A/N: Hey guys, sorry for the long wait. A girl I work with had to go in for surgery and I've been covering her shifts. The next installment should be up soon. This series is almost complete. I really appreciate all the comments.
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We couldn't find it at the campus library, but we did find it in the city library. I got the last copy. I was one lucky bastard.
We got lunch out and by the time we got home it was 2pm. I immediately started working on my essay, and Jesse was a good little brother and left me alone. I didn't really want him to, but we both knew I wouldn't be able to focus with him there.
Around 10pm Jesse came into my room with a bowl full of mint chocolate chip ice cream. He set the bowl on my desk before moving behind me. His hands trailed down my chest, and his face was on my shoulder.
"I think you've earned a break." He murmured, pecking my cheek. He pulled away and sat on my bed. I grabbed my ice cream and turned in my chair to face him. He was wearing just a pair of blue boxers.
"You know you're the best little brother in the whole world? Honestly, I thought I was going to shoot myself if I had to write another sentence about Beowulf, the Epic Hero." I said, taking my bowl and beginning to eat.
"It's your fault for taking English Literature." He said, laughing.
"Only chicks take that course. I thought it would help me pick up chicks." I shrugged with a small chuckle.
"We see how well that worked." Jesse said, stretching out on my bed. He laid on his stomach with his head near the end, facing me. "I guess you didn't know you were gay until after you signed up, huh?"
"I think I was just resisting it." I replied.
"But you can't choose who you love, right?" He asked, propping his head up onto his hand.
"Yeah, that's right Jesse." I wanted to know if Jess was open to...well, me. If he could love me. "Do you think that's good Jesse? That you can't choose who you love, I mean."
Biting his lip, he said, "I don't know. I mean there's a lot of bad things out there about love, you know? Like...when people have sex with horses." He said, before laughing.
"You know that's not what I meant. I mean, well for example, what about...incest? Do you think it's bad, what we're doing?"
His dark blond eyebrows furrowed and his face scrunched up in contemplation.
"It doesn't feel bad. But, I guess it is. If anyone found out..."
I set down my half-finished ice cream and sighed deeply.
"What?" Jesse asked, noticing my depressed demeanor.
"I'm just tired." I lied.
Jesse crawled up to the top of my bed and sat on his knees. He patted the space beside him and smiled at me.
"Come to bed, then. We can go right to sleep."
I smirked. "What makes you think you can sleep in my room, huh?" I shut the door and stood against the frame, next to the light switch.
"Hey, I gave you a blowjob today. And ice cream. That means I don't have to sleep by myself in the cold tonight." He made a fair enough argument. I flicked the light off and kicked my jeans off. I tossed my shirt to the floor before heading to the bed.
"Jesse, you're fucking freezing." I said as I crawled next to him under the covers.
"That's what I'm saying Michael." He responded. He pulled my arm over his waist, and backed closer to me, so that we were spooning. I tenderly grazed the soft skin of his toned stomach.
We lay together in the darkness for a while.
"I love you so much Jess." I said quietly. I waited for a response, but it was too late, Jesse was gone.
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The next morning I awoke to an empty bed. Sunlight was streaming in from my bedroom window and my eyes watered as they adjusted to the bright yellow glow.
I headed out into the hallway to try and search for my little brother, but as soon as I walked past the bathroom, my unasked question was answered. He was in the shower. It made me excited just thinking about it. I walked in casually.
"Morning!" Jess chimed when he heard me enter.
"Morning, love." I responded, heading to the sink. I began brushing my teeth.
"Michael, can I ask you something? Well, two things. Not including this." He babbled, poking his head out from behind the shower curtain. I spat out the toothpaste and turned to him.
"Of course. What's on your mind?"
"Can I have a kiss?" He asked, smiling at me. I chuckled, walking towards him. My fingers curled in his wet blond hair, and I pressed my lips to his. His tongue tenderly traced my bottom lip, and I opened my mouth, letting him enter. I sucked at his tongue as our lips passionately moved together. His hand grasped mine and he began pulling me closer.
"Whoa, slow down there, tiger." I breathed, leaning down to drop my boxers. I climbed into the shower, the hot water splashing against my cold body.