Things seemed to be a lot less tense, but Cora didn't trust it. She had no idea how things worked on their planet.
Roshak,
she told herself, trying to get used to using that word. She had no problem with things being a mystery, because otherwise she'd get overwhelmed.
I can't stay like that, though. It worked for me when I was a cashier, but I'm in space now. Kidnapped by aliens. Never going to see my mom again, likely.
Cora had been trying not to think about that, because she knew it would hurt.
I need to be brave and play my part. Whatever that is. They seem reasonable and maybe I'll be able to go home again someday.
Against her own wishes, she started tearing up. The others had started preparing the ship. It had been comforting knowing that she was in orbit, but that was going to be taken away from her now.
It's fine, Cora,
she told herself.
They're not going anywhere. Earth will still be there. All your shitty coworkers and your moldy apartment a thousand miles from your childhood home.
This was better to think about. She wasn't losing much by leaving Earth.
Wait a minute.
"Hey, Ray, I know you're busy and stressed out, but I've got a really important question before we leave orbit."
He turned to her, not as upset as she thought he'd be. "What is it? Oh, wait. That phrase, it's.. Oh! What's up?" He seemed proud of himself.
She laughed quietly. "I only just realized, you guys are accessing our internet. Is there a way I could send a message to my mom? I wouldn't say anything that would, like, cause mass panic and chaos."
He tilted his head, thinking hard. "What would the message say? We aren't close to our parents on my planet. But I know humans are."
Cora thought about the unsent message in her text drafts. She'd tried to text her mom the minute she could, but quickly realized it was pointless. "I'd just tell her that I miss her, I'll be gone for a while, but I'm not dead. Hopefully," she mused with a pointed look at Ray, "I'll see her again."
"Oh, definitely. That would be wrong of us to kidnap you for our own benefit and then keep you on our planet for the rest of your life." The thought made Cora nauseous.
"Yeah, please don't. Like, I'd even be down to help with a recruitment campaign if you guys decide to use humans for your population issues. I'll just get on Twitter and tweet 'Yo, who's down to fuck aliens?'"
Ray looked surprised. "How'd you know?"
Her face went blank.
"Please, God, don't tell me that I'm going through this because of something on my fucking Twitter."
Ray clapped, loudly. "Let's get that message to your mother!"
"You didn't answer my question, Ray."
He was avoiding her gaze. "Come on, I'll show you how to use the tablets to send a message."
He never did answer her.
To her amazement, Ray allowed Cora to message her mother over Facebook.
<Hey mom this is gonna sound kind of wild. People may have already reached out to you about me being missing but I'm fine. I'm on an expedition of sorts. I'm not in danger or gonna die but I will be gone for a while. I love you and tell Sophie I love her too. I'll message you again the minute I can.>
Her mother was understandably freaked out, and replied immediately.
<Cora call me now. This isn't a texting conversation.>
<I can't. I'm sorry. And you wouldn't believe me even if I did tell you what was going on.>
Cora exited out of the page and handed Ray his tablet back. She tried to manage her emotions but they were quickly becoming unmanageable. "I need some time by myself for a while. Thank you." He gave her a sympathetic look. "That's fine. We're going to go through some turbulence on the trip, so when you hear an alarm, find something to hold on to." Cora took a steadying breath. "How long will it be?" Ray thought for a second, counting on his fingers.
Uh-oh, he's doing math. I'll have to double-check with Mar.
"In your understanding of time, the trip should take maybe four or five weeks. We use gravitational anomalies to skip most of the long or dangerous parts, hence the turbulence. It should only happen three times if everything goes according to plan."
Cora was relieved to hear that there was no mention of "warping" or black holes. She couldn't take any more new information today.
I'm deleting my Twitter the minute I get a signal again.
Cora spent the rest of the day huddled under her blanket, crying. The lights were still on when she fell asleep. She didn't sleep for long, however, and woke up sometime during the night cycle. Something had woken her up. Suddenly, a tidal wave of panic hit her.
What? What is it?
She asked her brain, like it was a dog that wouldn't stop barking. It didn't respond. She looked around, trying to make sense of her dim surroundings. It was still practically arctic in the ship, but Cora could feel faint tides of heat in the air, which ebbed and flowed with her anxiety. The panic had something to do with how cold she was. It had to. She felt like she was wading through mud as she walked, following the heat. This part of the ship was unfamiliar, but all she could feel was how horrible the chill was in her body. It hurt so badly, like she'd walked naked into a snowstorm. She went through an open doorway, into a storage room. The quiet pulsing noise she'd always heard in the background was loud here. It was getting warmer, but now the heat was flowing from above her.
I can do this. I just need to thaw out. Maybe it's another side effect of that medicine, like fucked-up homeostasis.
She climbed a ladder, pulling open an access panel on the ceiling. When she entered the space above the storage room, she shut the panel behind her. It just seemed polite. The pulsing muffled into a whir in this space, which felt small.
Nice and warm.
It was pitch black, but from the way everything echoed, it felt safe. Her heart rate finally slowed down and the pain in her bones subsided. Cora took off her sweatshirt, leaving her t-shirt underneath, and put it under her head.
This is a great place to sleep.
Mar and Ray were in the front of the ship, with Mar piloting and Ray navigating (and napping). They'd been at it for a while, taking four-hour shifts of each task to avoid any mistakes. Mar was about to finish his second round of piloting.
[Ray.]
He reached over and poked his co-pilot. Ray slurred himself awake.