Shelly deals with her new role as a mother, losing Sonia's affection, and chasing after Jessica.
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Chapter 26
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Air Plans
Shelly stood and wobbled slightly as her feet touched on the cold rock floor. It was her first time out of bed since giving birth, and the act was more difficult than she thought it should be. Even after receiving healing from Alloria, her inside still ached, her legs and abdomen felt like she'd completed a muscle failure workout, and her emotions were in turmoil.
"That's it," Sonia intoned next to her as she held Shelly's arm to help support her. "Now take a step... Yes... Now the other foot..."
Shelly wanted to shove the woman away but also appreciated her presence. The android was sending mixed signals, and Shelly didn't know what to think. Was Sonia toying with her? Why was she still around and being so helpful if she wanted to end their relationship? Did she believe Shelly couldn't remember to walk? How could she hold her arm so delicately, and yet offer such support?
Too many questions without answers.
Rain rested in the Myrmidon's arms, sleeping peacefully. It still felt strange to Shelly that the cumulative ant queens making up her new nanny weren't an enemy. Her form was a little different than the standard Myrmidon, with a larger thorax and many more colors, which helped. But after growing up knowing that all Myrmidons were out to get her family, and after what'd happened down in that lair...
Her thoughts must have summoned the baby's awareness. Rain shifted and started to fuss. As if on cue, Shelly's breasts began aching, and her bra became damp. She felt disgusting! These were the things she'd never heard about growing up. She'd thought pushing the baby out would be the end of it, but there was so much more following, that she'd never even suspected.
"Bring her to me," Shelly ordered the nanny with a sigh.
"Rest, Queen's Mother, and I will bring the Queen," the Myrmidon replied.
Shelly ground her teeth as Sonia helped her back to the bed. She'd requested to be called by her name multiple times, but the large ant creature only stared as if her words were incomprehensible.
As soon as she laid back and a blanket placed across her legs, the nanny stood and carried the tiny child over. Shelly freed her right breast and then had to stifle a moan as Rain latched onto her stiff nipple. There wasn't any sexual pleasure from the action, but the sense of relief, coupled with the euphoria and calm from Rain's bite, made it hard to be angry with the child.
"They have entered the main world," Gaia said as she formed up out of the floor. The Pillar of Earth gave the Nanny a stern look before continuing. "I've been unable to verify the reports about Jessica near the Pillar of Air's domain. My abilities there are weaker since Lysa's element is opposite mine."
"Has anyone warned Lysa?" Shelly asked and switched Rain to the other breast. Sweet warmth radiated from that nipple as the baby's mandibles poked into her flesh, and the pressure began to recede. Shelly told herself for the hundredth time that she was going to get rid of this child... Just as soon as she could ween it from her milk.
"I've sent emissaries to both her lands and Lucifer's demesne," Gaia said and leaned against one wall. It was the most relaxed Shelly had ever seen the woman, or the most worn out. "I have also tried to summon her, but there is no response."
"You don't think..." Shelly couldn't even get the words out. If Jessica was after killing Lysa and already succeeded... the thought didn't bear thinking.
"No," Gaia gave her a comforting look before continuing. "If there were one less Pillar in this world, I would have felt it. Your half-sister tends to be a little flighty, and doesn't always respond when called."
Shelly looked at the mighty pillar for a moment, wondering if she'd just made a pun. Gaia didn't smile, though, and Shelly dismissed it. "How soon before we can set out?"
"You can barely walk," Sonia cut in, annoyance thick in her voice. "You're in no condition to go anywhere, and especially not considering the baby."
Shelly wanted to snap at the woman and tell her that she could do as she pleased but paused instead. Sonia was looking out for her. Shelly had promised to be different, and she was going to do it, no matter that the android couldn't seem to make up her mind. Did Sonia want to be with her? Or was she taunting her?
"Our Queen and her mother will be well protected," the Myrmidon interrupted. "With our assistance, we can ensure our Queen's Mother will be up to the journey."
"Why would you allow her to take your queen on a mission that is dangerous at all?" Sonia turned and faced the tall ant-creature. Shelly realized that she needed to give the monster a name, and decided that Nanny fit as well as any other.
"We understand the threat that Jessica poses," Nanny replied. "While we will not fight in your causes, we cannot ignore the danger to our queen, should Jessica succeed. Also, our queen desires her mother's presence. We obey our queen."
"So, you won't fight with us, but will fight to protect your queen," Sonia summed up Nanny's stance. "And what would happen if you determined that we were a threat?"
There was no hesitation in the response. "Then we would destroy you." The tone filled with grim certainty. "But worry not. While we cannot read your mind, we can tell you are no threat to our queen."
"Ha! And where were you when I shot your old queen right between the eyes? I think you might find me harder to kill than you think," Sonia said, her voice growing heated.
"We were on a mission for my the previous queen. On her death, we were overcome with madness, and unable to think for ourselves. We have already analyzed your systems," Nanny said as though discussing the color of the sky. "It would take us less time to disconnect your main processors from your power sources than it took us to make this statement. And before you relax, we are aware of your secondary and tertiary systems. You are well built, and designed to hold up well, but are no match for us." She turned and faced Shelly and added as though she hadn't just threatened the android, "Our queen is full. If you wish it, we will hold her. However, you should know that she is very content being held by the Queen's Mother."
Shelly hated the warmth that filled her at hearing those words. She wanted to hand Rain over to spite the child. Every time she looked into Rain's eyes, memories of King Aecus's skin filled her mind. Every time she changed her diaper, she recalled of her rapist's duality of gender. And yet, every time she fed Rain, she was filled with a desire to protect this fragile life. Every time Rain fussed, she felt a pull to relieve her discomfort. She felt dirty and defiled, but also something more. Like it or not, she was a mother to this being... At least, for now.
Giving birth changed something in her, and she wasn't sure if it was for the better or not, but she wasn't going to run from it. Did that mean she wasn't going to run from being a mother to this child as well? Could she live with Rain and raise her to be a better person than Rain's father? Would the ants let her? More questions, and still no answers.
"If you two women are done comparing penises," Gaia broke into Shelly's thoughts, "then there are more important matters to discuss. Shelly, had I more energy—or your father was still here—I could restore you to full strength. Unfortunately, I believe that you hold the best possibility of stopping Jessica due to your connection to her. If your ant companion can assist in this way, then I recommend you let her."
"But—" Sonia cut in. Gaia waved her to be quiet.
"You will need to protect her as well," Gaia informed the android. "You will need to be her grounding rod when she faces Jessica."
Was that another pun?
Shelly wondered but remained silent. She wanted to protest that she knew right from wrong, but doubt crept in. What would she do once she finally confronted Jessica?
"I'm tired of being the ground she walks all over," Sonia said, and Shelly winced, knowing she deserved that comment. "But I'll do whatever it takes to help save both worlds."
"Being someone's ground is not such a bad thing. You give them support and a place from which to grow." This time Shelly was sure the Pillar of Earth was intentionally making references to her element despite her stern expression. "Your rocs await you, once you're ready," Gaia informed them. Before any further discussion, Gaia melted into the wall she leaned against and was gone.
Shelly looked from Sonia to Nanny and back again. Now that she was actually about to leave, she noted her weakness and knew she couldn't walk to where the giant birds awaited them. Nanny said she could help, but what could she do that Gaia couldn't? Or was it that Gaia was too drained to do much?
Nanny turned and faced Sonia as she pointed to Rain. "If you will hold our Queen for a moment, we will assist the Queen's Mother."
"Her name is Shelly," Sonia grimaced, but walked up to Shelly and reached for the baby.
Shelly handed Rain over, then secured her breast back in her bra. The pressure was gone, but she knew her body was already rebuilding the milk to prepare for the next feeding. She tried to give Sonia an appreciative smile for her words, but the android refused to look at her. Instead, Sonia started to "coo" and "ahh" at Rain, showing a surprisingly soft side.