I couldn't sleep, so I got up in the middle of the night to get a glass of milk. I passed Peter's room in the hallway and paused, wondering if he was awake, wondering if he was thinking of me. Wondering what would happen if I went in. But I moved past. And stopped at Ethan's room, wondering again what would happen if I went in. I wondered if he wanted me--if I could have him if I wanted to. I tried to convince myself that it wasn't the case, but in the end, I knew that just like Peter, he was mine for the taking. I kept walking.
On a hunch, I looked out the front window. The kitchen light was on across the way at Olivia's place. I needed someone to talk to. I slipped on my sandals, pulled a jacket on over my nightgown, and went out into the suburban night. There was a warm breeze, and the neighbourhood was so quiet. I went around to the back of the house, and peeked in through the window. Olivia was sitting at the kitchen table, her laptop in front of her. She was drinking some sort of juice and wearing flannel pajamas. I tapped quietly on the window.
She looked up, startled, but smiled when she saw me.
"Hey," she whispered as she opened the door. "Everything alright?"
"Yeah. I just needed to talk."
She nodded. "Tony sleeps lightly. Let's go for a walk."
She met me around at the front door, sandals and a jacket over her pajamas. She had Norberg, one of her dogs with her. "We'll go to the park," she said.
We walked quietly for a little while. "Is it what it looks like?" she said at last.
I nodded. "Yeah."
"You told me you weren't getting any. Not that I'd necessarily expect you to tell the truth about something like that. I mean, I can understand why you lied."
"No, I was telling the truth yesterday. All of this, it just happened today."
"Really?"
I nodded.
"And how was it?"
I waited a while before answering. "It was really, really good."
"I thought so. Hottest sex I've had in my life was with my cousin. I was twenty one. We screwed on the rec-room pool table after thanksgiving dinner. I came like ten times."
"Something about the really awful, sinful stuff."
"Yeah. Of course, I don't have the option of going any further. I'm fucking the boy from down the street now, which is probably about as close as I could get to incest. With no son, I mean. Of course there's my daughters, but I'm not really bi..." she thought about what she was saying, how she had said that to me right before we made out. We laughed together. "So maybe I will do my daughters. Peter's a stud though. You're so lucky. You have to tell me the details."
So I did. Everything from the beginning, even about how Peter had been listening when she and I made out with the vegetables. I told her everything I said to Peter, everything he did to me.
"Wow. That's really hardcore. Send that in to some magazine."
I shrugged, feeling better about the whole thing. "What if I had the opportunity to do Ethan, too?"
"Really?"
"I don't know, I'm just thinking about it."
"One at a time, or both at once?"
The image formed in my mind of straddling Peter's cock while Ethan fucked me up the ass. I looked at Olivia, who had her eyes closed. She was apparently imagining the same thing.
"Two brothers. That would be hot," she said. "Especially if they were twins. Or a father and a son, that's even more taboo, I think. Like Peter and Harold."
I laughed. "Good luck with that. Harold hasn't gotten hard in years."
Olivia shrugged. We stopped walking and turned toward each other, again seeming to think the same thing, and then leaned toward each other for a gentle, passionate kiss. It was so tender and sensual, but I felt the bite of arousal behind her tongue.
"You're my best friend," she told me. "And I'll never second-guess you're decisions. I'm just glad you're honest with me."
I nodded. "Of course."
"And you have to keep giving me details."
When I got home, I went upstairs and immediately slipped into Ethan's room. It made perfect sense: were I to have sex with Ethan, it would make him an accomplise in incest, and would guarantee his silence. Deep down, I knew that wasn't the real reason. I wanted to fuck my younger son, I wanted to see how far I could take this.
I stood above his bed, wondering how to proceed as my eyes became accustomed to the low light. There would be no need for seduction, no need to discuss it. I knelt down, drew back the covers from his pale, moon-blue chest, and slipped my hand down inside his boxer shorts. He was warm and flaccid, and I touched him gently, wondering how aroused I could get him before he would wake up. My heart was beating so heavily that my chest was a little sore. The only thing more exciting than a young lover was a new young lover. How would he react? What would he say? Or would he just lie there and pretend to be asleep? He was growing beneath my hand, the tension of his root strong enough to draw from its resting position and push at the thin cotton of the boxers. I untucked him, poking his cock up through the opening in his shorts, and then leaned forward, and wrapped it in my mouth. It was long and slender, not a thick cock like Peter's. It was a good cock for sucking. It would be a good cock for ass-fucking, too. I worked my mouth around it, letting it rub against the roof of my mouth. Ethan stirred in his sleep, then went still, then moved again and suddenly sat up.
"Mom?"
"Lie back, Ethan," I mumbled, barely taking him out of my mouth.
Ethan slowly slid back down. "What are you doing, mom?"