I've never been able to fully understand sexual attraction. I'd like to. I'd like to be able to figure out why I'm attracted to some, and not others.
I know physical attraction is a big part of it. But there's so much more. Take Kayla Anderson, for instance. The moment I first laid eyes on her I was attracted, partly because she is stunningly beautiful.
As head coach of the UCLA Women's Tennis Team, it's my job to pick talent. I knew of Kayla through her coach, Julie Fraser, one of the consultants we bring in to help round out our players. Kayla doesn't know this, but Julie is a big reason why she made our traveling team as a freshman. I watched recordings of Kayla play and knew her stats. Julie was right. Here was a person that could probably go pro. This was something I was familiar with. Kayla was me about 10 or 12 years ago. I got a tennis scholarship to UCLA and ended up beating a national champ. That helped launch a pro career, until a knee injury ended it about 3 years ago.
By the way, Julie is also extremely beautiful, and an exciting and sensuous lover.
The first time I saw Kayla in person was at our first practice as a team last fall. She walked into our tennis arena with her brother, Kai. Kai's a real looker too. I noticed something pass between the two as Kai went up into the stands to watch, and Kayla continued out onto center court. It was more than a brother/sister thing, but I dismissed it at the time.
Kayla's the one who really caught my eye. She's about 5'6", 110 pounds. She looks like she stepped out of a Swedish fashion magazine. Honey-blonde hair down to her shoulder blades (tied in a pony tail), a slender waist, and an athletic build. One of her best attributes is her breasts: large, round, and firm - they don't even bounce that much when she runs after a ball.
I was immediately attracted to her physically. By the way, I'm pretty equal when it comes to my attraction to men and women. I've loved both over the years since losing my virginity to... well, I'll get into that later. But there was more to why I was drawn to Kayla. We exchanged a look as she approached the rest of the team. Something sparkled in her eyes, and it wasn't just the "I recognize you from the pro tennis circuit" sort of look. She seemed open and curious and easy going.
I was hooked immediately, but had to put on my "game face" as coach and hide my initial feelings.
"Welcome, Kayla!" I said brightly as she set her racket bag down and shook my hand. "I'm Ellie, and my coaching staff, which you've already met."
Kayla shook hands with my two assistant coaches. She seemed shy and a bit reserved at the time. I figured she was a little in awe of being picked for the team as one of only two freshman.
I introduced her to the six other girls on the team, and we got into the practice. I watched Kayla play against the rest of the team. She was good, very very good, and held her own against much more experienced players.
As I observed her moving about the court, I was impressed by her flexibility, agility, and how good she looked running after a tennis ball. Now, I know, a coach is not supposed to be thinking about such things, but I couldn't help it. Kayla was an attractive female - and more. I found myself wondering if she was bisexual, or maybe just gay.
As she approached me after one of the games, I noticed her nipples protruding out from her sports bra. They stuck straight out from her chest, no sagging at all. I was starting to respond physically, and wondered if my smaller nipples were showing through my bra! Did I notice her checking out my boobs?
"How'd I do, Coach?" she asked, a little breathless, her chest heaving from activity - making her nipples stick out even more.
"Great for a first day," I said, offering her a sports drink, which she took, our fingers touching as she took the bottle from my hand. "Walk with me."
We started moving towards the showers. Kai, her brother, came down from the stands and greeted us.
"That was awesome, Kayla!" he said, giving her a big hug.
For a second I thought they were going to kiss each other, but I was sure at the time that it was just my imagination.
"Thanks, Kai!" Kayla said, breaking from the hug and turning to me. "This is my twin brother, Kai," she said to me. "Kai, meet Coach Jameson."
I reached out my hand to this specimen of a man. Over six feet, large muscular build, more honey-blonde hair, cut short. Another Swedish model in the making. Twins, huh?
"Please, call me Ellie," I said to Kai.
"Nice to meet you, Ellie," he said, taking my hand. It was warm and surprisingly soft for a guy, though his grip was strong. "She's a pretty good player, huh?" he asked.
"Not bad for a freshman," I responded, dropping Kai's hand and touching Kayla on the shoulder.
Kayla looked a little crestfallen.
"Don't worry," I said, rubbing her shoulder slightly. "We'll get you in perfect shape! In fact, I wanted to talk to you about that."
"Okay," Kayla said. "I guess I'll catch up to you later, Kai," she said to her brother.
"That's okay. I gotta go anyway. Football practice starts in thirty."
With that, Kai turned and jogged away.
Kayla turned to face me and we started walking again to the showers.
"Normally I'd bring in one of our consultants to help iron a few things out, but you've already worked with one of them - Julie Fraser?"
"Oh yeah," she said. "Julie's been our coach for forever!"
"Right," I said, already knowing that. "Well, I'm not sure she's the one to help hone you. I think I'll take on that duty myself."
To be honest, I think my attraction to Kayla may have played a part, a big part, in that decision. But... oh well, I'm the coach and I can do what I want.
"Let's get together and start by reviewing some recordings. Meet me in my office after you shower."
Kayla and I walked into the locker room. I headed to my office while Kayla went to her locker just outside. I was used to seeing women in various stages of undress and usually didn't think much of it. But while I was setting up some video to review with Kayla, I couldn't help but glance over at her a few times.
Kayla didn't seem to mind being undressed in front of others. She quickly stripped off her tennis outfit and turned about a 45 degree angle away from me, carrying her towel to the showers. I could tell how large her breasts were, and even caught site of one of her areola as she went by. I was lusting after an 18 year old!
I turned my head away as she entered the showers and concentrated on what I was doing, though I must admit, I was starting to feel very aroused by this new student.