I have always enjoyed sitting in the quiet reading area of my Master Suite; the fireplace provides a soft flickering of light and the dry warmth steals the chill out of any winter's night. Things changed a few weeks ago, I think all is well, but still things will be forever different.
I have been a single father ever since my wife very suddenly, tragically was taken from this Earth. I still pray when that drunk driver crossed the centerline, that Nancy never felt a thing. Alexis, our daughter was just 2 years old and safely home with me waiting for Mom to return from a visit with her best friend during her childhood days. It was a clear night, a cool summer evening, the air was still, and the stars were bright.
Alexis remembers nothing about her Mom, she was too young. The Memorial service was filled with well wishers and family alike. Shock best describes that entire episode of my life. Since then have I dedicated myself to making sure one parent is all Alexis ever needs. We are very close, she shares her entire life with me, and nothing is hidden. I also share everything with Alexis; I have nothing hidden from her.
Together we have been able to build a happy life from the ashes of that summer evening so long ago. Alexis is now 18 and her beauty comes from her Mother's side of the gene pool. Her laughter is something she just made up on her own; it captivates me every time I listen to her. Her gymnastics skills come from her tough determination to find perfection in everything she does. I am simply amazed by her.
Alexis is a very social young lady, but she has never seriously dated anyone. Her gymnastics require her to spend long hours at the gym, she also is very careful with what she eats and maintains incredibly good grades. Her dream is to go to College next year and graduate with a Business degree so she can take over our family business.
She is very involved in the business and spends her free time working at our Furniture Store. She knows every detail about the operation and loves traveling with me to market. All of our vendors know Alexis well and enjoy working with her. I'm amazed how she handles people much older than herself. But then she has always been much more mature than her age.
She is petite, only 5'1" and carries her weight of only 105lb proudly. Her long wavy blond hair perfectly frames her beautiful face. Her deep green eyes magically draw you in towards her. Her lips are not overly full, but flawlessly shaped and sized to fit sensually into her features. Everyone notices her legs; they are long, toned, and tanned. Being so petite you would think she looks very young, but that is not the case. She is very much a young lady.
Most every night as Alexis grew up I would tuck her into bed and read from an assortment of books or articles that she had selected. If I ever forget she bounces into my room and crawls onto my reading chair with me as I am winding down for the night. We both enjoy our cuddle time together in front of the fireplace in my reading area.
After her 18th Birthday our good night kisses slowly evolved beyond the Father/Daughter hug and kiss. That was a slow careful process that we both wanted to explore but were hesitant at first. Then on my 50th Birthday, Alexis took me out to dinner; for both of us it felt like a first date. Back home we slowly walked in from the garage, hand in hand. As we approached her bedroom door we stopped and faced each other. The moment had come; I thought our nerves would have caused the heat to settle, but our arms wrapped around each other and our lips joined.
Her sweet lips fit mine perfectly, our fingers caressed each other, and our bodies melted into one another. Alexis was not shy, she drove her tasty tongue between my lips and filled my mouth with a pleasure I have never before experienced. I felt freed from my own uptight inhibitions and allowed my tongue to roam and struggle with hers. Her gentle moans guided each kiss as our love blossomed to a new level.
It was hard to say goodnight that evening, but we both knew we needed to be sure about our future before we dove in any deeper. The next few weeks were wonderful. Our touches were tender and our words to each other were very heart felt. I have always done the cooking and Alexis has always done the dishes, so each night we continued in our roles but never let the other go away, we wanted this time together.
Then a few Friday's ago a winter storm blew though our northern town dumping the expected foot of snow. These are actually wonderful times for our town; the town folks enjoy winter and all the activities that the season brings us. Alexis and I enjoy snow shoeing through the woods and so we let the business manage itself that Saturday, and wasted no time getting out to the State Park by the big lake and taking in the sites of a fresh winter snowfall. It was beautiful, the air was clear and cool, the sky started to break free from the dark grey clouds and the blue became intense as the sunlight broke through brightly. The branches from the pine trees bent towards the ground weighted down by the soft fresh snow.
We walked for hours and yes we had our flasks filled with warm rum; a few sips from a flask and our souls were brought back to temperature. The cold was never an issue that day. Back home we spent a few hours conversing, caressing, and then cooking our dinner together. I stood behind Alexis and gave her a gentle hug as she did the dishes; and a few caring kisses were delivered to each other.
Finally Alexis turned to look very deep into my eyes and she requested that I get comfortable in my reading chair after making sure the fireplace was lit. She even made a point that I ensure the heat was filling the room and she intended to sit with me when she arrived. When I went to my room I found that she had left out my favorite pair of navy colored silk sleeping shorts on my chair.
I have a bar in the sitting area so after turning on the fireplace I decided to pour a smooth glass of Cabernet from the wine cabinet. I took the silk shorts into the closet; striped my clothes off and slide on the shorts. I walked back to my chair and grabbed the wine from the adjoining table and gently took a sip. The lights were softly lit as I slid into my chair; I wanted to make sure Alexis could find her way around and I needed some light to read whatever it was she brought with her.
Soon I heard a gentle knock on the door, without having to say a word the door opened while I was gazing into the fire. The soft wool carpet made it impossible to hear any footsteps, but I felt Alexis' presence and I knew she was getting closer. The lights slowly went dimmer until the energy was totally gone from them.
"Shhhhhhhhh daddy. Don't turn around just yet, please."
With that I promised to do as requested and let my head fall back into the pillow on the chair as I closed my eyes for a moment trusting everything was going to be fine. My ears started to pick up on the obvious sound of the comforter and sheets being pulled back. My heart started to race, my mind almost froze shut, I was not in a panic but I knew Alexis was on a mission. I could only hope we both were ready to become much more than father/daughter.
Soon I felt her warm fingers covering my eyes as she stood behind my chair and wrapped her hands around my face. A soft kiss on my neck sent my pulse soaring, a sensuous giggle followed as she reached for the wine. After taking a sip she placed the glass back on the table. I felt her stand more erect as her fingers were pulled from my eyes.
"One more request Daddy, please keep your eyes closed for just a few more moments."
I tried to relax as every muscle in my body was twitching, aching from the burden of the unknown. Finally I heard her soft words again.
"Ok Daddy, I'm over here next to the fireplace, I want you to open your eyes."