I woke up to the sound of my stepson MJ sneaking into the house at four in the morning. I look over at my husband Mark to find him still sound asleep. I didn't want to wake him since it was Saturday and he generally sleeps in. I'm nude except for a pink thong, so I throw on a white knee length terry cloth robe and tie it. Then I head down the stairs. I can see a light on in the kitchen and I figure he's making himself something to eat. As I walk toward the kitchen I hear him crying, balling actually.
"I'm so sorry Cindy I just wanted to try something new. No...I...I..." he gasped.
I stop before going into the kitchen. He's on the phone with his girlfriend. I don't want to be nosy but I also wanted to know what's going on. What got him so upset?
I mean I'm his mom for goodness sake I have a right to be concerned...right?
"Please Cindy don't break up with me!" he cries.
I put my hand over my heart. Oh no I think. Poor thing!
"Don't hang up...I...CINDY!"
His cellphone flies out into the hallway and crashes against the wall and he's crying even harder now.
My heart hurts for him and I walk right into the kitchen. He's startled by my presence and he stops crying and wipes his tear filled eyes with the back of his arm.
I hurry over and put an arm around him, "Honey what's wrong?"
"Cindy just broke up with me Tina!"
He never calls me mom even though I doted over him for the last eight years of his life. I don't mind the fact that he considers me more of a friend than a mom. But he graciously allows me to call him my son. "What happened honey? What caused the..."
"It was ME it was my fault not hers." he starts crying again.
Though he's eighteen he's still my baby and I can't stand to see him cry. I get down on my knees and reach up and I take his face in my hands and lift his head. "Please MJ stop crying and tell mommy what's wrong?
He shakes his head and looks away. "It's my fault."
"You keep saying that sweetie. Now tell mommy what you think you did to cause it?"
He looks away from me and down at the floor. An embarrassed look on his face.
"Please tell me. I love you and you know you can tell me anything." I pleaded.
"I know but I can't tell you this."
"You've always been able to tell me anything, young man. Nothing is off the table you know that."
He looked away "Okay you want to know, huh? Well I'll tell you Mommy..." he said smartly. He always calls me mommy when he's pissed about something.
I nod, "Please sweetie."
"I wanted Cindy to give me a blow job and she wouldn't. OKAY? There! Now you know!"
I rocked back on my heels wanting to giggle but I kept a straight face. "Okay. "It's not your fault MJ. In a relationship it's okay to tell your partner what you like in bed and vice versa. You were in the right baby. Trust me." I say squeezing his knee.
He shakes his head, I just wanted to try something...something that I saw you doing to dad."
My mouth dropped, "What?"