Shelly comes to terms with Sonia. Plans are set in motion to tie up some loose ends, but not everyone is happy with the way things are going.
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Chapter 18
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Preparations
Shelly, Sonia, Sheldon and his girlfriends, and Sheila all followed Jen through the twisting caves that made up the Pillar of Fire's volcano home. If there was one thing that could never be said about this place, it was that the heating bill never got paid.
Shelly's emotions were in turmoil as they walked. Sonia had a grip on her hand, which she appreciated for the comfort it offered, but it did nothing for the tear in her heart. Finding out Jessica wasn't her sister was a relief. But Jessica believed that she was. She still sought out a relationship with her and admitted to caring for Sheldon.
The story Jessica told about escaping from her abusive mother and playing with a goblin girl was false. Angela couldn't have lied about that with Mandy in the room. What kind of a person was Jessica? Was she as dark and evil as the Pillar of Fire made her out to be? Shelly thought she sensed good in the woman. She'd fallen in love with her, or she thought she had. Now she didn't know. Nothing was what she thought it should be. No one was who she thought they were.
She knew that last thought wasn't fair as soon as she thought it. She could rely on her brother, father, and mother. She had no idea what was going through Sheldon's mind at the news they'd learned, but she could see her mom was suffering.
"Mom?" she asked, and then sped up to be next to her. "Are you all right?"
Sheila turned and her smile did nothing to hide the hurt in her eyes. "I hate seeing him in pain," she told her daughter, and then grimaced. "That's not what I meant to tell you. A parent is supposed to hide their pain from their children, not reveal it."
"If you want to slow down, I will try to move you out of my range of influence," Mandy offered. "Honesty is always best, but sometimes my presence causes too much honesty."
Sheila waved her down. "No, I don't blame you, Mandy. It's usually refreshing to have you around."
"If I weren't around, I'd think you were lying," Mandy laughed. "I don't think anyone has ever referred to my presence as refreshing."
"Well, I find you more than refreshing," Sheldon commented and groped her behind.
Shelly rolled her eyes at her brother's antics. At least he appeared to be handling everything in his usual brash manner.
"Dad will be all right," Shelly said, returning to the original topic with her mother.
"I'm glad you believe that, dear," Sheila's sad smile returned. "He tries so hard to be strong, but you kids don't see how much pain he's in. I've never once doubted that he loved me. At least, not since he risked the entire world to save my life when I took the Outsider into myself. I'm glad that didn't affect the two of you, like it appeared to do for Jessica."
Shelly stopped in her tracks at her mom's words. That thought had never occurred to her. Sheila was pregnant when she allowed the Outsider to control her body in order to communicate with their dad. Were they corrupted by it?
"Shelly?" Sonia's eyes were right in front of Shelly, making her jump back. She'd spaced out, and hadn't even noticed the android's concern.
"Sorry, just thinking," she replied. Sheila had also held back, but everyone else had continued moving forward.
"I know what you're thinking," Sheila told her, and shook her head. "Forget about it. I shouldn't have even mentioned it. Gaia checked you both out at birth, and made sure you were clean of its presence."
"You're a good person," Sonia reassured her. "No one who knows you can doubt that."
"Thank you," she told them both, and then reached for Sonia's hand again. Sonia might be a synthetic being, but her presence and caring warmed Shelly up inside. She didn't know how she felt about the woman's feelings for her, but that was the least of her concerns for now.
They walked on in silence for a few seconds before Shelly said, "Sorry I stopped what you were saying, Mom. About Dad loving you?"
"What?" Sheila looked around as they came to an intersection, and turned down the one they heard voices coming from. They'd lost sight of their guides, but they encountered no problems following Sheldon's deep voice. "Oh, right. Well, like I said, I never doubted his love for me after that, nor his love for any of his wives. Before I let your father own me, I never imagined being with a man who wasn't strictly with me. Odd how love can change a person."
A few seconds passed before Shelly spoke up. "That wasn't what you were going to say, Mom," she chided her mother. They must have been be outside of Mandy's influence.
"Oh, fine. Just remember what I said about a parent wanting to protect their children from their own pains," Sheila groused. "I suppose your brother is outside of earshot, anyway. Your father doesn't blame him for what happened, but losing Arethusa was hard on him. Despite how she could be,
always
the pervert and troublemaker, she brought a smile to your dad's face. Then, losing Becky so soon afterwards... He's a strong man, Shelly, the strongest I've ever known; but you didn't know him when we lost Lysa's mother. He pulled away from the world and retreated into himself. It took three of his wives to pull him out of it. The look on his face as he went into Angela's inner sanctum tore at my heart. It's times like this that a master needs his slave, but I know he needs to work things out with Angela. I'd just be in the way."
"I don't think you'd ever be in the way for Dad," Shelly commented.
"No, and I know your father would say the same thing, but he doesn't see things like we women do." Sheila rubbed at her eyes and Shelly realized she was crying. "He would never send me away, or begrudge my presence, but I know Angela and him need to work this out on their own. Your father is in pain, and I want to comfort him. To serve him. But right now, I'm not what he needs. I know Angela still loves him, though her actions haven't always been for the best. She thinks too much with her heart, but maybe that's part of being a succubus. I can only hope that they can mend the wound she's created, or he's going to be in even more pain to lose another love."