Continuing a true story of a forbidden love.
Despite my mother's avowed conviction in the "righteousness" of our relationship's consummation, there were still the inevitable moments of doubt and self- recrimination.
I came across her in the midst of one of these episodes only several nights after we first made love.
I had the late shift at the factory, and arrived home at about 11:30 in the evening, to find her upset, sitting alone in the dark, except for the nightlight, at the kitchen table.
I said "hi", leaned over the table, put my arm around her shoulders and kissed the top of her head. She smiled weakly at me.
"Is something wrong?" I asked as I sat down at the table beside her.
"Something wrong?!?" She replied, not bothering to hide the tone of incredulity. "Something wrong?" She stared at the kitchen table and shook her head. "I'm a fucking whore, how's that for something wrong?"
I reached over to touch her shoulder. "Heyyy...c'mon now..."
She shrugged me off.
"No! I'm a fucking whore! I slept with my own son! I'm disgusting!" She turned away from me and began to cry.
"Stop it! Don't say that!" I replied. I was taken aback by the force of her delayed reaction, crestfallen to think she suddenly regretted our night together.
"It's true..." she sobbed. "You know it's true...what kind of mother..?."
I reached for her hand. "It's not true. You're a smart, beautiful, sexy woman. I wanted it too, you know..."
"But I should've known better...It's not right...I'm your mother...what am I doing? " Tears were welling up in her eyes. She shook her head. "What would people think?"
I reached across and I put my hand on hers as they lay upon the kitchen table.
"Who cares what people think? What matters is what we feel!"
She lifted her head and looked up at me, a smile of regret on her lips. "I'm worried...about what I may have done to you..."
"I'm not a child, mom. It's not as if I was unable to understand or make a decision on my own...I wanted this as much as you. "I gently wiped the tears from her eyes.
"We've been through a lot... we needed each other, we needed to express our feelings to each other, feelings we've felt we had to lock away and hide for a long time. There's nothing wrong with showing love for someone you care about...especially when someone feels as strongly as I do for you...and I think you do for me..."
She looked up from the table at me, and ever so slightly the character of her smile had changed from sorrow to thankfulness.
"You're my mother...and you're the woman I love."
She sighed, her breast heaving.
"You always say the right thing..."she held my hand tightly. "I was afraid..."
"There's nothing to be afraid of..." and saying this, I leaned over the table to kiss her quivering lips.
"I love you..." I whispered.
We kissed once, twice; slowly, tenderly, and then again and again; our lips touching, embracing softly in a warm, languid prelude to love.
I moved from my seat to the long bench she sat at behind the table, and pulled her close. As our kisses grew more passionate, I leaned her back on the bench. She lay beneath me, and while continuing to kiss her soft, malleable lips, I caressed her face in one hand, while my other found her breasts. Her hands were around my shoulders and the back of my head. Our breathing became more rapid, and she moaned softly as I gently squeezed her breast in my hand. I ran my finger around her nipple and she gasped.
"Oh, I do love you...my sweet boy." She pulled me close and held me tightly.
The bench was uncomfortable, and I suggested we move. She stood, took me by the hand and walked us to the extra room beside the kitchen she used for her study; there was a small sofa in the room, and it had a door with a lock. We closed the door behind us, and moved to the sofa.
As I held her, she spoke softly, as though she were revealing something only I should hear;
"I've never felt this way before...You've unlocked a part of me I didn't know existed...I don't know if I can control it."
Looking in her eyes, I said; "...maybe you shouldn't try..." I kissed her again, and cupped her breast in my hand. She moaned quietly as I lifted her top and lowered my mouth to her breasts. I ran my tongue around her nipples, sucked and lightly bit them and then pulled at them with my lips. All the while, her breathing was heavy.
I gradually lowered myself down her torso, until I arrived just below her stomach. At first, I kissed her through her pants, making her aware of my intentions . Her breathing grew more rapid as I unbuttoned her form fitting pants, and began to pull them down from her hips and out from around her ankles. Her generous hips filled her black silk panties with their voluptuous curves, and I was filled with desire.
She sat on the sofa and I knelt before her. I placed my hands on her knees and spread her legs. Placing my hands around her hips, I moved my mouth to her pussy, and hungrily licked her through her panties. My tongue found the recess of her pussy through the soft silk, and and she began to moan, a soft, low non-verbal sound that struck some primitive chord in me.
I took her panties and pulled them off her hips as I'd done with her pants minutes before, and spreading her legs wider, took in a full view of the center of my desire. There, amidst those beautiful petals of her flesh, was the passage through which I'd entered this world. Her labia were engorged, and her pussy was wet. With my mouth and my tongue, I wished only to worship her sex, to bring her pleasure as I gave her my love.
Keeping her legs apart, I kissed her soft, milky-white thighs slowly, enjoying every moment of my approach to her pussy. My hands slid beneath her thighs to her ass, and as I lifted her to me, she placed her legs over my shoulders. Tenderly, I placed my tongue between the lips of her pussy, moving it up and down between them, tasting her sweet juices. Placing my mouth on her tender lips, I pulled at them, sucked them, caressed them, alternating between my lips and tongue.