What happened and why was beyond comprehension. What had I done and how could I ever make up for the confidence lost? I had to do something, yet fear held me in place. I tried to rationalize the events but even my best mind games wouldn't get me past this situation.
I wallowed in my misery wishing I could disappear from the face of the earth. In the midst of it all I heard a gentle tapping on my bedroom door. The only other person at home was my sister and she was the cause of my present condition, my bad situation.
"Go away and let me die in peace," was all I could muster as an answer to the knock.
"It won't be that easy," she said as she turned the knob and entered.
She had cleaned herself, showered, and dressed in her usual shorts and T-shirt. She looked like the sweet little girl she used to be until the dastardly thing I did to her a couple hours ago.
My sister was just 19, her birthday today. I was the older brother at 20, almost 21. I wanted to give her the perfect gift for a newly christened adult woman and spent way too much money getting her the photo equipment she wanted. When she saw everything laid out neatly on her bed, she came soaring into my room with heaps of thanks, hugs, and kisses. I responded by raping her and stealing the one thing she could only give once.
She is such a beauty, in my eyes anyway. She is very cute, attractive, about five feet five inches, maybe 115 pounds; with a womanly form that I think is properly proportioned. Her blond hair and blue-green eyes top off the package. Her lips are designed for kissing, her body for loving.
"Michael, we have to talk, you know that don't you? We have to talk about what happened. The evidence needs to get cleaned up." Her tone was not angry. She wasn't wielding a butcher knife to chop it off. Her face was aglow with life.
"Michael, it really felt good, not the hymen part, that hurt, but the rest felt good. Don't be so rough next time." She sat sideways to me, one leg dangling just off the mattress, her other leg bent at the knee, she spread her hips virtually inviting me to try again.
"Make it feel good this time, please, Michael."
"Slowly, sweet sister," as my arm snaked from under the sheets touching her leg at the ankle, and taking a gentle feel of her calf, "so slowly." She responded straightening her bent leg fully outward.
I thankfully recalled I did shower after I didn't rape her? My confusion stopped when my lips parted and I drew my tongue over the top of her foot.
"Michael, remember those old armed forces radio tapes dad has? Remember Casey Kasim?"
"I won't stop until I reach the top."
"Michael, everything in between is open territory."
My focus on leg kisses was distracted by the rustling of clothes as her T-shirt slipped over her head. I rarely call my sister by her given name; she has all my life been my sweet sister. Now I gasped, "Katie!"
Katie scooted up the bed until she was face to face with me. "Let's start with kissing and other words that end with 'i-n-g' later."
Katie settled her warm body next to mine, our noses just touching. I felt the pucker of her lips and knew the kissing part was underway. We only touched lips, hands to ourselves was a mutual torture, we couldn't put much pressure into the kisses.
Katie kept her lips touching mine while her arms and hands rustled her shorts down her hips. "Touch. Feel how smooth I am? I shaved it all off."
"Katie, teach me to feel you," I whispered between kisses.
I'm not naive, I know about zones of a woman's body. But this is Katie and itΓs her pleasure I want. Katie began giving me a fingertip-to-fingertip tour of her body.
Katie became very excited as we both touched her where she wanted to be touched. I took over the tour and began using my mouth to tenderly lick, suck, and nibble at her nipples. I continued the tour lower over her stomach stopping to lave out her belly button. She reacted strongly to her navel being licked, how would she react when my mouth is on her velvet pussy lips?
Katie convulsed and tightened as my tongue made its first contact with her tiny clit. She screamed as an orgasm overwhelmed her. I let her calm before having another taste.
I probed with my tongue, "Does it hurt if I use my tongue?"
She panted, "No."
I slowly licked and poked into her with my tongue until she arched and had another orgasm. I didn't let her calm this time. I inserted a finger and probed for her g-spot, kept my tongue on her clit and took her over the top for a powerful orgasm that left her limp.
Katie pushed me onto my back, straddled me, and guided me slowly and smoothly into her waiting pussy. A little pain registered on her face as she accepted me a second time. Her pain lapsed into sighs and moans as she fully sat on my hips with my cock completely in her.
Katie's breasts swelled with her excitement. Her nipples were stiff eraser points that she rubbed and pinched. I brought my hands to her hips and filled each hand with her butt flesh as I tried to draw her tighter on me.
After a few moments, Katie began moving on me slowly up a little and back down. Her movements became more determined with her building excitement. I ascended new heights as Katie climbed to her heights.
"Oh, Michael," my sweet sister called, "cum with me!"
Katie's eyes glassed over as her peak arrived. She dropped her weight on me and immediately clamped my cock. I didn't know a voice could reach such a high note as Katie squeaked before exhaling a scream of orgasmic bliss.
As she asked, I came with her. My cum bathed her depths in waves of molten sperm propelled from my cock by my own strong contractions. Katie's glow in post orgasmic high spread an aura that enveloped us both.
"Katie," I sighed deep in sorrow for forcefully taking her virginity, "I raped my sweet sister. Why didn't you stop me? I hurt you so much."
My cock dislodged from her and I felt our combined mess begin puddling on my stomach.
"Michael, I didn't stop you because I wanted it too. Maybe not exactly how it happened, the way you ripped through my hymen, but I feel all womanly now full of cum and lots of orgasms." She lightly kissed me between words.
We both knew that our sex was done for the day; our parents would be home soon for her official birthday party.
"Sweet sister, we have time to shower together before we are interrupted by mom and dad." Katie gathered her clothing darting off to the bathroom; I followed. On standing, our cooled mixed spice began slipping over my cock.
I entered the bathroom just in time to hear my sweet sister expel the rest of our cum. She saw the mess on me and beaconed close to her. She licked me clean. I almost fainted when her tongue began lapping; I went instantly hard.
"Everywhere in between is fair territory," I panted in repeat of Katie's line only a little while earlier. We both knew it was too risky to go further and opted for the shower rather than discovery.
We were dressed in much more proper attire for dinner out. My sweet sister was promised a banquet for her nineteenth birthday. Our parents wasted nothing on her night out.
It was probably 9:30 or later when we got home. Katie brought out the camera gear I got for her. "I bet he spent a half a paycheck," she joked. It was almost three paychecks and a few hundred from savings.
"Michael asked me to take him out to show how I can get some of those night shots. Can we? Its not like I'm going out late some guy you don't know."
Mom piped up, "No harm, not like Michael would hurt you."
"I remember her hurt me once today." Her tone sounded hurting to mom but playful to me.
"What! What happened?" Mom went into protection mode.
"You know how he gets sometimes. He was acting goofy teasing me about turning 19 and he bumped into me kind of hard. It really hurt for a while. I made him be sorry for a while."
I called from the door, "Are you going to teach me some photography or will I have to just imagine it?"
We drove off toward a destination only I knew about. Katie became instantly inquisitive, "What's out this way? Where are we going?"
I kept silent until I came to a turn off and the car headlights illuminated an older looking house that had some recent work done.
"I bought this place a couple months ago. I saved as much as I could and bought a place of my own. I did it for me, before today. It could be for us, your secret escape to do photography work."
"This is not a good night for photography, Michael. Maybe you should show me around."
We walked wrapped in the others arms as we approached the door. There I stood with key in hand, placed it in the lock, and turned to my sweet sister. I kissed her with as much passion as I could, turned the lock, swooped her into my arms and carried her across the threshold. I showed her the entire place and her bedroom, for appearance after today.
"When will you move, Michael?" Her question had an edge of concern and maybe loss that I am moving away from home.
"I can move any day. I wanted you to see it first. Even before today, I wanted you to be the first to see it. IΓm serious about your room, too. You can move some of your stuff here if you want."