Serena shifted her body and snuggled closer to Derek. She sought his eyes with hers. For a moment, before he looked shyly away, she saw awe in his beautiful green eyes. She smiled and gently caressed his cheek with her fingers. She lifted his chin so she could look into his eyes again, and this time he didn’t look away. Now she saw uncertainty underlying the wonder. She drew his lips to hers, kissed him softly. “My baby,” she murmured, her eyes searching his face. She brushed a strand of hair back on his forehead, looked back into his eyes.
Serena understood that whatever happened next would be critical to where they went from now on. She had led her son over a line. She couldn’t undo that, even if she wanted to. They could never go back to where they were even 12 hours before – not now, not after this particular Pandora’s Box had been opened. For the briefest of moments, she felt a surge of panic, fed by instinctive guilt, well up in her. But it passed as quickly as it rose up. Guilt and shame would surely destroy both of them, and she would not allow those feelings to take over. The only other option was to nurture what they had created when their bodies joined.
She continued caressing his face, searching him with her eyes. She could see that he was overwhelmed by what they had done, and he wasn’t emotionally prepared to do anything more than follow her down whatever path she chose. She kissed him again, this time dipping her tongue softly into his mouth. She pulled her lips away, but let her tongue linger and trace over his parted lips. He moved his hands tentatively over her back, instinctively stroking her soft skin lightly with the pads of his fingers. It sent a delicious shudder over her.
“My precious baby,” she said softly. “That was wonderful.”
The intensity of the experience left Derek emotionally vulnerable. In the moments after the ferocity of his orgasm faded, he felt frightened and uncertain. He half expected his mother to rise up in revulsion and scream out, “What have we done?” Instead, she turned to him and gathered him into her arms. Suddenly, he felt childlike, and it was a wonderful, warm, secure feeling, snuggled safely and intimately in his mother’s embrace. When she looked at him, he didn’t see revulsion or shame in her eyes. He saw love and happiness. He had made her happy, and more than anything else, that thrilled him. Now he sought her lips, and she kissed him deeply. When she pulled her lips away, he whispered, “Yes, it was wonderful.” He felt awkward and uncertain, but he understood instinctively it was what she wanted.
“You’re so beautiful,” she said as she caressed him.
He looked away shyly. “So are you.”
“You’re beautiful and you’re my baby.”
“Yes I am you’re baby.”
The importance of what he said was not lost on Serena. She drew his face to hers and kissed him, her tongue darting into his mouth, finding his tongue and dancing with it. She pulled her lips away and drew his tongue out, sucking the tip until he shuddered. She laughed softly, playfully. “You like that,” she teased gently.
“Uh huh.”
She kissed his forehead, his cheeks, letting her tongue brush his soft skin. “That really was your first time?” she whispered.
Derek hesitated briefly, decided honesty was best. “Uh huh, it really was.”
Serena hugged him tightly, pressing her body against his, loving the way it felt to have him close to her. “I’m glad,” she said. “I never would have thought so. A beautiful young man like you, I’d think the girls would be drooling over you.”
Derek shrugged uncomfortably, unsure where this was going. “Sort of. I mean, you know I’ve had girlfriends. It’s not like I never got close.”
She smiled at his defensiveness and quickly kissed him. “It’s OK baby, I’m not criticizing. I’m just curious. You really are beautiful, and in this day and age I would think it would be almost automatic.”
“Well, I have come close, twice. With Cindy and another girl you never met.”
Serena remembered Cindy, a girl he’d dated with some degree of seriousness through his senior year in high school. “What happened?” she asked tenderly. “You can tell me.”
“Well,” he said, hesitating. “Both times it got to the point where we about to do it. But then....I...ummm....I guess I’m too big, ‘cause they got scared and made me stop.”
Serena smiled. “Well, you certainly are very well equipped,” she teased. “But it must have been terribly frustrating – to get so close, have your blood all up, then be pushed away.”
“It was,” he admitted.
“I’ll never do that to you. I’ll be your girlfriend,” she said playfully, “and you won’t have to worry about that.”
Derek wasn’t sure how serious she was, but it was stimulating. His groin began to glow again, his cock responding. He slid his hand down her back and tentatively cupped her firm bottom. “You know, I’m glad now that it didn’t happen with either of them.” He was about to say something that, for him, was very profound, and he flushed nervously. “I’ve always dreamed that my first time would be with you, it’s something I’ve dreamed about for as long as I knew what sex was.”
Serena gently nudged him with her body until he was on his back. She snaked one long, sleek leg over his leg, and pressed her sticky mound against his thigh. Propped on her elbow, she traced her fingers over his muscular chest and looked into his eyes. There was an innocent earnestness in face. She said tenderly, “I’m glad I’m the first one to have you. I wish I’d seen it sooner. I’ve spent the last few years so wrapped up in my own issues that I haven’t paid as much attention to you as I should have. But that won’t happen ever again. I promise.”
She snuggled her mound against him, and found his cock with her hand. He was more erect than not, and the instant she lightly encircled her hand around him, he shuddered and grew. She slid her hand up and down, barely touching him at first, then taking his engorged head in her hand and lightly, teasingly massaged him. He moaned softly. “Oh mama,” he trembled.
She brushed her parted lips over his, her tongue darting quickly to tease his tongue, and then she settled her mouth on his. She lightly ran her open palm up and down the underside of his rigid cock, making him tense up. When she pulled her mouth away with a wet smack, she murmured, “We can’t do anything about the past, but it doesn’t matter. We can do something about right now; we can make up for what might have been.”
Derek was seized suddenly by an overwhelming need to be in his mother again, but under it, a fear gripped him. Earlier, the fear had been there, but his passion overwhelmed it. Now, he had to voice it. “Mom, I need to ask you something.”
Serena sensed what was coming. She continued stroking him lightly. “Yes baby? Ask anything you want.”
“Um, Mom, am I, like, going to get you pregnant or anything?”
Serena gave a throaty laugh. “No baby. We don’t have to worry about anything like that. I had my tubes tied a long time ago, when you were very young. I decided you were the only baby I wanted. We have nothing to worry about except enjoying ourselves."
“Thank God,” he sighed, his fear dissolving.