By the age of nineteen, Jason's life was already a long strange trip. His story had armed robbery, rape, and incest in it. He'd read about things like that in books and seen it in films. He just didn't expect to be the character in the lead role.
When Jason was still young, his mother and stepfather, Janice and Carl, moved to a small beach town. It was close enough to the city in which Carl had opened an office for him to commute. He spent most of his time there and didn't always come home on weekends, which always served as a bone of contention between Janice and Carl.
For Jason, it all started with lotion. The beach was the equivalent of heaven to Jason because that's where he got to be with his mother without any distractions. Their house practically sat on the beach and before and after the tourist season, it was usually desolated. His mother was a sun-worshipper and they went out every afternoon and weekend. Janice would hand him the Coppertone to 'do her'. He must have slathered lotion on his mother's back and legs a thousand times over the years without thinking about it until that day in May when reality shifted.
He got hard. He wasn't sure what he was feeling. The confusion of excitement and guilt washed over him turning him crimson. He missed the father he never had to talk to. Jason's father had been an officer in the Marines but was accidentally killed in a live-fire exercise when Jason was five. His mother, who always explained things to him, was now unavailable. He calmed himself and waited for it all to subside. That night he was in turmoil. His mother must have asked him ten times if he was okay; he wasn't.
The next day as they sat in the dunes, he almost said no when she handed him the plastic bottle. Awareness now dogged his every thought and act. As soon as he opened the cap, the smell triggered a response. The white cream was now sensual in his hand. He started on her shoulder blades and became aware of how soft her skin was. Skin he had run his hand down so many times before, now felt different. The toning of her muscles from her daily run was evident to his touch. He slid down her long flanks. Had he come this close to the top of her rounded ass before? He couldn't remember. How could this be the first time he ever felt the silkiness of her inner thighs as his fingers came so close to the mystery between her legs?
That night was the first time Jason made himself come thinking about his mother. He had had a few nocturnal emissions caused by murky images of women like her, but never thought of them as 'mom'. He went out to the dunes and in the mild night air, touched himself. He thought of her, of touching her. With his eyes closed he watched as she touched him back. She kissed him back. She let him…she let him. The force of his release surprised him. He watched his ejaculate shoot a long distance from where he stood. Afterwards he sat in the sand feeling relieved that the feelings were gone. Somehow he thought it was over. By the time he returned to the house he realized how wrong he was. His mother was in a long tee shirt without a bra. He watched her stimulated nipples move against the cotton. Within minutes he had to turn away; he was hard again.
Janice was a beautiful woman and everyone noticed. Carl noticed everyone noticing; that made him a pain in the ass. He was always accusing her of leading men on or having affairs. When she came to his office a few days a week to help with the books he gave her a hard time about the way men looked at her. He swore he'd leave her without a penny if he ever caught her screwing around. She knew he had the power to do it.
In point of fact, Janice had two short affairs. One was with an actor in the community theater group she played in and the other was a lifeguard. She realized after a few years that her marriage was a mistake. Her husband didn't satisfy her in any way. He was obsessed with making money, which he was very good at, and 'banging' Janice, as he so delicately put it, which he was very bad at. The excuses she used to refuse him sometimes bordered on the absurd. She had invoked 'fatigue syndrome' a few times and once even told him that there wasn't enough sunlight that day and the deprivation made her unable have sex with him.
From anyone but Carl, Janice was always hungry for physical contact. She hugged and kissed everyone she knew. She was easily aroused and usually stayed aroused until she could find the time and place to masturbate. Even when talking to strangers her hands would end up on their arm or shoulder. It wasn't calculation or artifice. It was just the way she was.
The sensual effect that touch engendered was always welcomed, especially from her own 'handsome boy'. When she and Jason would walk in a mall or on the street she always wanted to hold his hand. When he grew tall enough, he would put his hand in the small of her back as they walked and gently stroke her up and down. She always smiled when he did that. She didn't smile lasciviously or seductively; she just smiled. When he was done, his last stroke would lightly brush over his mother's ass. She accepted his touch without any comment.
There was another side to the full-breasted beauty. She could look at times like a 'sweet innocent' but that didn't mean she was 'soft'. She could be tough as leather when she had to be. Jason always remembered the first summer on the beach when a big hairy guy came up to where they were sitting and called his mother something like 'sweet cheeks'. She stood her full five ten and with steel in her eye and voice, she walked within six inches of him and said, "Move on or you'll be sorry you didn't." The guy believed her and so did Jason.
Things starting going bad from the night his stepfather 'caught' them. Carl had been on Jason's back all night. Jason loathed him by that time. For all the times his stepfather had barked his orders at him, Jason couldn't remember him ever saying "please" or "thank you" to him. When they all settled down to watch a video, Janice had her legs across Jason's lap and he idly ran his hand from her knees to her ankle. Carl noticed that Jason was hard. He controlled himself for the moment but that night, Jason heard them screaming at each other.
"Are you screwing around with your own son now you whore?"
"What the hell are you talking about you crazy fuck?" Janice thought he had really gone off the deep end when he told her what he saw. She told him that he was being ridiculous; she said that boys Jason's age probably always had a hard on. She figured it was just Carl's jealousy run amok. After hours of arguing and threatening, he convinced her that the best thing was for Jason to go to live at school.
All relationships are complicated. When they sent him away to school, the love and desire he felt for his mother became tinged with anger. Jason couldn't understand how she could allow them to be apart. He listened to his pain in Eric Clapton's guitar and Janis Joplin's voice waiting for it to go away. It was the music his mother had listened to. The feelings always came back.
Through the years his fantasies took on a harder edge. At eighteen, he was picturing himself behind his mother's full round ass and plunging his cock deep enough to make her scream. He was never sure if it was a scream of pain or pleasure.
He was about to graduate and leave for college when his mother made one of her frequent visits to school. As he had gotten older, she confided in him. She talked to him about everything - sometimes too many things. She told him when she had her period and how tender her breasts felt. She even admitted her affairs to him and on that particular day she said, "I don't know Jason, I thought as I got older my sex drive would lessen but I want it and need it more than ever."
She didn't realize what she was doing to him until he said with a quiet ferocity, "I need it too mom…I need it too." He held her arms and began kissing her. She was so stunned she didn't react at first.
He pushed her to the bed and as he was about to get on top of her, she looked into the black of his eyes and softly said, "Jason…stop." He did.
His face showed the remorse he felt as he said, "I'm sorry mom, I've been thinking about loving you for so long that I don't know what I'm doing anymore." They talked for over an hour as he poured his heart out to her. When he was spent she took him in her arms and held him. She put her face in his hair and kissed his head. She stroked his cheek with her soft hand and then kissed his lips. She took his hand and placed it on her breast. She touched him until he came.
As she left the room she said, "Jason, I've got to think; I'll call you. I love you." Her call came sooner than he expected. It was the middle of the night. She said nothing he expected. "Jason, I need to see you. There's a bus at ten tomorrow morning; please come home."
When he got home he had no idea what to do or say. His stepfather was gone and his mother was dressed for the beach. She said, "I'll be out there honey…come out so we can talk." He put on a suit and followed her. The afternoon sun was waning when he got to the empty beach.
Janice lay prone with her eyes closed and Jason said, "You look great mom." She didn't answer as he reached for the lotion. He straddled her legs and coated his hands with the white cream. Jason unhooked the top of his mother's bathing suit and began coating her back. As he reached towards her shoulders, his cock contacted her ass.
Janice said, "Honey I know what you want but I can't do it… I can't let you…Jason…and it's not just that I'm your mother…Oh God, I shouldn't tell you this but it's true…it's that I want you to…I want you to…and if we start…"