All characters engaged in sex acts are eighteen or older.
I have to say a word in my defense here. Of course I knew what Mom meant. And I'll be damned if it didn't make me feel sick doing this. But this is what you're supposed to do, isn't it? When you fall out of love, especially when there's someone else, you can't string someone along.
I sure as hell didn't tell Ashley that I was fucking Mom. And when I cried talking to her it was for real. Who can really fake cry anyway? When I called I did my best to keep it as vague as possible. It was true that I didn't have those feelings for her anymore, and I could tell she was afraid of the fallout from last time I couldn't get hard for her. She told me it was ok, she even apologized for not being able to keep me hard, which made me feel like even more of a heel.
But most of the apologies ended up being mine, which was the way it should have been anyway. By the end of our conversation she was more angry than contrite. I hung up the phone with a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and I was aloof with Mom all that day. It was probably a relief to her. She didn't ask me to help her shower that night, and though I didn't say anything about it, I was disappointed. I was tempted to go into the bathroom and look at her anyway, but I realized there was no way I could play it off as an accident.
Ashley:
At least tell me. Is it someone else? Fuck, Nick. Don't do this to me!
Ashley:
Answer me, you fucking coward.
Nick:
I've fallen out of love, Ashley. It happens.
Ashley:
Bullshit, it happens. You're cheating.
Nick:
I'm not cheating.
I turned my phone off. I couldn't deal with this right now. I was really struggling to frame this in a way that wasn't completely selfish, and Ashley wasn't helping. The truth was that this was all just from my perverted desires, and there was no denying it.
Mom got to bed before me, like usual, and she was awake when I got there, though she tried to pretend she wasn't. I heaved the kind of sigh I did when I was a kid and my team lost. "Baby, hey," Mom said. "You ok?"
My back was turned to her. I don't know what I wanted at that moment. Maybe I wanted her to hug and comfort me and tell me I made the right decision, maybe come up with some kind of wild justification that this was the right thing to do. Part of me wanted her to leave me alone so she couldn't see how distraught I was. It was embarrassing. And obviously, part of me wanted to roll on top of her and stick my cock so deep inside her as it would come out her mouth.
So I rolled to face her. It's not like I could hide from her, I never could. "Mom," I muttered, and wanted to tell her, but nothing came out. I just shook my head.
She stared at me for a few moments, her face little more than a dark outline in the night. She knew what was wrong, and in spite of myself, I felt the blood pumping into my dick and raising it, getting ready for action. She put her hand on my shoulder and squeezed it. "Tiger, you know this was never meant to be."
I took her hand in mine and leaned forward to kiss her. "Baby, no-" but her voice was cut off by my mouth covering hers. For half a heartbeat she pulled her head away, but then her hand tightened around mine and she pressed into me, our mouths fitting together. My tongue stirred, and moved forward, but hers checked mine, thrusting into my mouth. I tasted her again, and it charged my body even more, my cock now fully inflated and moving toward her with renewed vigor.
Mom's face was full of anguish. "Nick, you know we can't do this." I moved closer to her and my member rubbed against her thigh. There was nothing she could say to calm me now. We had done it before, and there was no going back, it was stuck in my head. Her hand slid down, and I could feel her trying to hold it back, but it was no use. She ran her palm along my shaft, and a tremor ran though my body.
"You want this as bad as I do, Mom. There's no reason to fight it." I pressed the rest of my body into her, and we kissed again, her breath hissing out of her nose. It was as I said, I had never wanted anyone like I wanted her. My heart was pounding and I filled my hand with her tit, her nipple already erect and hard. We rolled, and I was partially on top of her. One of her hands held my cock while the other rubbed my back. I kissed her chin, then kissed down her chest.
"Baby, stop." Her voice was a gasping whisper. I kissed her collarbone and shoulder, pulling down the strap of her undershirt. Her pillowy boob felt heavenly under my lips, and I teased her nipple, kissing around it. "God damn it, Nick. Knock it off!"
The sharpness of her voice made me recoil, and she made a supreme act of will to pull her hand away from my engorged member. I looked up at her, my face sunk into her massive tit, her nipple sticking into my cheek. "Mom, we both want this, why can't you accept that? I know it makes you feel weird, but there's no reason to fight it."
She pushed me away from her, and I made my own act of will to not lean back into her. The hope I had was slipping away and I felt a trickle of panic. "Nick... fuck. We've been over this. We
can't.
It's not good for us."
"You need this, Mom. I've seen how you are." She couldn't hide anything from me either now. "I've never seen you this lonely since... you know."
"This is something I have to go through, Nick." She struggled to keep her voice even. "You can take care of me without..." she gulped, "fucking me."
"I'm lonely too, Mom. I loved Dad too, and I've been thinking about him as much as you have. Just let me do this for you!" Neither of us believed this was a selfless act on my part. I would have said anything, and all that was holding back was my love for her and respect for her words.
"We can't do this and have separate lives, Nick. There's a reason family members and sex stay separate. Fuck me, I can't believe I have to explain this to you."
"Your relationships outside of our family have been shit, Mom. When was the last time you felt like this? Mine haven't been much better."
She shook her head, defeated by the combination of her desire and my persistence. "Ashley," she whispered, a tear falling down her cheek. "You can't do this when you're with her, Baby. I'm sorry."
I gulped. "We broke up."
"What?" Mom was incredulous. "She was a nice girl, Baby. That was fucking stupid! Why would you do something like that?"
I locked eyes with her, hoping mine would convey the sincerity of my words. "For you."
"For...?" Her eyes were wide, and that was the moment I could see the resistance crumbling behind them. Ashley was her last, desperate defense, her last resort to tell me (and herself) that no matter how right this felt, it was wrong. She took my hand again, and squeezed so hard it hurt.
We crashed into each other, rubbing and kissing and stroking and licking every part of each other's bodies we could reach. I was floating, my hope having been rekindled. This was happening. "You son of bitch," she hissed, but she was smiling.
"Guilty as charged," I said as I rolled over on top of her, letting the implications of my words sink in. I pulled her top so recklessly that it hung up on her arm and nearly tore. Her majestic tits were under me now, jiggling and wagging and shaking with her fervent movement. I reached down to pinch her nipple, and rolled it between my fingers. I could see the dark blush at their tips, even in the meager moonlight. I could feel my pounding heart in my extremities.
"Fucking scoundrel," she said, yanking at my boxers. "Damn it, Nick. Turn over so I can see that dick." I obeyed, and my rock hard member leapt forth from confinement and slapped her on the belly. "How did you get such a handsome cock, Baby?" she hissed.
"Good genes, I guess." I leaned down on top of her, swallowing her whole with my kiss. Our mixed spit leaked out the sides of our mouths. Just like before, I kissed down her body, longing to enjoy her tits. It would be just like when I sucked her tits so many years ago, except this time I would have the carnal lust I was feeling to enhance the experience. I ran my tongue around her nipple.
"You want to suck on mommy's tits again, Baby? I know you can't get enough of them." She had no idea.