"Candy, I swear, If I don't get laid soon I'm going to burst," I confessed to my best friend.
It had been two years since my bastard ex-husband impregnated his secretary and left me. If that's not the most cliche end of a marriage, I don't know what is.
"Kelsey, honey, John's long been old enough for you to go out for a good time. You coddle him as if he were still a child. Honey, that's a grown-ass man living in your house. He doesn't need you any longer."
I knew she was right. My only child, John, graduated college and was already starting a fine career as a fireman. He was saving money for a house and I was fine with him living with me. It kept me from being completely alone.
"I don't coddle him!" I spat.
"Okay, what are you doing right now? It's Saturday night and I bet you're folding his laundry."
I set down his boxers and sighed, "I know, I know. It makes me feel good to help him though. He works such crazy shifts."
"Kelsey, he works one day then has two off. He has time to do his own laundry. Honey, there is no reason you can't go out on dates. Frankly, I feel you're still hooked on your ex. Let the bastard go!"
She was right. She was always right. Fucking Steve! His child is almost two, he remarried, and I still hoped he would come to his senses and come back to me.
"Goin' out, Ma," John called as he raced out the door.
I sighed again thinking of how much he looked like his father facially. He was more sturdily built, however, and he was several inches taller. John used to tease me by saying he got his height from his real father. Steve didn't find it funny. John always was a momma's boy and I loved him more for it.
"Candy, I'm gonna go. John just left and I've got to straighten up before bed."
"Yeah. I know what you're gonna do. BOB's waiting in your drawer, you'd better hurry. If that's not enough, use John."
"Candy!" I shrieked. "He's my son. Don't say things like that."
"Okay, Kelsey. I'll talk to you later."
She laughed as she hung up. It was of course true. My battery-operated boyfriend was all I had to quell some of my needs. It was no comparison to a real, loving body pounding into my hungry kitty. Having someone's arms wrapped around me with their tongue dancing along with mine. Having hands and fingers roaming my breasts and butt. Ugh! I needed a man.
I was floored that she would joke about me having sex with John. What was she thinking?
****
I had BOB buried deep inside me on my favorite setting. As its shaft danced and pulsed inside my tunnel, the clit stimulator buzzed me to the brink of orgasm. And then, my worst nightmare happened.
As I cried out in bliss, I heard John shout, "I'm home, Ma!"
Damn! Although the orgasm happened, it faded into nothing as I scrambled to turn the toy off and prayed to God, John didn't hear me cry out.
I was absolutely mortified as I pulled my nightgown down and secreted my toy away. I'd clean it later, I had to show John I wasn't doing what I was doing.
I opened my locked door and peeked into his room across the hall. "You're home early?"
Oh, God! What a dumb thing to say. I was panicking and blowing it.
"Yeah, my date was a dud."
"I'm sorry, sweetie. They can't all be winners."
"I know. Anyway, wanna watch a movie? Or are youβbusy?"
"Uh...no." I hoped he wasn't implying that he knew what I was doing when he came home.
I calmed myself and said, "I'll make some popcorn, you pick the movie. I think that new Wonder Woman movie is On Demand."
He smiled and said, "Okay. It's on me."
I giggled as I padded away. He paid the cable bill, so yeah, he was buying.
****
I walked into the family room with a tray of freshly popped corns, extra butter, a beer for him, and a glass of wine for myself. I froze and almost dropped the tray when I saw him sitting in a pair of mesh shorts and no shirt.
When did he get so buff?
I couldn't understand why I was staring at him thinking those thoughts.
"You okay, Ma?"
I composed and said, "Yeah. I thought I saw a spider."
He laughed, "Don't worry. I can kill a little spider to protect you." He flexed his biceps and a lump formed in my throat. I knew I had to calm down. I chalked it up to my interrupted orgasm.
I set the big bowl of popcorn in between us on the couch and handed him his beer.
"Thanks," he smiled. He raised his bottle and said, "To not so lonely Saturday nights."
I smiled back and clinked his toast.
As the movie played, he said, "That lady who plays Diana's mom looks a lot like you."
I laughed and said, "Don't be silly. She's so beautiful."
"Don't sell yourself short, Ma. For a fifty-year-old chick, you've still got it."
I smacked his arm and said, "I'm only forty-five and you're not too old to be spanked for insolence."
He smirked and ate some popcorn.
****
When the movie ended he asked, "I bet you were pretty hot in 1984. How old were you then?"
"Eight," I laughed.
"Well, I'm sure you drove the second graders wild. Good night."
"Good night, John. I love you."
He waved as he walked on. I sighed. He hadn't told me he loved me for several years. I guessed that it wasn't cool for a twenty-three-year-old to love his mother.
As I cleaned the kitchen, I tried to think of any men who may be interested in me. I use to have men flirt with me at work but since I shot them down so often because I was married, they all stopped.
I wondered what would happen if I spruced up my wardrobe? I was still attractive and had a decent body. The bits were sagging lower than they did when I was thirty, but I was still thin. My hair was still naturally red with no gray yet.
I smiled as I thought of John's compliments. He was a good boyβcorrectionβhe was a good man, and I hoped he found a nice girl for whom to bestow those compliments upon.
****
John was at work the following morning and I did my normal Sunday housecleaning routine. Around noon, I got a text from a number I didn't recognize.
"What are you wearing right now?"
I laughed as someone must've dialed the wrong number.
"Sorry. Wrong number."
"Nope. You're Kelsey and I want to know what you're wearing."
I couldn't believe it.
"Who is this? I don't have your number saved."
"I'm a secret admirer. Wanting you from afar."
Holy shit!
"Where did you get my number?"
"Had it a while. Never had the balls to do this before. Again, what are you wearing?"