When I was 23, I took all my savings and went to California to chase my lifelong dream of being an actress. I spent literally hundreds of hours waiting in lines for auditions. After about two months with nothing but a few commercials, money was beginning to run thin. I had seen numerous ads in the newspapers for 'adult film actresses'. I had to make enough money to get back home, so I decided to swallow my pride and do it.
I made about seven films. As much as I hate to say it, the money was great. I made more in twenty minutes than I had doing all three of the commercials that I'd done. The movies also let me live out a few fantasies as well. I got my first chance to be with another woman. It was incredible! The other actress was a seasoned veteran, and could she ever eat pussy!! I also got my first chance at being gang-banged. It was everything I had dreamed it would be as well. Most of my films however, were either me by myself or with just one guy.
I didn't want to get too tied up in that business, so I stopped making them. I went to more auditions for "real" roles. I landed a couple, even one on a major soap opera. It was a bit part that didn't last but a few episodes, but it was a start. The pay was nothing to speak of and once again my money was running low.
Having come to the conclusion that I wasn't going to get into legitimate film, I packed up and headed for home. I called my parents and informed them that I was on my way. I needed to stay with them for a few weeks until I got my finances back on track. They were as supportive as ever, and agreed to let me stay as long as I needed to.
My father helped me move most of my things to my old room. I froze in horror when I realized that he was carrying the box that contained my copies of the pornos I made. I watched as he set it down and turned to get more of my things from my car. With my hands shaking, I grabbed the small box and hurriedly tried to hide it under my bed.
"What's in there?" I heard his voice ask from the doorway.
"Nothing much," I replied trying to sound nonchalant. "Just some bills and stuff." I tried to fake a smile, something I could never do with my father.
"Did you get into debt out there?" he asked. I wish I could have come up with a better lie about the contents of the box. If there was anything my father would have been concerned about, it was money and my credit. I should have just said they were some of my favorite old movies. He still would have been curious as to why I was hiding them under my bed when I had a large walk-in closet, but he wouldn't have been as adamant to find out what was in the box.
"No Dad. I did okay, I knew when it was time to come home." I took some more boxes from his hands and told him to take a break. He started to give me a lecture on the importance of good credit. I assured him that I had not hurt mine and that I always listened to his teachings. Just then my mother called that she had fixed us some lunch, and we both went down to eat.
The next day, I went to a local bowling alley I used to frequent to try to pick up some hours waiting tables. The whole time I was talking to the owner, I had a sinking feeling in my stomach that I had done something wrong or forgotten to do something. I couldn't figure out why, but I soon forgot about it, as I was offered a shift on the spot.
California was all but forgotten. I was running like crazy to work all the tables by myself. Between all the pinches on the ass and cheesy pick up lines, I could think of little else. It was near the end of my shift that I overheard a couple talking about stopping by the video store on their way home from the alley. My stomach dropped..."OH MY GOD! THE VIDEOS!!" I thought to myself.
The whole ride home I worried about my father going through the box under my bed. I had planned on moving it, but I just forgot. Ordinarily, my parents respect my privacy, but the fact that I had lied to my father about the contents of box would surely make him play the videos to find out was I was hiding from him.
I walked in the door to find my father sitting alone watching TV. I asked him where my mother was, and he reminded me that Mondays she played cards with her friends. I nervously excused myself to my room. I told Dad I was going to take a shower and I'd be down to join him afterwards.
I went to my room and ran to my bed. I looked under it...NOTHING! My heart sank, my father had taken the box. I had to act like nothing was wrong. I got undressed and went into the bathroom. I could hear my father walking around downstairs. I showered and threw on a terry cloth robe. When my father heard the bathroom door open, he called to me.
"Jennifer, come here please," he yelled.
"Just a minute Daddy," I responded with a lump in my throat.
"No, NOW Jennifer!" My father hadn't raised his voice at me in as long as I could remember. It was killing me, I knew he had to have seen at least a bit of one of the tapes. I'm sure I had broken his heart by making the movies. I couldn't say, 'I did it for the money' because I know his reply would have been that he would have loaned me whatever I needed.
I tried to act as if I didn't have any idea what he was upset about as I went down the stairs. "What is it Daddy?" I asked as I came around the corner and into the living room.
My father was playing one of my tapes. It was a short movie I had made with an older actor. There I was, wearing nothing but a pair of heels, on my hands and knees with this guy ramming his cock into me as I begged for more. "Care to explain this, and why you lied to me?" he questioned.
"Daddy, please! I'm sorry. I only did it because-"
Before I could finish, my father began screaming at me, calling me a whore. "You know this going to kill your mother when she finds out." He finished.
"Oh God Daddy! Please, don't tell Mom. I can explain! I did it because I needed the money. I was trying to be as independent as I could. I know I could have asked you and Mom for some cash, but I was trying to make it on my own!"
"I've seen you making it on your own." He pointed to the first movie I had made where I introduced myself and masturbated in front of the camera, telling the 'director' what turned me on. Half way through it, he came up and put his dick in my face and I sucked him off while I rubbed my clit until I orgasmed.
Tears rolled down my cheeks, as I turned to run to my room. "I'm so sorry Daddy," I whimpered as I hit the first step.
"Come here Jennifer," my father requested. I turned to look at him and saw a look on his face I couldn't quite construe. I sniffled and wiped the tears from my face. "I just want to know why you lied to me."
"Because I never wanted you to know how desperate I was in L.A. Daddy."
"And how desperate are you to keep your mother from finding out about this?"
"Daddy, please, I'll do anything, just don't show them to Mom." As I spoke those words, I saw my father's eyes light up a little, and he was suppressing a grin.
"Did you enjoy making these movies?" he asked. His eyes watching me on the screen as the actor jerked off inches away from my face.
"No Daddy, I hated it," I lied. Just then the man's cum splattered across my face, giving me a 'facial' as they called in the business. I watched myself lick and suck his cock clean. My cheeks caved in, I sucked him so hard.