I lay in my bed thinking of the past 19 years. I got pregnant only a few months after I graduated from high school and when my boyfriend found out he bailed on me. Therefore I was left to mother my son, Jay, alone. I do not regret having my son, but things have been difficult for me and him. Now he was about to turn 19 and leave me alone.
I rolled out of bed unable to sleep and went to the kitchen. My son's room was next to the kitchen so I was trying to be quiet and not wake him up. On my way in I noticed his door was cracked open and there was a light emanating from his room which was unusual, but I didn't give it much thought.
I made myself some tea and went back to my room. This time when I passed Jay's room the door was closed and I couldn't tell if the light was still on. I heard some noises that weren't clear to me so I figured he was watching TV. I went upstairs to my room and out onto my terrace. It was a nice warm summer night with a nice summer breeze.
I must have fallen asleep because my son awoke me. When I looked at him the sky behind him was still dark and starry so I couldn't have been asleep that long. He didn't wake me physically but I heard him approach. He was standing in front of me with his wash board abs, black curly hair, and ocean blue eyes. I won't deny my son is a hunk... I was aware of that.
"Jay what is it sweetie?" I asked still half asleep.
"Nothing it's just... well I couldn't sleep very well either. So I figured we could talk about my birthday."
"Sure sweetie," I sat up, awake now.
We talked about going to the movies and dinner. He said he wasn't sure what he wanted for his present but he told me he'd let me know when he figured it out. The whole time since he woke me up I was extremely horny and I couldn't wait for him to leave.
I waited until I was sure he was asleep so I could masturbate. Since I haven't had sex in 19 years that's all I could do to satisfy myself. All the guys I met only wanted me for sex and I didn't. So of course no one has fucked my brains out since I got pregnant. I was dying for a cock any cock. My pussy started to contract around my dildo and I moaned losing my train of thought. I heard a creek outside my door and thought nothing of it since I often heard it.
A few days later my son was out and I couldn't find one of my favorite CD's to clean the house to. It had been a few years since I'd been in Jay's room and I know he knew it. I don't know why I thought he might have had it since it wasn't his type of music, but I went in anyway.
His room was neat and orderly and made me proud to know he wasn't a slob. I went to his computer stand and picked up a stack of CD's, bumping the mouse on accident. His computer screen lit up. When I glanced up I was shocked to see an image of a women's pussy as his screen saver. I was shocked at my son and saw a video link on the screen. I clicked it and saw a women masturbating on her bed at closer examination I noticed everything about the room... it was MY room. I clicked off the link and saw the pussy again. At closer examination of this as well, I saw... it was MINE as well.
I clicked the button on the monitor and left everything as it was. I rushed out of his room feeling shocked and... horny. I was surprised at myself. When Jay got home I was sure to be careful with my emotions.
"Hey mom," Jay said giving me a peck on the cheek.
"Hey," I said returning my attention to chopping the carrots.
He disappeared into his room and I tried my best to keep calm and ignore everything as thoughts of what he could be doing crossed my mind... making me a little horny I added ashamed. I hid my emotions the rest of the night and fell asleep quickly.
A few days later it was finally my son's birthday everything all but forgotten.
"Happy birthday baby!" I kissed him on the cheek.
"Thanks mom," he smiled.
"So what movie are we going to see?" I asked.