"Yeah, I know but did he get you off?" She quizzed me.
I couldn't even answer her but I could feel the warmth of an embarrassing blush coloring my cheeks and the tingle of a vibrating wave building between my squirming thighs. I could only hide my face behind my jittery hands as my head nodded involuntarily. I felt like a schoolgirl discussing her first serious kiss after a movie-date.
But this was no recess break where two teens talked about their first boy/girl party. It wasn't even the usual intimate gossip between two grown women about getting back into the dating pool. I was overwhelmed about the action- and subsequent inaction that I had been involved in last night.
"C'mon mom, I know he slept with you last night. It's just us girls, so tell me, how many times did you cum?" She persisted with her excruciating interrogation. "You can talk to me about it, don't be shy. I know exactly what you're feeling."
I stifled a self-conscious guffaw and my ashamed laughter came-out as a series of snorts. Remembering some of the more explicit phases of last night's bedroom adventure, I could only continue to hide my reddened complexion and hold four trembling fingers infront of me. How could she ever know just exactly what I was feeling? A morning glow of exhilaration and renewed sexiness tainted
by the shame and guilt of degeneracy. And yet, I couldn't resist the "power-brag" of letting her in on (a small part) of my secret, that this older woman could still tempt a much younger man, into supplying her with FOUR seismic orgasms before the conclusion of their debased and immoral little "affair." As I struggled to cover my corrupted expression, the unceasing wiggling of my fingers signaled that I was not totally contrite or chastened by my role in the lewd little fling.
"He made you cum four times! Wow!" She was hugging me with joyful tears welling in her dewy brown eyes that made a toothy smile spread across my face. "How many times have you cum in the previous year?" The crude and biting question from my 19 year-old daughter nearly took my breath away but now with the cat out of the bag, I was anxious but uncertain how to share the details of my nocturnal roll in the hay. The correct words wouldn't form on my dishonored tongue. I could only shake my head, signaling that I hadn't had even one orgasm brought-on by another person, in quite a few years. She was shrieking with delight as she grilled me for more indelicate confessions. "Why would you ever want to stop fucking him?"
I looked across the table at the young woman who was so excited that I had been seduced and brought to the heights of sexual glorification after years of loneliness and depression. My younger daughter was a near-mirror image of me from about three decades past. Her long auburn-tinted brunette waves cascaded over her shoulders, reproducing a look of mine she found from an old photo. We both had sparkling, chocolaty-brown eyes, hers from youthful exuberance and a bright future, mine from one startling night of slavish service to a surprising Dom that morphed into thrilling sexual abandonment and a sense of libertinism.
Our chest measurements seemed to be similar. My 36's were a bit more wobbly and when unloosed, the nipples no longer stood directly forward. Hers looked perky and perfectly tear-drop shaped. The effects of gravity and having birthed three kids showed on my hips and belly, though I was a devotee to Pilates and kept most of my curves relatively firm. Christie had the vitality of youth and appeared to be torn from the pages of a swimsuit magazine. I envied every inch of her but for a moment, my yesterday was the talk of our coffee table. But one nagging thing kept coming to the fore whenever our conversation returned to the action between the sheets.
Her teasing question of why I am not dancing on the table and making plans for a return engagement haunted me, though I didn't reveal that there was a plan already for a repeat performance. A dark shadow clouded my erotic reverie as an aching lump rose in my throat. I took a deep breath and for the first time in about ten minutes, I was able to look my daughter in the eye and with quivering lips holding back the guilt, I replied "Because he's my son."
Finally saying it outloud for the first time; after hearing the crude words reverberate in my mind all night while listening to the ticking of the clock and here today, watching for the stunned reaction and bitter disappointment that I expected to see reflected on her shocked face, I was the one taken aback when she smiled and held my hands in hers. She didn't seem suitably stunned at the awkward announcement of my offspring as paramour. I had felt foolish enough talking to my nineteen-year-old daughter Christy, about the cause of my 100-watt smile and the Cheshire Cat grin that seemed a newly permanent fixture on my 47-year-old features. I feared that this unholy disclosure might send her to a psychiatrist or an asylum. She said that she was aware that my son spent the night. Does that mean that she knew that he was the one I had sex with?
"I understand completely mom. I felt the same way when I started fucking Jason, too. But once you've had that big cock in your pussy, how could you ever say no?"
Did she just say "Jason?" It can't be possible. I am stacking one nightmare ontop of another. Not the same Jason, it must be someone from one of her classes or from the gym or a coffee shop. And she mentioned something about his penis size. Is it not bad enough that I'm conversing with my youngest child about the illicit sexual adventure that still warms my uterus? Or that I just admitted that I had sexual relations with my only son? But ofcourse, how could I ever hope to conduct a proper dialogue about rape, incest and multiple orgasms without the language and the descriptions taking it's most crude form? And did she now confirm with the utmost assurance that she has had sex with him, too? I was momentarily lost for words.
"Are you kidding? It took me all night and most of this morning to form the words and gather the strength to break this awful news without risking your hatred or utter disappointment and you're casually telling me that you've had sex with your brother, too?" Her normally sweet countenance took on a quite serious expression but then her hands motioned into a pantomime of slowly widening while her brown eyes enlarged as if she was observing a living thing stretching and unwinding it's great length to a degree beyond normal confines. And despite my rather Puritan upbringing and years spent on the sidelines of the new sexual age, I grasped instantly, that without need of words, she was describing what I had discovered last night- that my son -her brother- had an enormous cock that we had apparently, to the possible damnation of our household, both recently sampled.
Christy only giggled a bit and her less-than-girlish blush settled across a deeply satisfied expression. She couldn't hold back her grin and reacted as if a great weight had been lifted from her shoulders being able to include me in the growing sorority of the family's women who had slept with Jason. She practically licked her lips as she remembered the feeling and I was sorely tempted to acknowledge that I had actually tasted the forbidden fruit also.
"Mom, we worried about how you might take it and if you'd let the taboo phrase "incest" upset you. Even though Jason can bring-out the inner-slut hidden inside of every good girl and we thought that was precisely what you needed. And you've got to admit that he's hung like a bull and that he really knows how to use that monster." Every word she said hit me like a ton of bricks.
"What do you mean, that you worried about it? Did you know that Jason was going to crawl into bed with me and force me to have sexual relations with him? Do you know that he held me down and took me from behind? Then he made me take him in my mouth like a common whore. He wasn't satisfied until he climbed ontop of me and did it that way and then he changed positions and actually licked me... down there. Then he pulled my nightgown completely off and told me to grip my breasts while he sucked on my nipples like when he was baby, only he was squeezing and kneading them too, while telling me how big they are and that he likes women with big "you-know-whats." The lurid thoughts and the lingering emotions were so vivid that I was now caught-up in the gutter-language that has replaced romance. "He told me that he intends to pinch and suck on my tits whenever he is near me now so I should stop wearing brassieres. And he "expects" me to suck his cock as a greeting, the next time he sees me."
That's why I called you this morning, he just left about an hour ago and I didn't know who to turn to." I was frantic and speaking rapid gibberish. Explaining that it began with me taken against my will while describing in extreme detail each body part and how they fit together in sequence. My breathless re-enactment and eye for every sordid particular caused my heart and pulse rates to skyrocket. Beads of sweat heated my forehead and the warmth of my body caused my sheer gown to cling to my damp flesh. My nipples again, sprouted and my eyes glazed-over as I retold the events of my encounter, now using the common tongue. Awkwardly admitting at the same time that I was intending to be his slave again and that I was being conditioned to accept my fate. And I was learning to cherish it!
I portrayed to my daughter (but mostly for myself,) the pornographic scene of my twenty-five year-old son stealing into my bed completely naked; of me being forcibly penetrated from behind as I slowly awakened from slumber, the deliberate, lustful groping and tweaking of my full breasts while he whispered how much he loved sucking on them, the thick fingers hungrily searching and entering my vagina pushing and tickling the inner recesses as my sinful loins moistened to their skillful touch, my submissive body being tossed and placed on the bed in all positions while surrendering to his prurient seductions and then having his firm, hardened tool thrust into my gaping mouth and having to swallow the salty discharge of his turgid column. To hide my shame after practically enumerating the various ways that I succumbed and participated in my own seduction, I looked at her in an accusatory manner for almost setting the beast upon my virginal body.