Karen would always remember the first time she saw her son masturbating.
It happened months ago. Tom had just turned 19. She wanted to surprise him on the midnight of his birthday with a gift while he was still watching tv in the living room.
She held her son's gift and walked towards the living room without making a sound -- and what she saw left her stunned: Her son was watching softcore porn on tv. As she quietly stepped closer to the couch, she could see that he was pleasuring himself.
Her heart pounded. She couldn't believe that her wholesome young man could do something so brazen in their living room. Sure, she knew that all boys were especially horny at that age, but this? In the same house while he thought his mother was sleeping?
But above anything else, she couldn't believe how she felt about seeing him pleasure himself so explicitly. Karen had only been with one man her entire life, and that was her ex-husband. Her favorite fantasy was to watch him masturbate while looking at her, but her ex-husband always laughed it off and was reluctant to do it because of how ridiculous it seemed.
Now there she was, the middle of her legs becoming wet, watching her son jerk off. She was aroused and she knew it. She tiptoed back to her room before she could get caught and she did something she NEVER thought she would EVER do -- she fantasized about her son.
***
"This looks good," Tom said as he went to the kitchen for breakfast.
She smiled, "Thanks. I was supposed to meet some clients this morning, but I got a message last night that they had to cancel. My boss said I could finish my report at home, so I figured I might as well do some cooking and catch up on chores."
"That's cool," he replied while eating. "I've got an exam today and it's a real pain in the ass. But seriously mom, you work too hard and you should try relaxing a little."
"If I relaxed during my free time, then who would cook and clean for my college boy?"
"Good point. In that case, just work the amount that you need and don't tire yourself out too much."
She playfully slapped him on the arm. "Very funny. You know, if I didn't love you so much, I'd force you to do your laundry and clean your room."
He finished his food and kissed her. "Then I guess I'm lucky to have such an awesome mother. I wish I could stay and eat, but I have to meet some friends for last minute studying. It's the only way I can be as smart as you, right?"
"I'm glad we agree on that," she replied as he smiled and left.
***
After cleaning the dishes and vacuuming the carpet, Karen went to her son's room to do his laundry. She pulled off the pillow case on his bed, and when she grabbed the blanket, she saw something that left her as speechless as the day she caught her son masturbating: There was a photo of
her
underneath his blanket.
'What's this doing here?'
she thought to herself.
It was a photo of her in a one-piece bathing suit from a summer vacation they had two years ago. The picture itself was from a photo album which she kept in the closet in the hallway. But what was it doing on his bed?
A realization came over her. When she vacuumed his room a moment earlier, she had picked a few pieces of used tissue paper off the floor and threw them in the trash.
'Oh god,'
she gasped.
'Was my son thinking about me?'
Karen felt torn. She felt disgusted and betrayed that her son could do such a thing with her picture. But on the other hand, she couldn't be mad at him because a few months ago, she had watched him masturbate and then she fantasized about him afterwards. The thought of her son masturbating to her picture made her feel inexplicably naughty, but in a good way. She even felt flattered by it.
Almost without thinking, Karen walked to her room to grab an even more private photo of herself which she hid in a drawer. It was a rare picture of her in a small bikini at a pool party with close friends.
She went back to her son's room and tucked it neatly under his blanket for him to 'use' later.
***
The rest of the day was as usual. She did her work, cooked, had dinner with her son, and watched tv before calling it a night. Also as usual, Karen ended her day by washing up and putting on her flannel pajamas before heading to bed. But when she exited her bathroom, she saw her son walking towards her bedroom. And by the look on his face, he had something important to say.
"Mom... Were you... did you clean my room today?" he asked uncomfortably, standing in her room.
"Of course I did," she replied casually, as if nothing was out of the ordinary. "Your room didn't just clean itself, you know."
"I know that. But my bed... did you..."
She softly smiled, "If you're referring to the picture left under your blanket, then don't worry, it
wasn't
a ghost that put it there -- I did."
"Am I missing something?" he asked. "I mean, shouldn't you be mad at me? Aren't you upset at all?"
"I'll answer your question on one condition," she replied.
"What's that?"
"I want you to tell me why you were using my picture. And I want an honest answer."
"Is this necessary?"
She nodded. "It's necessary if you want me to answer your question. Don't worry, I'm not judging you for this. Answer truthfully."
"I don't know. There's nothing else to use around here."
"Wrong answer. We have cable tv and the internet. Now tell me why you were using my picture."
He paused for a moment. "Fine. Being completely honest here, I've always thought of you as being my ideal woman. You're smart, classy, caring, and you're really really sexy. I know you're my mom and everything, but that's just how I feel."
"That's very sweet of you to say," she replied, feeling genuinely touched by his words.
"Now it's your turn. Why did you leave your bikini picture in my room?"
She sighed, "Since you were so open and honest, here it goes; I've always been excited by the thought of a man pleasuring himself. Don't ask me why, but it just gets me going. Your father rarely ever let me watch him masturbate, and on the rare occasions he did, it would only be for a quick few seconds and he would laugh before stopping. Then a few months ago, I saw you... you know..."
"You caught me jerking off?
She nodded, "In the living room late at night. I saw you masturbating, and truthfully, a big part of me was very aroused. And when I saw my picture in your bed today, I was flattered by it. In fact, it turned me on in a strangely erotic way."
"All I can say is -- wow! You always were a cool mom, but when it came to the magic s-word, I've always thought you were a real prude because of how conservative you always act," he said, referring to sex.