Sam was gone when I woke up, later even than usual, and the house was quiet. I went into the kitchen and couldn't find anybody. I saw through the window that Sam was laying out on the dock on her belly. I thought about shouting to her to see if she wanted breakfast, but changed my mind. I had a little mental processing yet to do.
I started a fire in the woodstove and sat down to watch it grow. It had occurred to me overnight, maybe in a dream or just subconsciously, that I had maybe taken a little bit of advantage of Sam. She had seemed so sweet and innocent the first time she showed me her breasts, and then last night fast as lightning had graduated to sexual contact like it was nothing. I hadn't said anything to really object to her, even though in my less-horny moments I generally grappled with the sensation that what I was doing was wrong.
Jerking off to her tits was fine, I had reasoned. It was natural human curiosity and innocent sexuality. She said herself they were just tits. I couldn't comfort myself with that excuse any longer. Last night my sister blew me. I have committed incest.
I put a kettle and a frying pan on the stove as the flames grew, waiting for the cast iron to heat up before getting anything ready to eat.
I think what had really bothered me in the night was the way Sam had seemed so kind of resigned about herself in relation to her tits. She'd said she'd felt like she was just a pair of tits to come on, and it certainly seemed from how she told her stories that a lot of her experience had inculcated that feeling deep within her.
Was I no better than any other guys? I wondered. Here I was, ostensibly an older brother, and the last two nights it seemed to me I treated my sister the way like a horny 18-year-old. I ought to have been better.
But then I played it all back in my mind, first her teasing and flashing me, and then the way she had just attached herself to me last night, and I knew that I was hooked. Forget that I was as weak a man as any, and just as susceptible to seduction. Forget that I was a man with a special weakness for larger chests on petite women. Forget that I was hypersexual and already at the mercy of my too-strong libido. Sam's breasts were the best I'd seen, in real life or fantasy, and I was a lost sailor adrift on the sea of her burgeoning sexuality. I watched her lying on the dock, wanting for all the world to be a better brother, but weak as a man.
***
After a quick breakfast of tea and fried eggs I finally noticed the note from Mom on the table. 'Dad and I have taken the canoe for the day,' it read. 'Relax. Take care of each other.' I swallowed the last of my breakfast and walked down to the talk, resolutely determined to do just that.
"Hey," I called to Sam as I approached, "Mom and Dad are gone for the day. It's just us here." She stretched her arms and yawned loudly, and I was afraid for a minute I might have woken her up.
"I know," she said, sounding groggy. "I saw the note as well."
"Okay," I said, "I have a fire up in the stove. Did you want me to make you something for breakfast?"
"No thanks," she said, rolling over. My jaw dropped wide as I realized she was topless, her huge mounds riding up on her chest and coming to rest heavily near her armpits. "I already ate." She smiled widely at me.
"Okay," I said, too immediately shocked to form much of a coherent sentence. She giggled a little as I gawked openly at her bared breasts. "Did you forget something this morning?"
"No," she said, "I thought we decided modesty was pretty much out of the cards for us at this point? Plus, you were making fun of me for only ever wearing bikinis yesterday, so I figured I'd change it up while Mom and Dad aren't around. Go with the monokini look today."
"Yeah," I said, still staring. "This is different."
"I think I like it better," she said, "It definitely feels better. More natural. Wouldn't you agree?"
"Yeah," I said, "More natural. Better."
"Besides," she said, "I hate tanlines. It's good you came out here when you did. Can you rub this tanning oil on me?"
I was ready to throw myself at the opportunity, and as I watched her reach over to grab the bottle of tanning lotion, I marveled at how immediately I had already stumbled in my resolve to treat her more sisterly.
"Sam," I asked, "What are you doing?"
"What do you mean?" she asked, lowering her sunglasses with her free hand and meeting my eyes directly. "I'm just out here getting a tan. What are you doing?"
"Nothing," I said, "I don't know. It just seems like having me rub tanning lotion on you might be a bit... inappropriate." She smirked at me.
"You think rubbing tanning lotion on me is the line where things get inappropriate?"
"I don't know. I guess it's something you could just as easily do yourself."
"Oh my god," she said, "It's like you never got a massage before. Yeah, I could rub oil on myself. It's not hard. But I asked you because it always feels nicer to have someone else give you a rub down. So what do you say?" She accentuated her question by squirting lotion from the bottle all over the top of her breasts, "Help a girl out?"
You can probably tell already that I am a man of phenomenally weak resolve, and that not just the sight of her tits covered in white cream, and the opportunity to get more intimately familiar with her glorious breasts themselves, but also the tone of her voice decided that it would be impossible for me to resist. I was already half-hard just from hearing her invite me to massage her, and with a little contented sigh of resignation I knelt in between her legs and readied my hands.
I placed them at first onto the lotion atop the fleshy mounds of fat that were her ample breasts. I kneaded gently into her skin, before swirling in teasing circles - teasing whom, I couldn't say - gradually decreasing my orbit until I circled in on her nipples, danced my fingers gently over her areolas before pinching her hardening little nips between my thumb and forefinger. I squeezed her breasts fully, and capped it off with a pull on her hard nipples that raised her breasts out to meet me. It took all of my resolve to keep from burying my face in her chest right there.
She didn't seem to mind my focusing on her breasts. It was hard to read her eyes behind her big sunglasses, but from the tilt of her head and the slight gape in her mouth, I gathered she was enjoying the attention. It occurred to me that Sam enjoyed showing off maybe as much or more than I enjoyed appreciating her. Unable to help myself, I leaned in and flicked her nipple with my tongue. I watched as she shuddered a bit with the touch. Once again, she didn't seem to mind. I certainly enjoyed it, except for the taste of the tanning lotion.
When it seemed that I had done all I could with her breasts, I reluctantly moved down, rubbing what oil was left into her little stomach. Sam was by no accounts ripped, but there was tone and definition visible in the fleshy swell of her tummy. When I really worked it into the sides of stomach, I could feel the hard muscles of her abs. I worked up and down each side of her stomach, and I could feel her struggling to keep from breaking into a giggle-fit. I watched her breasts bounce idly up and down on her chest when her composure broke.
I passed over the sides of her bikini bottoms, and was running out of oil on my hands, when an absurd idea struck me and wouldn't go uncontested.
"Since you hate tan lines," I said, "We may as well get rid of these, right?" I tugged gently on her bottoms to illustrate my point.
I felt Sam tense up as she considered the question. I hadn't seen or felt her react like that before, and I immediately regretted my lack of tact and discernment and general brotherly composure.
"I don't know," she said after what felt like forever, "I mean, I do hate tan lines, but I don't know if you could handle yourself if I was lying here naked."
"Hmm," I pondered, "What are you afraid will happen?"
"I don't know. For all I know, you'll rip your shorts off and rape me," she said, "We couldn't have that. Don't want to let things get out of hand."
"I'm down here, rubbing your tits, and I'm not raping you yet. I'd say I have pretty decent composure, considering," I lied.
"Mhm," she said, "But those are just tits. There's nothing to them." She looked down, and I could see over the top of her lenses that her eyes were studying the tent in my shorts. "Maybe I just like to tease you, is all," she said.
"Yesterday you sucked me off," I said, "I think that qualifies as a little bit more than teasing." She returned her gaze to my eyes and smiled at me.
"That was just practice," she said, "Nothing to it."