I have ridden this damn horse for days. She's an ornery bitch. If I don't pay attention during our short breaks she'll try and bite me when I'm melting my way out of the saddle. What's worse is the colder it gets, the meaner she becomes. We're traveling north. My thighs are bruised and angry and I can't even claim it's from a good time. This bothers me more than it should.
"Shiva, we're going to stop here for the night."
I turn partially in my seat to look at the man that rides up beside me. Logan is almost ten years my senior, a mage of the highest caliber, and one of my greatest joys is taunting him. Don't panic, dear reader, he enjoys our verbal spars as much as I do. We love to hate on each other. He is my father's pet, one of his first Chosen for our task. And I am many things, but a daddy's girl is not one of them. It was too easy for the man to become the target of my venom.
There is an army at our backs and they have already begun to slow once the word rippled through them that we're stopping. The relief and annoyance is instant. Most are pleased with the news but there are others that would rather press on further. I am one of them. "This is a shit spot to stop. The weather is coming in hard, we need something with more protection." I see the glint in his eyes, he was prepared for this argument. More likely than not he volunteered to be the bearer of bad news between my three companions. The other two do not irk me as much as this big hatted buffoon does.
He turns his horse in front of me and I have to pull mine up hard so she doesn't snap at them. This only serves to earn me more of her ire and her ears pin back as she dances around, contemplating tossing me into the snow, if I had to guess. The mages saving grace is I cannot control fire like my mother's kind can, he is equally as blessed I did not get the same talent from my father.
"Some of the other mages are recovered enough to settle us in with some barriers, we'll be safest here without the risk of an avalanche further up." It is a shitty excuse and he must read my face because he continues. "By all means, Snow Goddess, do something about it." He knows I can't. I can conjure ice and snow all day, everyday, but the weather will do whatever the hell it pleases.
I turn me and my brooding mare around and venture back into the thick of the people that have chosen to fight alongside us. Perhaps if I find Diea I will not be so tempted to freeze Logan's balls to his saddle. The little healer has always found a way to ease my temper.
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Diea cures my bad mood by the time the tents are set up and people have gotten fires going. We share a meal in the central tent where we talk with our generals and plan. The other two, Logan and Teigal, join us shortly after. Teigal is a beast of a man, tall and broad in the shoulders. He dwarfs most of his warriors, who make normal people look like ants. Knights are a funny bunch, that way. I do not miss the look him and Diea share before the men pull up chairs and pour a round of drinks.
Diea is my opposite in nearly every way. I have taken many of my fathers traits, his silvery hair and eyes, his height, his pride and confidence. But I acquired my mothers pale skin, or so I've been told. It could have something to do with my unique magic. My people, the Kettu, are often known as Foxes of Flame. Generally we have mastery of fire of all kinds and the ears and tail of red foxes, with the ability to shift into a full one at will. You'd think, being the daughter of a Kettu and the God of Fire, I would have those things going for me. Joke's on you. My fur is white as the snow we're expecting tonight and a fire would be more likely to laugh at me than do what I ask. I am the first of my kind, a Snow Kettu, or Ice Kettu. I haven't quite chosen a name for myself.
Diea, on the other hand, is gentle. She has a wild mane of brown hair that we have never been able to tame. Her eyes sparkle like the clearest green seas. She is smaller than me in nearly every proportion and yet she is so very beautiful. Her voice is what I imagine bells and perfect night skies would sound like if they could sing. There is not a mean bone in her body, she is just as likely to heal the enemy as our own injured. People do not follow her, fight along-side her, and protect her because she is strong like Teigal or cunning like Logan. They follow her because she pulls something in their hearts that makes them want to fight for something more. She has laid out a dream in front of them and they will fight to the death to gain it... And she would die making sure they do not. This is the only thing that makes me jealous of her, and I hate myself for it. The unwavering loyalty to her is as pure as she is, and I know I will never have that.
"You haven't listened to a damn thing I've said, have you?"
That voice pulls me out of my thoughts and grinds my nerves. "I have perfected the art of ignoring you, Logan." But have you mastered ignoring me? The cold doesn't bother me like it does others. While they sit bundled in thick wool and furs I lounge comfortably in a thin tunic and breeches. Like much of my clothing it does not leave much to the imagination. I like the looks, I like the touches when I allow them. Logan has never tried but I have seen those eyes travel me on more than one occasion. It is part of our game. I flaunt, he tries to ignore, I become annoyed at being ignored, I sleep with someone else. I'm not sure how this game benefits him, but I love it.
He glares at me, those dark blue eyes are not as amused as I am right now. "I'll reiterate for you. My scryers have looked past the mountain and seen the enemies camp. When the weather passes we can expect another battle. Best to let everyone rest, but double the patrols just in case."
This was one of the few instances he and I found common ground. War, especially war against a Goddess, was nothing to sneeze at. "I'll send some of the Kettu farther north, just a few small parties to watch the paths, send one of your mirror wielders with each group and there won't be a delay in information. My people are better suited for the snow than one of your armor clad brutes, Teigal, and Diea's archers won't stand a chance in close combat if something sneaks up on them."
They agreed with the simple plan and it was settled.
It wasn't long before Teigal made some excuse to leave. A full five minutes hadn't passed before Diea followed him out. It was cute, this little secret they kept. The whole of the army knew, not just Logan and I, but we all pretended not to. They deserved to be happy, so none of us will take that from them.
Logan stretched those lanky arms of his across the table and grabbed my cup, retreating back to pour me another drink. "Do you think they know we know? Or do you think they honestly believe they're sneaky?"
We have mused over this subject before and it always makes us chuckle. He passes me back my now filled cup and I am free to stretch my legs up onto the table, crossing my boot clad ankles. Diea would have chastised me for this, but for some reason I know my secret is safe with Logan. I take a sip and the wine is warm on my tongue with heavy hints of berries and flowers. He's heated it with his magic, he knows this is how I like my wine after a long ride. And we have been riding for so long lately... "It's a damn good thing neither of them are spies, that's all I can say." That pulls a grin from him.
The mage sets aside the wide brimmed hat I tell him looks ridiculous daily. His hair is long and dark, nearly black, but lately I have noticed silver strands of gray beginning to streak it. His jaw is strong but now covered in a beard he has announced he will grow out. Apparently a master mage should look the part. I have told him this, too, is a ridiculous idea. He is handsome and I have considered letting him follow me to bed on more than one occasion after we've finished drinking together. Maybe I will let my pride and our game take a break tonight. Maybe is something I say a lot.
"Are you truly not cold?" This too, is something he has asked me before.
"Why, Broad-Hat? Interested in keeping me warm tonight?" The game is afoot. I don't know why he lets me play it so much, but he does. What's best is he meets each of my taunts with one of his own. I like the battle, he is a delightful challenge.
"And let you put me into an early grave? I've seen some of the poor sods that limp away from your tent in the morning."
I tut him, "I've seen you in battle, Logan, your stamina is quite good for someone your age." A low blow? Perhaps.
"My age?" He glowers at me and I ignore it, choosing to take a drink instead. "You're a demi-goddess. No one has the stamina to keep up with your insatiable hunger." He's not wrong. "Besides, I've only got ten years on you and Teigal, I'm not that old."
I am trying not to grin but I think I'm failing, back into the drink I go. "Of course not." I hope that sounded as patronizing as I had intended it to.
He stands and for a minute I think he might leave, game over. But he comes around and pours more into my cup again, looming over me to do so. It is the male version of telling you who is in charge, unfortunately such things don't work on me. Pity, domination has always seemed interesting. "I am not one of the young pups you take in for a game, Shiva."
"Not at all." I agree. "It's alarming how many of them I have to teach."
"Must we play this game tonight?" He sighs and returns to his chair but doesn't sit. He is eyeing the tent entrance. These games with him have become shorter and shorter lately, I can't figure out why that's bothersome.
"Oh, seeing your piece of tail tonight?" My own tail flicks at the thought.
"What business is it of yours who I choose to screw?"
I can't help the head tilt as I look at him, one of my vulpine ears twists involuntarily. "So touchy tonight." I drain my cup and stand. "Remember, Master Mage, I'm not the one that watches who leaves your tent in the morning." This time I don't intend for the bitterness to fall off of my lips but it does anyway.
I leave first. Let him simmer on his own, what does it matter to me?
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My newest plaything is a young soldier from either Teigal or Logan's battalion. I have no use for names, and he is not allowed to use mine. The snows have fallen quick and heavy, as was promised, and for the moment I allow him to warm my bed.
If he has experience it is minimal. I ride his cock as he strokes my thighs, gripping them tightly on occasion and thrusting up hard. He is long, but not particularly thick, and he hasn't quite figured out how to work with it. I will teach him.
I lean forward and nip at his ear, this draws a gasp from him and he bucks his hips into me harder. "Good," I purr. "You won't break me, I am not like the mortal woman you had before." He looks startled that I called him on his practice, like a deer caught in a hunters sites. "Let me have you passion and your anger and your fears. Bury them all into me, tonight I will be the healer of your soul."
That's all it takes it seems. He pushes me away from him and latches on to one of my nipples, biting and sucking until it's plump from abuse. Yes. I give him the sound of affirmation he is looking for and he continues to the other one. He is thrusting into me now with abandon. The tip of him pressing hard into my cervix enough I know I will be sore tomorrow. I will welcome it.
"Shit-"
Gods, no. I roll off of him before the rest of his seed spills inside. I can feel him sitting up behind me. "Don't." My tone is sharp, cutting. I do not want his apology or his excuses. "Disappear before I return." I command. I grab clothes and dress quickly, leaving this troublesome pup to clean himself up and make himself scarce.