Sex. It's really an interesting word. In general it is exactly what it means, two people ignoring all inhibitions and just going at it. Other times though, feelings get involved and it turns to more. That is definitely not the case with my situation. I used to be a very subdued, laid back woman until recently.
I guess it all started a couple of years ago when I saw him again after so many years. There is a 12 year difference between he and I and the last time I saw him we were quite a bit younger and the age difference seemed too far. Now it doesn't matter. He came to visit at Christmas a couple of years ago and there was an instant attraction. He is incredibly sexy. Tanned skin, nice physique, beautiful almost hypnotizing eyes, and extremely full sensuous lips. Any woman would want him. Since I have a somewhat low self esteem level, I thought for sure he wouldn't be interested, not to mention we are related. He however let it be known that he was very interested. Unfortunately nothing happened. We came in contact a few times after that and for me the attraction just continued to burn hotter. I wanted him. I wanted to know what it would feel like to touch him and kiss him. I wanted to explore every inch of that amazing body, but the time was just never right.
Finally it happened. He came to stay with us for a while. It was awkward at first. It happened late at night the first night he was here. He, my husband and I (did I mention I was married) stayed up late watching a movie. I spent the majority of the time just staring at him imagining what it would be like to be with him. The movie ended and my husband decided to go to bed. I told him I was going to sit up and visit with my cousin for a while. We sat around just shooting the breeze for a bit and I went and changed into the sexiest lingerie I own.