It wasn't long until Saturday came. We'd spent the whole week going through my box of condoms and never even went swimming. As we loaded up the truck panic started to set in. "Alex, did your hickies go away?" He'd only marked me the first two days, but I couldn't chance pink marks being found. I'd dug my hole too deep.
I saw his mouth quirk up from the side as he loaded up the tent. "Yeah. I was careful not to leave any bad ones."
Thank God
. "Come on, I've got to go pay for the last couple days and we will head home." He took my hand and pulled me to him, kissing me. When he released me, my head was dizzy.
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"Where's Alex?" Eli asked as I unpacked my bag. He flopped on his back on my bed, and I glanced at him from the corner of my eye.
"He dropped everything off and had to go to pick up a check from a client."
"Ah." I picked up my swimsuits, and Eli looked at me. "Fall for the 'I only brought this one'?"
"Nope." I threw my clean one piece into the dirty clothes to save face and put my two-piece in the drawer.
"How come it was just you two this time?"
"I don't know, Eli. He just wanted time with me since I'm growing up. Maybe he's afraid I'm going to move away after my first year of college." I glanced at him. "Now there's a thought. Get away from psychotic brothers for a while so I can find a man. Think you'll give up then?"
He turned his head. "Someone's feisty today. Did you and Alex have a fight?" I blinked. We hadn't fought all week.
"No. We mostly talked about college. I tried to avoid the boys talk. I'm just trying to get you to leave me alone." I felt bad for lying to my best friend and being mean, but I couldn't handle him too. I still had to figure out a way around JT.
He sat up. "Are you going to stop hanging around JT and Alex more than me?"
I stared at him. "What?"
"If I can't have you, then they can't either. You didn't even like them up until a month ago." He met my exasperation with resolve at we stared at each other.
"Eli, I think that you need to talk to someone because I can't handle this anymore. What we did was wrong and it's not going to happen again. Are we clear?"
He stood up and I took a step away from the bed. "No we aren't. I know you better than anyone else. Whatever you have going on with JT needs to stop. He's only going to hurt you." My eyes flicked to the door as I saw movement.
"What's going on here?" JT's eyes were on his little brother.
"Go away, JT." My younger level-headed brother seemed to bristle with annoyance. JT clapped him on the shoulder.
"Come on, man. I think you and I need to have a talk. Quit bothering Holly." There was a split second before Eli launched himself at JT. My eyes widened as Eli kept trying to throw punches and JT attempted to restrain him. They ended up on the floor with Eli's arms behind his back, but not before he got in a couple of swipes at JT. I could see a red mark blooming on JT's cheek.
"Are you okay?" They both looked up at me, but I was looking at JT.
"I'm fine. We're fine. Right, Eli? You're going to calm down so I can let you up?"
"Get off me," came his calm-toned voice. Eli's face was turning pink as his frustration increased. His face held more betrayal than the night I'd called Alex at the party.
JT let him go and stood up. Eli quickly pushed himself up and left. I jumped as his door slammed shut a second later. I shut my eyes and felt guilt wash over me. I would be the one to ruin this family, not our parents' murderer.
"I've got to go get something to ice this with."
"Yeah." I opened my eyes and he was assessing me with his. "I'll help you." I followed him downstairs and pulled out our gel pack from the fridge. He sat down on a bar stool as I handed it to him.
"What is going on with him?" JT put the pack against his cheek. I'd seen him do it numerous times in high school after fights, but this time it was my fault.
I looked away and leaned against the counter. "I can't tell you that without betraying him."
"If he's bothering youβ"
"He's just confused. I can't exactly hide things from him because he knows me too well."
"Well he was wrong. I'm not going to hurt you." I closed my eyes. I really couldn't deal with this right now.
"I think I'm going to make meatloaf tonight to calm him down. Are you staying for dinner?" I turned and grabbed the list off the fridge.
"Yeah. I'll help keep an eye on him. Did you have a fun week?"
"I guess. Not so many spiders in the bathroom this time. I think someone sprayed for them." I added what I needed for meatloaf to the list.
"Probably someone else with a little sister."
"Yeah maybe." I looked up at him. "Think I should take him with me like I usually do?"
He shrugged. "If you want to. Serves him right if you don't, that kid did a number with that hit." He pulled the ice pack away and I could see some purple coming up.
"I'm sorry."
He smiled. "It's not your fault. It's been a while since he hit me. I probably had it coming."
It really is my fault
. "Well, I'll be back soon. Keep icing that." I walked up the stairs and grabbed my keys and wallet. As I went to leave my room, I took a deep breath and knocked on Eli's door. "Hey, it's me. Will you come with me to the store?"
He opened the door without a shirt and a mean look on his face. "Why don't you take JT?"
"Because I never go shopping with JT. Plus, I'm making meatloaf for you. Come pick out the bread crumbs you want." I tried to keep a positive attitude as he looked at me.
"Fine. Let me find a shirt." I stayed at his door as he grabbed a shirt from his closet and pulled it over his head. "Let's go." I backed up and he followed me to my car. He turned the radio on when we got in and faced the window the whole way to the store.
"I grabbed the list from the fridge, too," I told him after we had grabbed a basket. "We need milk first." He headed that way and I pushed the basket. "You can talk, you know."
"I wouldn't want you to sick JT on me again." He put the gallon of milk in the basket.
"You're the one that attacked him." I crossed milk off the list. "Eggs and yogurt." We continued on down the list, but he didn't talk to me anymore.
As we were loading the car, a car stopped behind us and rolled down the window. "Eli?" We both turned around to the guy. "Oh hey, you're Alex's girlfriend." It was Travis, the guy from the lake.
I glanced at Eli who was just staring at the guy and stepped up to the window. "Actually, I'm Holly, the little sister. Angela is who you're looking for." I pretended to check my watch. "Alex is at work right now. I can give you his number if you want to catch up with him and Angela. What did you say your name was?"
He seemed confused but continued on good naturedly. After all, who takes showers with their sister? "It's Travis. I've got his number. Thanks though. I've got to head back to the campsite. My family is probably harassing my girl. Tell JT I said hi. Bye, Eli!" He nodded to me and I stepped back as he rolled up his window and drove away.
"Save it until we get home, Eli," was all I said as I took the empty basket and drove it to the cart corral. He watched me the whole time, but I wouldn't look at him as we got into the car.
"Angela?" he muttered a few minutes later.
"I said wait until we get home. I can't deal with this while I'm driving." He made an amused noise as I turned into our neighborhood. All I could think about was how I wished we lived further away.
He waited semi-patiently as we brought in everything. JT had disappeared but Alex's car said he was home. I couldn't tell if these were good things or not. I was putting the last of the groceries in the fridge when I heard Alex say, "Thanks for going shopping you two."
I slowly closed the fridge door and met Eli's gaze that was quickly becoming hostile. "You're welcome. I'm making meatloaf tonight."
"Yeah, you should invite Angela over. I think JT and I would love to meet her. Especially since she looks like our sister according to Travis." I shut my eyes and leaned my forehead against the fridge door.
"Eli, please," I whispered.
"No, you keep telling me nothing is going on and I'm tired of it."
"Eli, can you give Holly and me a minute please?"