Copyright Oggbashan February 2019
The author asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work.
This is a work of fiction. The events described here are imaginary; the settings and characters are fictitious and are not intended to represent specific places or living persons.
The events in this story are out of sequence from my other Tripletit stories. It can be read on its own.
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'If only' can be the saddest statement.
I was happily married to Fiona. The sex we enjoyed was enough for me, in a loving relationship. My sexual efforts pleased her, hers pleased me. When we did make love both of us were very satisfied with the experience. The only regret was that she hadn't become pregnant yet.
That was mainly my fault. My sperm were few and weak, and we were thinking about further medical intervention to ensure at least one of my sperm fertilised one of her eggs, in a test tube if necessary. We were saving money for the costs of fertility treatment.
If only... We hadn't been unable to afford that fertility treatment. If we had been able to, I wouldn't have taken employment on the planet Xenon-6. Fiona and I had discussed it for weeks before I applied for the job. We knew the risks but thought I would avoid them.
When my employers offered me a few very well-paid months on the planet Xenon-6, we couldn't refuse. The proceeds would be more than enough for a couple of fertility treatments, maybe more.
But there was a slight risk. There was a rare virus on Xenon-6. The locals were immune, but humans from Earth might catch it. The risk was one in ten thousand visitors. Seventy per cent of those who caught it could be cured on-planet with no after effects. It could be only caught on Xenon-6 and couldn't be transmitted to other humans.
I was the one in ten thousand and I wasn't one of the seventy per cent. I left Xenon-6 still suffering from the virus. If I experienced any stress, even mild disquiet, I was prone to fits like an epileptic, and occasional delirium. I could see things that weren't there, hear voices that were unreal, and lose any concept of who I was or where I was.
If only? But I was disabled with little prospect of improvement. Obviously Fiona and I were upset. I had an incurable disease and my condition made me almost unemployable.
My employers were sympathetic. They accepted responsibility, paid compensation, and medically retired me on sixty per cent of my last year's earnings (including the extra for being on Xenon-6). Financially we were secure. We now owned our home outright. My employers gave me a contract as an occasional consultant paid for each completed project. I could work from home, sometimes. I couldn't drive or operate machinery. That could be dangerous.
My medical retirement pension, now I wasn't paying to buy our home, was more available cash than when I had been earning, and would increase with the minimal inflation on Earth. We had enough money to do the improvements we had wanted to do to our 19th Century house. Changing the sash windows to double glazed ones had been impossible before. They are so large and tall. The few consultancy projects had paid for the double glazing without affecting my income.
Our sex life was ended. Any attempt at even mild sexual activity would trigger a fit in me. My arms and legs would thrash uncontrollably, risking injury to me or Fiona. She tried wrapping me tightly, or even tying me securely to the bed, but that produced the delusions. They were distressing for both us.
Fiona was getting desperate. We had enough money for the fertility treatments but there was no way I could ejaculate to produce the semen she needed. Even if I could, and the medical procedures were successful, she would still be my part-time carer. She couldn't be away for the treatment while my illness needed her to be there for me. Perhaps I could go to a nursing home for a few days? We could afford that.
We discussed the possibilities. If Fiona became pregnant we would need another carer for me during the last couple of months. After the baby was born, could Fiona look after the baby and care for me? Could we afford live-in help? The answers were always no, we couldn't cope financially in the longer term. Having a family while I was disabled would be difficult if not impossible.
Fiona was also upset that we couldn't make love. We had enjoyed ourselves together before Xenon-6. We had thought that it would be difficult for both of us while we were parted. I bought a vibrator for her; she bought a penis sheath for me. Neither had been as good as making love together. Now? My condition made any love-making dangerous and an unpleasant experience for both of us. If only my fits and delusions could be suppressed?
We avoided talking about the virus I had contracted on Xenon-6. We didn't talk about starting a family. Both topics were taboo in our relationship. We knew they were there but they were insoluble problems.
It is those two words again - if only.
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One of Fiona's former work colleagues mentioned the planet Tripletit. I knew almost nothing about Tripletit except the legends of mind-blowing sex. That planet was so far away, so expensive to get to, and I wouldn't be able to go there.
Fiona spent hours on line researching all she could find out. Much of it was aimed at male tourists thinking of visiting Tripletit.
This is a summary of Fiona's research:
Tripletit. That isn't the planet's real name. It is the third planet out from the local sun so its name starts with 'Tri' but every spaceman calls it Tripletit.
One of the characteristics of the giant three-breasted women of Tripletit is that drinking milk from their right or left breasts produces euphoria, an ability to make love for hours, and heals most infections and illnesses. Those fortunate men who are resident on Tripletit have very long active lives and a much increased life-expectancy. Any Tripletit woman would offer a breast and breast milk to any human male in need. It has no more social meaning than a handshake might mean on Earth, except for its healing properties. The central breast gave milk that paralysed the man drinking it.
When Tripletit women leave their planet, and very few do because they are gregarious and find being separated from other Tripletit women distressing, they cannot heal every Earthman they meet. When off-planet they behave according to their current location's social customs.
But - there is a black market in Tripletit breast milk. It is rare and expensive because it has to be kept in specialist storage conditions, but some Tripletit women are willing to sell their breast milk for sums that are a fortune on Tripletit because of the favourable rate of exchange for almost any other planet's currency.
The currency imbalance is gradually changing as mining and industry begin to be established, initially to support Tripletit's own needs, reducing costly imports. Eventually Tripletit will be able to export some rare minerals and bulk minerals to nearby planetary systems, but now their major currency income is tourism, male tourists who want to experience sex with a Tripletit woman. No male tourist has ever been disappointed although a few each year used to vanish without trace when on Tripletit.
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Fiona thought she could become pregnant if my reaction to sex could be stopped. Wrapping and tying me hadn't worked, but if I was temporarily paralysed? That would stop the thrashing, and if the thrashing was inhibited, the delusions might not happen. She was determined to try. If it worked at the first attempt, she could milk me for my semen, get an egg or eggs artificially fertilised, and then stored until my condition improved - if it ever did.
She didn't tell me but she bought some Tripletit milk, after she had bought a special small storage machine for it. The milk has to be kept at body temperature until used, even throughout its transport. It can be taken from seller to the purchaser's home in a special thermal bag, but it couldn't be out of one of the special machines for more than half an hour.
It wasn't the milk from the left or right breasts, but from the centre breast. It was not illegal on our planet but there was official disapproval because it could be, and was, used by women as a date-rape drug. A man who had drunk milk from a Tripletit centre breast was temporarily paralysed but aware, and could be ridden to orgasm and climax as a passive partner.
The machine was in our bedroom on a chest of drawers. I hadn't taken much notice of it. I assumed it was a mini-fridge and had vaguely wondered why Fiona needed one in the bedroom.
When we went to bed that night I occupied the double bed that gives me room to move around if I have a fit. Fiona normally sleeps in a smaller bed on the other side of the bedroom, but tonight she dressed in her silk nightdress instead of functional pyjamas. I was slightly concerned that she intended us to have sex despite the consequences for me.
She opened what I thought was the mini-fridge and produced something like a plastic baby's bottle apparently with a few ounces of formula milk in it.
"Adrian," Fiona said, "Please drink this. It is something I think you should try."
I trust my wife Fiona. I reached for the bottle. The spout was more like that for bottled water. The few ounces of warm liquid went down my throat in seconds. It had an unusual but pleasant taste.
I wanted to say "What is it?". The bottle fell from my hand to the floor. My arm dropped to the bed.
I couldn't speak. I couldn't move. I was anchored to the bed as if I had been glued to it. I heard Fiona pick up the bottle and put it back in the mini-fridge. I could only see Fiona when she was directly above my face. I couldn't even turn my eyes. When her head moved out of my sight all I could see was our very high ceiling.