?" Jim asked as he began to cry. "You are the most incredible woman I know, the most beautiful woman, inside and out, that anyone could ever hope to meet. You're throwing your life away and I'm trying to throw you a lifesaver, Mom, but you refuse to allow yourself to be rescued. Do you want to know what scares me most, though? I'll tell you. I am so damned afraid that one day I'm going to wake up and realize that you have become just like Dad, and that would be the biggest crime anyone could ever commit against you.
"I love you, Mom, with all my heart, but I can't keep watching you die piece by piece with every passing day. Do something. Let me help. Tell me what to do and I'll do it."
Sharon took Jim's face in her hands and turned him toward her. She wiped his tears with her thumbs. "You really do love me, don't you, Jim?"
Then it happened. If Jim hadn't been looking directly at her, directly into her eyes, he would have missed it and not understood it for what it was. It was slight, almost undetectable, but she inclined her head the tiniest of bits before composing herself once again.
Was she about to kiss me
? Jim asked himself, and no sooner had the thought crossed his mind than his penis grew to full erection. His hands immediately went to his lap to hide his embarrassment.
She asked me something. What was it? Oh, yeah
. "Of course, I love you, Mom, which is why I hurt so much. Please tell me that, at the very least, you will reconsider going back to school. And mean it."
She smiled. "Okay. I promise. I'll give it some serious thought." She drew him close and kissed him on the forehead. "And thank you for believing in me, Jim. Lord knows I can't get that kind of support from your father."
"Speaking of whom," Jim said, "today is Friday, which means he'll be stopping by the bar to get tanked before coming home. What say I take you out on a date, just the two of us, and we'll do whatever you want?"
"A real, live date, huh?" Sharon said. "I can't remember the last time I had one of those."
"Then say yes, Mom. My treat. The sky is the limit."
"You know what?" Sharon said. "Let's do it. Only, you don't need to spend your money."
"No-no, Mom. I asked you out, and as a gentleman I shall assume the mantle of absorbing all costs. Now, what would you like to do tonight?"
"Well ... Nice dinner, a little dancing, and we can finish up with a walk through the park. How does that sound?"
"Simply wonderful," Jim said. "Now, I want you to pick out your finest dress and jewelry, and just so you know, I'll be wearing my tux."
"Oh, dear," Sharon said with a snicker. "You aren't joking around, are you? I guess I'm going to have to step up my game tonight."
Jim looked at the clock on the wall. "It's three-thirty now. Shall we say seven?"
"Seven it is," She agreed. Stephen kissed her hand and exited the room, the thought that she might kiss him already driven from his mind.
He immediately pulled out his phone and looked up the number to Griswald's by the Bay, the nicest restaurant in town. He dialed, and when the hostess answered, he inquired about reserving a table. "I'm sorry, sir, but we take reservations a week in advance."
"Damn it!" he whispered to himself. Then, "Oh, is Mark Burnham working tonight?" Mark and Jim were friends. They had been since meeting in college a few years back. If one couldn't get a favor every now and again ... Besides, as the assistant manager, Mark could pretty much do what he damned well pleased at that restaurant.
"One moment, please."
He was put on hold. A minute later, "This is Mark."
"Mark. Jim Swanson. I have a special event I'm celebrating, and I tried to reserve a table for later this evening, but your hostess says you have none available. I was wondering if you could review the ledger and see if you can perhaps squeeze us in?"
"Just a moment, Jim." Silence. "What time would you need it?"
"Seven-thirty."
Silence. "Okay. I can give you table thirty-one," he said as he penciled in Jim's name. "It's a corner table, sultry lighting. You'll enjoy it."
"Thanks a lot, man."