Shelly is released from the hospital heartbroken and feeling alone. Will her family cheer her up, or drive her into a deeper depression? And what has Jessica been up to this whole time?
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Chapter 16
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Prime Directives
Shelly signed the documents, allowing her to leave the hospital. She could have walked out, but they had a silly policy about wheeling patients out the front door, regardless of their condition. Did they think she was going to trip and sue them?
"You're agitated," Sonia stated as she pushed the wheelchair. "I thought you'd be happy to get out of here."
"I didn't think your software included reading minds," Shelly snapped, and immediately felt sorry for it. She knew Sonia could read her body language and temperature. She was a sophisticated piece of machinery. She could probably even sense Shelly's pheromones, and extrapolate data from that. "I'm sorry. I know I should be happy, but I'm tired of being treated like a child. I can take care of myself. I'm all healed up. I don't need this chair. I can walk. And as much as I enjoy your company, it's been a couple weeks since the explosion. I don't need you protecting me all the time."
"Of course not. You have your big girl panties on, and don't need anyone." Was that hurt in her voice? Shelly knew she could emulate emotions, but what was the point in acting hurt right then? "You've been acting surly ever since Jessica abandoned you. Knowing that you gave away your father's secret, and being trapped in that hospital haven't made you any nicer."
"Don't forget about Becky dying, or Areth giving up her life, either," Shelly grew defensive. "Everything has gone downhill lately, and I've been next to useless. What good am I, huh? All those years of training to protect others and to fight for what's right.... Where's it gotten me? I couldn't save anyone. I don't even know what's right anymore! I fell in love with my own sister, and I.... We...."
Shelly stopped moving forward suddenly, and Sonia rounded the chair to confront her. She found herself weightless as Sonia gripped her under her arms and lifted her into the air. Anger blazed behind the android's green eyes. Shelly hoped it was her imagination, but she thought she saw arcs of electricity behind her pupils. Sonia brought their faces together, until Shelly was certain of the blue-green sparks.
"I have known a lot of soldiers," Sonia informed her through clenched teeth. Had Shelly really thought that the android's emotions were synthesized? "I have known men and women who went into certain defeat, only to walk away victorious. I've seen brave men run from spiders and snakes, and cowards stand up to overwhelming odds. Do you want to know what always made the difference?"
A male orderly approached, a concerned look on his face as he asked Shelly, "Do you need some help ma'am?"
"Official business," Sonia stated without looking over. "You know who I am. Everything is in order. Make sure we're not disturbed further."
"Yes, Agent Sonia," the orderly stated. He gave Shelly an uncertain look, but she shook her head and the man turned to do as he was told.
She turned back to Sonia, her heart still pounding, but a little calmer. "What made the difference?"
"Heart," Sonia informed her as though that was the answer to everything. "I haven't known your family for long, but the CIA and the FBI, and a number of other agencies that I'm not even allowed to admit exist have a huge dossier on your family. You wouldn't believe the amount of detail that's in it. I have access to all of it. Guess what's not in it?"
"Why ask? You're going to tell me anyway," Shelly muttered.
"Damn it!" Sonia swore and let go. Shelly wasn't expecting to be released and she collapsed into the chair. "I understand you're hurt because you lost someone, butβ"
"Not someone," she spat and jumped to her feet. Or tried to. Sonia stood her ground and Shelly ended up bouncing off her and sitting back down. "We lost Becky and Areth. In a way, we lost Gloria and Jessica also. And for what? What do we have to show for it?"
Shelly heard the other woman grinding her teeth before she spoke. "I'll have to update your file that you're a quitter." Sonia's voice sounded final and resolved as she spoke. "I have the most powerful processors known to mankind, but I can't figure you out. Compared to me, you're a ghost driving a meat-covered skeleton made from stardust. You can change forms, and do things most humans only dream of. Yes, you live a violent and dangerous life. You have to fight more than most people. Not only does that mean you'll end up losing more than most, but it also means you'll end up
living
more than most. Do you think either Becky or Areth would want you moping around like this? Stand up and grow a pair!"
Shelly felt something turn in her stomach. It lurched up past her heart, making it flop for a moment before working its way into her throat. When it burst free, she finally recognized it for what it was. She laughed, and then laughed harder. Her sides ached, but still she laughed. She couldn't help it. It struck her as hilarious. "Grow a pair!" she gasped, and then broke down into hysterics again. She clutched at her stomach as she doubled over in the wheelchair. "I... I think... you have... some... wires crossed. Grow a pair?" She continued to chuckle and wheeze, having to wipe at her eyes. "My brother can change... to grow a different pair... I can'tβ" She cut off, her laughter overcoming her again.
"It wasn't
that
funny," Sonia groused. "You know what I meant."
Something in her tone sobered Shelly a bit. She looked at the android and realized she may have actually offended her. Scooting the wheelchair back a little, she was able to stand. Sonia looked at her, wary for some reason. Shelly felt like crap, knowing she'd been rude, but Sonia was just a robot. Sure, she was incredibly lifelike, and she'd been at Shelly's side for the last two weeks as she recovered,
appearing
to care, but Shelly knew it was all programming and electricity.
"I'm sorry, Sonia. I know I've been an ogre to deal with. I didn't mean to offend you, Iβ" She was cut short as Sonia pulled her into a bear hug. "Are you sure you're an android?" she gasped as she tried to breathe. Sonia was acting too emotional.
The second she finished asking the question, she was released from the hug. Sonia blinked repeatedly as she looked at Shelly. Her brows knit together for a few seconds before she dropped her gaze down.
"Something is wrong with my programming," she admitted and shuffled her feet. "Ever since I entered your mind, something has been wrong with me. All my diagnostics come back clean, but my emotions have been stronger than my emotional subroutines can account for. I can't entirely turn off my emotions, either. I tried. I'm in charge of my body, but not my emotions. I can't figure out why."