Mysteries of Premature Ejaculation revealed
After six years in Malaysia I was visiting my sister in Chennai. On the third day of my visit I had the misfortune to stumble and sprain my thigh. It turned out to be the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I was lying on the couch feeling the tender hamstrings when my twenty-two year old nephew Satish came in. He was a physiotherapist.
"What's wrong with you," he asked. It was then that I got this idea. Why not get him to give me a massage? I asked him twice but he just stood there as if he did not hear me. Then suddenly he jerked up.
'What were you telling me Amar?" he asked. My name is Amaravathy. Being ten years younger he ought to call me Chithi (mother's younger sister), but from his childhood days has called me Amar. I like it that way.
"What's wrong with you? You are brooding all the time," I asked. He did act as if he had a secret sorrow.
"Nothing, I'm quite OK."
"It does not appear so. Anyway I want you to massage me and get my thigh muscles working again." He looked at me as if he did not comprehend what I was wanting. Then once again he jerked up.
"Did you say massage?"
"Yes.".
"When?"
"Now."
"OK," he said, "but not on that couch. You must lie on something hard."
"The ping-pong table?"
"That'll be fine. Give me half and hour to freshen up and get some coffee." He moved to his room with head bowed and shoulders drooping. Something was bothering him profoundly. In a young man aged twenty-two that could only be about women. Hope he was not in a trap.
At that moment I was not thinking about him but about me, and with rising excitement. My nephew, in six years I had not seen him, had grown to be tall and handsome. The moment I set eyes on him he became my fantasy object. He was about to give me a massage—an exciting prospect.
What should I wear? Nude? Funny thought. I turned away in shame—from myself. Later I asked him what I should wear. He stared back. Then he answered. He said men wear shorts.
"What do women wear?"
"I don't know. I do only for men. In out institute it is men for men and women for women. You wear shorts and bra but cover yourself with a sheet. That's what some women do even when women are working on them." He spoke in matter of fact tones. Did massaging a scantily clad aunt, shapely and quite youthful looking woman though, mean nothing to him?
I put on a pair of thick cotton knickers and a bra. I saw myself in the full length mirror. I was tingling all over. Though 32 I considered myself good looking, and sexy. Satish cannot but be excited to massage my thighs. I stretched on the table and covered myself with a white sheet and was ready. Satish wore shorts and T shirt. He started with my right foot. For one so muscular and strong his touch was surprisingly delicate. His hands were smooth without any of the callosities that tennis players have. He stretched the foot, folded it and bent it back; he pulled each toe and then he worked on the heel. He was not taking the pain out for I had no foot problems, but he was filling me with unbearable passion. I could not have imagined that massaging the foot can be so very erotic. After the feet he worked my calf. It appeared as if he was taking on every fibre of the muscles and giving it the treatment.
"How do you feel?" he asked.
"Wonderful," I replied. "In case you have not registered it is my right thigh that is the problem." He moved to the thigh and deftly he worked on it. He started above the knee and without exposing any part of me he worked his way up. I told him the pain was high up on the inner side. It was not. It was at the back. I was just being bold. I was in such a mood that given time I would have become reckless, but it was not to be.
He was close to my crotch when he stopped quite suddenly. A change came over him. He was standing forlornly with wide open expressionless eyes. I could see the reason. Wetness was spreading in the region of the crotch of his khaki shorts. He had ejaculated.
I watched as the wetness spread unable to decide what I should do. I looked up. Tears were flowing down my nephew's cheeks. This tall and muscular he-man was shedding tears. The aunt in me came pouring out. I was out of the sheet bra and knickers notwithstanding. I was cuddling him. I made him sit down on the bench; I wiped his tears away using my bare hands.
"You have not done anything to be ashamed of. Even an aunt is a woman. Any man will get excited when he rubs the inner thighs of any woman. Let me tell you I was excited too." He stood like zombie. Then he shook his head. So expressive was this shake of his head that its meaning was clear. 'This is not what is bothering me' his eyes were saying.
"Then what," I said. He would not answer, but slowly by relentless questioning I got his message out.
It seems that five days ago a friend and Satish had visited a prostitute. As soon as the woman lifted up her skirt Satish had ejaculated. The woman it appears was very supportive. She asked Satish to wash and put on his dress and wait for a while and then leave. She asked him not to let his friend know what happened. She even offered to return his money. Satish refused. This failure has been tormenting him.
"I am impotent Amar," he said. "I want to kill myself." He sat on the bench and wept unashamedly.
"Don't be silly," I said. "This is a curable condition. You don't have to see any doctor. I will consult my friend who is a gynaecologist and tell you what to do." He looked doubtfully. Satish is a robust fellow, but failure of sexual powers is something that can reduce any man to dust. I know one thing about PE (premature ejaculation) and that is this. It needs an understanding woman to help a man out of it, and what more helpful woman can a man get than a young aunt?
On one point I had not doubt at all. I had to make a start now or else I will miss the opportune moment. I led him to the bathroom. There I unbuttoned his shorts and pulled it down. He resisted as I expected him to.
"What are you trying to do?" he said annoyed.
"I am helping you Satish. If you do not cooperate with me you will ruin your life," I said. "You can't expect to be cured of premature ejaculation with your pants on." I spoke the punch line with such force that though he continued to squirm he allowed me to expose him. "I am your aunt. I have bathed you before and I have the right to bathe you now." I then washed his penis, and then as he wiped I washed his soiled shorts. I had to tie the towel round his waist for he seemed devoid of energy. I led him to the drawing room. I prepared hot Ovaltine which he drank.
"You must be confident that you will be OK soon," I said. He nodded uncertainly. I then rushed to the bathroom. I was wet with my vulval secretions and needed an urgent knickers change. Even as I lay under the sheets I was tense with expectation. When Satish started massaging my feet the excitement rose and as his hands came closer and closer to my crotch I was burning hot. After he ejaculated I was only too happy to let him see me in the scanty dress I was in. I wish I had been moist enough to wet the knickers through and through. Disrobing him and washing his penis took me to a new high. I have seen my nephew's penis after it had attained adult size for the first time. I have touched it and I have played with it. What a day it has been. His penis was like a large sized banana. I knew I had to have him or I'll burst. For that to happen I had to cure him. Curing him was as much for me as for him. We were both in it.
My recently qualified gynaecologist friend was of no use. The Internet and the library were better. The news they conveyed was not very heartening. All forms of male sexual inadequacies it appeared were difficult to cure. The problem was not in the body but the mind, and we know that even though there are effective drugs for mental diseases doctors did not know how they acted. Results thus tend to be uncertain. Viagra strictly speaking is not a cure for impotence. It merely enables one to improve one's erection. The body has to do its bit before the drug can act. Viagra acts on the body, not the mind.
Premature ejaculation is form of impotence. Worse, for when the problem is lack of erection man stays away from women. In PE he demonstrates his failure again and again and the embarrassment can lead him to desperation. I was also worried that in a fit of depression Satish might harm himself.
The next day I called him frequently when he was in college. When I called the fourth time I heard him laughing.
"Amar," he said, "you need not be afraid that I'll to something drastic to myself." He laughed more. This change in his mood gave me confidence that I will succeed.
In twelve days I had to go back to Kuala Lumpur. Whatever I do I must in that time. By my reckoning that was enough. Home conditions were ideal. My sister was a prominent socialite, which meant that she would be away from home most of the day. Even when in home she never came up for she had a knee problem that made stairs climbing painful. My brother-in-law was a clubman, a rummy addict. He came home only at nine in the evening. Satish went early but came home for late lunch and stayed the afternoon at home. He had evening clinic in an orthopaedic hospital. We had the house to ourselves for the whole of the afternoon.
The usual need for men is to increase their sexual sensitivity so that they can have a harder erection, but in Premature Ejaculation the reverse is the case. One has to reduce the subject's sensitivity. Surprisingly this is as difficult as increasing it. There are two movements (dance terms are very appropriate) to cure PE. The very thought made me slurp. One is to familiarise my nephew to the female body. When he saw his first adult vulva he ejaculated. The first time he touched the upper part of the inner thigh he again ejaculated. He needed to see and feel more to harden his sex trigger. The second is to bring him to the brim by penile stimulation and just before he ejaculates remove the stimulus—teasing him again and again to blunt his sensitivity. I was excited. At every point my involvement was of a kind that I can best describe as delicious for it I who would be exposing the body for his edification and my hands are ones that would be teasing his penis.
I mulled over how to proceed on the basis of what I had read about the treatment of PE. I took notes and drew up a chart of what I had to do on each of the twelve days.
Day 1