I woke up at 8 sharp and drifted down the stairs to make a pot of coffee. Last night was the best I've slept in a long time. If it was Saturday instead of Sunday, I would have slept in, but I needed to get back into my routine and hold myself accountable to my obligations. This was especially true if I was going to hold my new dependents to their responsibilities.
Once the coffee was made, I went back up stairs to take a quick shower. I got dressed and checked my clock. It was 8:40. It was time to see who had developed some self-discipline so far this weekend. As I turned the corner into the kitchen, I was not surprised at what I found. Heidi was seated at the table reading the newspaper when she kindly greeted me.
"Good morning Mr. Braxton." Heidi was wearing a classic, simple dress blue dress with some nice sandals. Her Sunday best met my expectations, and I'll say that Heidi was consistently making me smile. When you want to believe that people are good at their core, Heidi was a good confirmation of that belief. I decided not to ask about the other girls. They're adults now, and they have to uphold their commitments if they were going to sleep under my roof.
"Did you have a good time with your friends last night sir?" I poured Heidi a cup of coffee, even though she didn't seem very interested in drinking it.
"You know Heidi, I did." She was listening intently while I got up and poured a glass of water and orange juice, both of which were for her. Once I placed both down on the table in front of her, she got the message and thanked me before she started sipping the orange juice.
"I'm lucky to have a great support system at work, and they allow me to be a good manager and develop new ideas and contacts for the firm. And I was pleasantly surprised that Shayna didn't embarrass me."
Heidi coyly giggled before I continued. "I was bummed that you weren't there. How did Leah do?"
Heidi gathered her thoughts before she divulged the details of her night. "I think she's ok. We did some calculus homework for a few hours and then we played 20 questions. She wanted me to let you know she's sorry and she's getting more comfortable around you. I think it's hard for her being so far from home."
I studied Heidi's blue eyes and body language as she detailed her night. Just as I began to lose my train of thought, I looked up at the clock. It was 9:03 and I was ready to head over to the church. It was a very nice, secluded parish in east suburban Philadelphia. I told Heidi to grab her coat. She apprehensively put it on before she asked if we were going to wait for the others.
"I told the girls last night when I expected them up. Leah is grounded so she's excused, but I was clear to Jasmine what I expected from them. And yet you're the only one who obeyed me. I know how much it hurts you, but they're going to have to suffer the consequences of their actions."
Heidi glumly accepted, and we got on the road. I got to know Heidi a little more on the way to mass. She was a straight A student who was accepted into Penn, and she was in the choir in high school. I had no idea why such a put together girl was not enrolled in college yet, even if she was at a prestigious all girls prep school. When I asked, she answered honestly.
"Ever since my dad died when I was 10, me and my mom have kind of struggled to get by. We've been in five different apartments the past seven years. We moved in with Professor Schmidt about a year ago. When I got into St. Theresa's I met him with my mom on a visit. They hit it off and we moved in with him around New Year's." I wanted to probe more into this predator of a teacher, but as we approached the church I decided against it. She wrapped her story as we made our way inside.
"Anyway, my admissions counselor at Penn told me I could earn a full academic scholarship if I performed well at St. Theresa's. I want to give my mom a better life."
I honestly wished this girl was my actual daughter. I decided to make sure she could accomplish her goals and dreams if I could. We sat down in one of the farther back pews as mass began. The service was decently filled, and a couple of the regulars did the readings and gospel songs before our pastor got up to give his sermon. As we were sitting down I heard the doors open and shut and some hurried feet scuffled in. I looked over my shoulder, and lo and behold, it was Jasmine and Robin with Shayna conspicuously absent. They were a bit disheveled, with Robin wearing what she wore to the party last night while Jasmine wore a more modest purple gown that went to the floor. Jasmine was showing far too much cleavage, which I'm sure she knew.
As they scooted into our row, they both mouthed 'sorry' as they sat down. I shot them both a disappointed glance. They both knew that this wouldn't end well for them. And while I was not surprised that Shayna wasn't here, I was angry that I let her go to the party last night. It's like I had forgotten every moment I had known her before I punished her Friday night. Privileges are earned, and I was kicking myself for being stupid enough to even give her an inch. Her next punishment was going to be in front of the other girls, and I was going to make it as humiliating as possible. I was going to tame this shrew.
The rest of the mass went relatively quickly, and at the conclusion of the service several of the parish members I knew initiated some small talk. I introduced them to the girls, and they were personable and well behaved. As we finally walked back to the car, Robin and Jasmine begged for my forgiveness as they climbed into the back seat. Jasmine tried to explain why they were not on time while Heidi fidgeted in the front seat. I wasn't interested in hearing it so I cut her off.
"We'll talk about it when we get home. But before we go home we are going to pick up Robin's, Heidi's, Leah's and Shayna's clothes and other belongings from their houses. We'll go to the mall for whatever else they may need. And how did you two get to church?" Jasmine said they got an Uber because she knew she wasn't allowed to drive my cars unless I gave her permission. I guess there was some growth there, at least. Robin thanked me enthusiastically for my generosity. while Jasmine suggested we go to Shayna's house first. I took their recommendation, but as I was turning my head back to the road I noticed Heidi was staring down and looked sick to her stomach. I decided that maybe it would be a good time to talk about living with her abusive professor once the other two went into Shayna's house.
As we pulled into the long driveway, I was quite surprised. Shayna's house was more of a mansion. It also looked completely abandoned. Jasmine must have noticed the expression on my face, because she immediately revealed what Shayna's parents did for a living.
"They're art dealers. At least that's what Shayna told us. She hasn't seen them in three years and she thinks they're in France or Belgium or something. There were a lot of butlers and maids here when we used to come here but once for the last year it's been basically empty."
Huh. Never would've guessed. Robin told us she knew exactly what to get and said she'd be no more than five minutes, which seemed impossible given the sheer magnitude of the house. Robin said she'd even grab some clothes for Leah.
"I think Shayna's mom is about Leah's size, so I'll just take some of her clothes." Jasmine began to laugh at her friend's bold statement, but she quickly replied that if she cared about the clothes so much she would've taken them with her. A pretty good point, and a clever and shrewd maneuver from a girl who no doubt had to develop some toughness, spunk and resourcefulness over her 19 years of life. As she hurried into the house, I decided to initiate the conversation.
"Why didn't you ever tell me Heidi was going to Penn, Jasmine?" Jasmine chuckled and reached around Heidi's seat from behind and hugged her.
"Heidi doesn't want anyone to think she's a snob. It's so silly but it's so Heidi." I silently agreed with Jasmine. Heidi seemed to be as genuine and kind a young woman as you could ever meet. But I noticed she still seemed very quiet and uneasy. Jasmine asked Heidi if she could help her with some of her homework, and Heidi meekly but pleasantly agreed. They talked about school for the next few minutes before Robin came back lugging about five giant duffle bags packed to the brim. She was smiling the whole way out to the car and relayed to us she had four more bags to get. I gave her a hard time that we didn't have all day, but she just laughed and said she wouldn't have grabbed so much if I hadn't brought the Suburban. The girl knew how to dish it as well as take it.
As she finished loading the car, I asked Heidi where she lived. She seemed stressed by the question. Jasmine seemed to perceive what was going on and gave me the directions. She even volunteered both herself and Robin to go in and get her stuff, to which Robin enthusiastically agreed. Robin and Jasmine chatted the entire 15 minutes to Heidi's about last night. I'm glad they seemed to enjoy themselves. But Heidi continued to look like she was in another world. We pulled into her driveway and she shrank a little in her seat.
"Ok dad we'll be right back!" Before Jasmine and Robin could hop out Heidi told them she was sure no one was home and that there was a key under the creepy garden gnome. They laughed and bounded toward the front door. After they disappeared into the house, I asked Heidi about why she was so stressed about being home. Her eyes began to well up and it broke my heart.
"This isn't my home, sir. Just because my stuff is here doesn't mean I feel safe here." She continued to fight the tears and I instinctively wrapped my arm around her shoulder and pulled her close.
"It wasn't that bad at first, but my mom became completely dependent on Professor Schmidt. She bought his act hook line and sinker." The tears began to fall and her voice started to crack. "Mr. Schmidt... I ask him to s-s-stop but he just won't." She tried to compose herself, and I may have had a harder time composing myself. How could this piece of shit be allowed to teach young women?
"I beg him to stop, but he touches me where I don't want to be t-touched. He sticks his fingers inside me and s-spanks me. He told me that if I tell my mom he'll kick us out. He told me no one would believe me if I told anyone else, and if he found out if I did tell anyone else he would take my virginity. I don't want to be the reason we're homeless! But I have to look him in the eyes every day at school while he acts like he is protecting me. There's nothing I c-can do."
Heidi collapsed into my chest and her sobbing was heavy and loud. I honestly had no idea what to do about this. Maybe my actions over the past couple days disqualified me from passing judgment, but I at least knew that these girls respected me and felt safe and happy in my home. This predator was intimidating and manipulating a defenseless and helpless girl into taking physical and sexual abuse.