"That just made me a little wet, Sean."
I know I'm not the only person in this world to have ever had a crush on a sibling. And if you are at all like me, or anyone else for that matter you probably remember a moment where that crush went either of one way or another.
In university I had a guy friend that I adored, and wanted to be with sexually. But you don't want to be wrong about that sort of thing if you're going to try and make it go forward. He wasn't the first guy I'd fallen for, but with the other two there was always this moment where I convinced myself I knew that it wasn't going to happen based on that moment. It could be something someone says, or the way they look at you at a certain moment and you let your brain determine right there and then if it goes any further.
With Joel I knew the day that I seduced him it was going to happen. Our moment came when we were shopping for a meal that we had decided we were going to make instead of going out for dinner when I went to see his new place. As we picked out things, I looked at our basket and said "It looks like we're getting ready for a date." It was a throw-away line if it needed to be. One that I could laugh off if I caught a glimpse of annoyance or discomfort. But he looked in my eye a little longer and said "then we should get some wine." So I slept with Joel. Because I knew.
Now my sister was sitting across from me in the restaurant, looking me right in the eye and telling me my confession that I had masturbated to the thought of being with her had made her a little wet. And that in just a few seconds, we would have our moment.
"When did you last cum thinking of me, Sean?"
"This afternoon, sis."
Before this, the evening was comfortable but unpleasant. If she was having any trouble processing what had happened before I left on my trip, she was not going to be denied the courtesy of having whatever information she needed to keep working through it. She had intentionally picked a restaurant nearby in part I think so that neither of us had a retreat, and each of us were at the mercy of a timeline. Once we were seated, there was enough routine to distract, but not enough to interfere.