Cora wasn't sure how she made it home. Meli had seemed distracted, barely saying a word to her. She'd waved her off with just a
good morning.
Normally, she was a bright-and-squirrely morning person. Something was off.
Are they waiting for me?
By the time she reached the door, Cora's nerves were so jangled that she nearly took off running when it opened.
"Oh, hi, Bee."
He gave her a funny look. "Hi? I heard you coming. Mom said you had a busy night."
Mom said- Oh, fuck. My hair. Think fast, Cora.
It was still wet from the shower.
"Yeah, I did. I poured dirty mop water on myself. I couldn't come home smelling like that."
Bee grimaced. "That's gross. Anyway, Tor's here."
Cora's voice shot up an octave. "Is he?!" She winced, taking a sharp breath. "Sorry. Is he?" She wasn't sure whether the heaviness in the pit of her stomach was from guilt, or something else.
He gave her a funny look. "He's sleeping in your room right now."
"Ah. Okay. Thanks, Bee."
Why didn't she tell me?
"Oh, and Mom didn't want me to tell you this, but her and Tor had a big argument."
"A big argument? About what?"
Bee shrugged. "I don't know, but I heard her yell 'You're not taking her to them!'. She was
really
angry."
Humming, Cora tapped her foot against the ground. "I think I know what that's about. To get here, they'd have to be working with the Sheevae. Their queen likes me, I think."
"Those guys are weird." Bee's grimace returned.
"I- Well, yeah. You're right. They are pretty... something." Shaking her head, Cora leaned over to peek down the hall. "How long has he been asleep?"
Bee shrugged. "Not too long. He was pretty tired when he got here."
"Thanks, Bee."
Gingerly, Cora snuck up to the doorway.
Tor was in the bed, curled around the kids. Mel was sitting up, chewing at a toy Bee had given her. The other two were asleep. When she saw Cora, she squealed.
Before Cora could hush her, Tor was awake and crouched over them, his lips fixed in a snarl.
"It's just me."
"Oh, Cora." He leaned forward, pulling her into the bed. The two little ones were awake now, Della's daughter rolling towards the edge of the bed. He scooped her up with one hand, moving her closer to them.
"Mom said you're working now."
Cora nodded, exhaustion setting in. She'd had a long night. "Yeah. I wanted to help." She snuggled closer, her heartbeat calming at the familiar warmth. "Oh, I missed you."
He rested a hand on her chest. "We've all missed you."
We?
"Where is everyone?"
"Leo and Erie are back on the queen's ship, but Mar and Tai are on a smaller inter-orbital ship. We found a cave to hide it in."
Cora thought about the rocky ridge she'd seen while running from the prison guards.
Is it there?
"Oh, by that lake? Sunwise?" She pointed in the direction she'd seen it in.
Tor thought for a second, then shrugged. "I'm not really sure."
There was hesitation.
Cora smiled, humming happily.
He's hiding something from me.
"That's okay. I'm just happy you're safe."
"Me, too."
Why would he be lying about where the ship is?
Resigning herself to figure it out later, Cora finally let her heavy eyelids close.
When she woke up again, the bed was cold. Tor was still an early riser. Cora blinked the sleep out of her eyes, stretching. Eyeing the closed door, she listened. Tor was in the kitchen, sitting with the kids. Meli was home, talking to him in an anxious, hushed voice. She stood, inching down the hall, listening.
"And you left them like that? What is wrong with-"
There was a sharp knock at the door. Cora backtracked down the hall, stepping forward again when Meli came out of the kitchen, passing Tai's daughter to Bee.
"There's food in the kitchen. Let me see who's here."
She peered through a gap in the door, slowly reaching into a basket that sat on a nearby table. Cora watched as she tucked a gun into her waistband, then opened the door.
"Yes, can I help you?"
Tor hastily walked out to join them, still chewing.
"Hello, I'm here to find my crewmate, your son." Tai was standing there, patting his hands together. "There you are! So, we have a problem." He looked over at Bee, a slight grimace on his face. "Can we talk somewhere private? No offense, this is just something you shouldn't hear about. And I can't promise I won't swear."
Bee shrugged. "I get it. I'll get the babies."
The door clicked shut.
Where's Mar?
As he walked by with Tai's daughter, he paused. "Oh. This one looks like you. Is she yours?"
Cora had never seen Tai so conflicted in his life. It was almost painful to watch his eyes flick between them.
"Tai, just take her and come on. It's not like she's gonna understand. Follow me."
His hands trembled slightly as he took her. Cora wanted so badly to enjoy this moment. It was clear that Tai did, too. He held her close, running a hand over her head.
Motioning to him, Cora went to their room. Tor sat on the edge of the bed, avoiding their gaze. Tai gave him a stern look. "Were I not holding my daughter, I'd put you in the hospital with Della. Why would you just sneak out like that? You left me with him!"
Tai fought to keep his voice even, but Cora could tell he wanted to shout.
"Wait, what's wrong with Mar?"
Tai gritted his teeth, the snarl barely restrained in his chest. "Why don't you tell her?"
Tor scoffed. "Stop. What good could I do?
You're
the medic."
Tai smoothed a hand over his daughter's back, fingers tracing angry circles over her soft clothes. "Look." Using a free hand to retrieve his tablet, he held it up. "Look at this, Tor. Tell me what you see."
Tor leaned forward, blanching to a pale yellow the minute his eyes focused. His lips formed a swear, but no sound came out.
Cora leaned forward, squinting. "That- that just looks like an empty containment... cell..." Incomplete realization dawned on her. "Why would Mar be in containment?"
"Why, indeed." Tai laid down on the bed, sitting his daughter on his chest. He held one of her tiny hands, a faint smile coming over his face. He whispered something to her, his smile growing.
"Tor, you can start talking whenever you want to." He spoke in a soft, singsong voice.
Tor started to shoot him a glare, but stopped, shaking his head. "Mar was the only responsible one, out of all of us."
Cora sat between them. "And that means?"
"None of us were taking our suppressants. He's been taking his for, uh, most of his life. It was easy for him because they were injections instead of pills, he just had to do them once every few rotations. And, uh, he ran out."
His tone far too bright for the topic, Tai spoke up. "They had him on something particularly experimental. I don't even know what it was. They use the non-colony kids like test subjects. So, unfortunately, we had no idea what him running out of them would mean. And he didn't even tell us that he'd run out, not until it was too late."
Cora shifted. "What exactly happened?"
Not taking his eyes off his daughter, Tai continued. "You remember him being in heat before, right, Cora?" He looked over at her, his gaze soft but serious. She nodded.
"This is nothing like that. He's like... Honestly, Cora, he's like the subjects from the failed missions."
I doubt it's that bad. They thought that about me, too.
"What are you going to do?"