Before that day it would have been inconceivable that Corey, my son Lee's best friend and the son of my best friend Amanda, could have been so successful in seducing me. It proved how ready I was to accept such an astonishing approach, or, how morally bankrupt I had become to have allowed it to happen. Lee had gone to the gym; he said to meet Corey, to workout together. Not ten minutes later Corey came to the house and, to my amazement, came onto me and worked me into such a frenzy that I ended up in bed with him. To make matters more complicated it was Lee's bed. Corey, like my son, wasn't yet twenty years old but I was overwhelmed by his sexual maturity. He brought me to orgasm so many times. I couldn't believe it! I felt wicked and perverted being involved with a person as young as he, but was more excited than I had been since I was a newlywed. He was so very considerate of my feelings too...even cuddled with me until I fell asleep. I can't even remember when I had last cuddled with my husband.
Every thing about the experience with Corey was so delicious that I thought I had dreamed it. Then, I awoke in an unfamiliar bed to the voice of my son. I was awakened with the words," What are you doing in my bed, Mom?" It was one of those moments, like, when you've taken the afternoon off and sneaked home and were sleeping on the couch and you dreamed that your boss was looking through your window, knocking on it, awakening you with a start, your guilt boiling all over you. But that was just a dream. Lee was looking down at me and I was in his bed...with just a sheet covering my naked body.
I wiped drool from my chin, closed my eyes and re-opened them to confirm that I wasn't dreaming. I wasn't, and, the only thing between him and my naked body was the thin sheet. What had I done? What was I going to do? I was trapped! Self-consciously I pulled the sheet tightly over my body, which just better defined my naked form through the thin material. His eyes left mine, slowly scanning my body. I knew he wanted to say something; it was all over his face. "What is it son," I asked, hoping against hope that any conversation would help extricate me from this situation.
"Are you sure you're alright Mom?" He seemed to be choosing his words discreetly. Could he have possibly known about Corey and me? I stalled, trying to engage him in meaningless conversation until I could collect my wits.
"How was your workout with Corey," I asked.
"He didn't show up Mom; I thought he might have come here," he said, "thought he might be here when I came home." Our house was Corey's second home. There is no reason he wouldn't have come here. But, I still had a funny feeling about it. I was trying to figure out what excuse I could give him to explain why I was in his bed, the words wouldn't come, nor could I decipher the look in his eyes. The silence seemed interminable.
He didn't look surprised to see me in his bed. I would have expected that he would have. But, his demeanor changed and the color of his face turned red, rising like the red line in a thermometer. "I," he began but stopped then started again. "Mom...I left... the door open... that day." I knew immediately what he was talking about. It was the opening I had been praying for, which allowed me to catch my breath and get off the defensive.
"It was more my fault than yours baby. I shouldn't have been watching."
"But I wanted you to see me Mom. I wanted you to see it all. Did you think I was sick?"
"You weren't sick baby, just driven by a fantasy. Everybody goes through that at one time or another...and I did watch you after all." I reached up, took his hand and squeezed it. We were talking about the day I had walked passed his room a couple of weeks before and heard him moaning. At first I thought he might have hurt himself playing sports and started to walk in but stopped when, through the crack in the door, I could see him lying naked on his bed, masturbating, with a girly magazine in one hand and his swollen cock in the other. I saw it all in the mirrored closet doors at the foot of his bed, saw him stroking, and saw him cum all over himself.
"I hoped you would see me Mom, through the crack in the door. I knew you would be able to see me in the mirror if you looked." I was secretly astounded that he had staged it, secretly pleased. "I saw you watching and hoped you would come in."
What kind of wildness was going on in my life that could cause my son to be drawn to me this manner? Not only had I watched him like a perverted voyeur, I was turned on by it...and, when I finished watching him I went to my own room and fingered my soaking pussy until I came. Averting my eyes in both shame and anticipation I asked in a barely audible whisper, "And what did you think of me watching you Lee?"
"I...I...was hoping you would come in and... be with me," he said, tears welling in his eyes. "Do you think I'm a creep, Mom?"
I bit my lip and closed my eyes for a second. I was so conflicted... felt ashamed of myself, shamed that I had watched, shamed that I had been discovered and shamed that I had just been fucked by Corey, Lee's friend...fucked by him in Lee's own bed. Flames of guilt licked at my being. Tears welled in my eyes. I squeezed his hand again and pulled him forward, beckoning him to sit on the bed beside me. "Oh Lee," I said as he sat down," I feel so flattered that a young man like you would feel that way about an old woman like me." The flow of my feminine moisture was quenching the flames of guilt.
"I don't think you are old Mom, I think you're beautiful, and, I just haven't been able to stop these feelings." He blushed again.
My hands let go of the sheet and I sat up, the fabric falling and exposing my breasts. My outstretched hands clasped his and I pulled him closer. I kissed his cheek, tasting his salty tears, then kissed his lips. They were incredibly soft for such a young person and I wondered where he had learned to kiss like that. Our arms enfolded each other's body and we hugged tightly.
"Watching you masturbate, Lee," I murmured into his ear, "was beautiful. I haven't got the image out of my mind." His eyes widened. "Since I saw you, each time I've walked by your door, I wished I would find you doing it again." How can I be confessing this, I thought. My son was transfixed. "Every night, after you have gone to bed, I have listened for you, to hear if you might be masturbating."
"I jack...uh...masturbate... every night Mom," he said, eager to stimulate the conversation, considerate of my sensitivity to coarse talk.
"I know," I interrupted, "I've heard you my baby. I've heard you...and... I've done it too, while you were doing it...and... I... wanted to be with you...doing it... with you. It's alright to use those kinds of words baby; words like jacking off or jerking or 'beating my meat' I find them all exciting. I have had to pretend to you that I didn't like that kind of language. But, It's such a boy thing and love that you use them."
He shook his head eagerly and said, "Wow."
It was out in the open. My guilt had been forced out by my lust for my son and I lied to cover the reason I was in his bed. "And I've been coming to your bed like this almost every day Lee...hoping that you would come in and catch me." His eyes widened again, and his Adam's apple bobbed in his throat. But the look on his face told me that he didn't believe me.
I felt like such a fraud. But, it was clear that he wanted me. And, I wanted him. Sandwiching his cheeks between my hands I kissed him. Our lips melted together, both working and suckling, both of us thrilled in as a sexual expression what we had done numerous times out of filial love. His right hand lifted the sheet and found my left breast which, along with his breath from his nostrils washing my cheek, sent tendrils of electricity throughout my body.
"Oh God Mom," he gasped before devouring my lips again.
Panting, I asked, "Would you like to take your clothes off baby?" He nodded and I pulled his t-shirt up and over his arms. Hugging him to me, his warm, hairy chest flattened my breasts. Our kisses were hungry, long and messy, our tongues probing and discovering; our saliva drooling down our chins. Breaking our kiss we panted and searched each other's eyes. He laid his head on my breast while his hand nervously pressed on my abdomen.
"I never really thought it would.... happen, Mom," he said, the warmth of his words wafting across my stomach.
"Hmmmm," I purred, "maybe it's destiny." Jesus, I thought, I know this is wrong. But, I want him so fucking much. Then, I thought of Corey and wondered how all this could be happening...on the same day!
Though I had lied about why I was in his bed I had thought of doing it more than once. What was more farfetched was that I had just used his bed to be fucked to oblivion by his best friend, a preposterous young man who had succeeded so easily in getting me there. I had been starved for sex for so long that I must have been sending out signals to both Lee and Corey, and now, sex was raining on me like manna on the Israelites in the desert. It was like I had made a deal with Mephistopheles and he was lavishing me with his sensual abundance. Had I sold my soul to the Devil? Frankly, I just didn't give a shit.