There's a common theme with everyone else in this situation with me. Whenever anyone else found anything remotely cool, they used it in the stupidest possible way. I know you heard Juliet's testimony. What the hell was that? She couldn't figure out how to stop her thoughts from instantly becoming reality so she had to create two separate planes of thought, using the machine's power to supplement her own and make tracking both of them super easy? And she just used it so she could think?
I'm gonna say it again. That is so stupid. Did she honestly not realize what she'd discovered? We could literally HAVE IT ALL in here. I could keep being a playboy, living out my wildest dreams, while at the same time keeping tabs on that pesky intruder who's trying to fuck me over.
Yeah, yeah, I know. No point trying to bury the lede. Kyra already told you some idiot dropped down from the sky with the sole intent of trying to fuck me over. So I took care of him. And I kept taking care of him, every moment of every day I kept an eye on him, always watching him, always making sure he was buried away from the world.
So I had the boring version of myself, who was, at best, running ten percent of my focus. I sat there, I built walls as fast as he could tear them down, inventing traps for him to fight with. That was my most important self, but far and away my most boring.
Then there was the family man, the version of myself I was always saw myself being. I had a housewife who loved and adored me, and tended to my every need. We were settled down, and happy, but I had unlimited power, and that wasn't enough.
Do you have any idea how satisfying it is to look at your wife, stare into her eyes and tell her you love her while you're balls deep in some college slut, standing in the middle of an orgy? To cuddle up with her, spooning her, completely comfortable in her arms while I take every drug known to man? As I tattoo the girl I'm fucking? Take a line off her ass?
The word powerful can't even begin to describe it.
I know there aren't words to describe it, because I couldn't when our little intruder asked me about it.
"Let me go," he said. It was more of a demand, but he didn't have much power did he?
I didn't even get up out of my seat. That's how little that idiot meant to me.
"Why are you doing this?" he begged. His hands slammed against the door, the concrete still growing, his voice hollow and a thousand yards away from me.
I think he was crying like a little bitch. Like I said, that version of me had, at best, ten percent of my focus.
I thought about lying. Maybe I could score some sympathy if I told him it was revenge. I'd been trapped down here for decades, so now it was his turn, but I knew that'd just make him annoying.
You want to get out?
He'd ask,
I'm trying to help you! Let me go!
Sympathy might help when I'm done, but I don't plan on giving up power any time soon. Who gives a fuck if they're mad at me? I've got, what, two months to live in the real world?
Like my mom always said, honesty's the best policy. So I told him. I walked up to him, taking my time and smirking, leaning in close and locking eyes with those wet beady eyes of his.
"I'm a fucking god," I said, "And as long as I'm here, I'm fucking immortal. You know what letting you go means? It's suicide. I'd be killing myself. So as long as I can take things, you're my bitch."
I saw him cry. I recognized that look in his eyes, the knowledge that years had passed in here and there'd only been seconds in the real world. That was a man who started to grasp just how long eternity could last.
"If you were in my shoes, what would you do? Honestly?" I asked one day.
He tried not to look up, but I'm a god. I shot out tendrils that wrenched his arms out like he were on a crucifix. It shot him towards the window and pressed his face against the bullet-proof glass.
"I asked you a question Todd."
Note, I don't know if his name was Todd.
"What would you do, if you were in my shoes?"
He shook his head slowly, his stupid cheeks rubbing against the glass, "I wouldn't be in your shoes. It's not just yourself. It's not just me, it's every other person you're holding hostage. You're taking all these people's lives away, you're-"
I couldn't stop the laughter.
"Taking their lives away?" I wheezed, "I'm making them last as long as possible! They're all gods too, every single one of them."
I took a ploying step forward and leaned against the glass. "You can say that shit all you want," I muttered, "But tell me, what do you got waiting for you out there? A wife? A family?"
He didn't answer, and I knew I'd struck a chord.
"In here's the only chance of that I got," I said.
"We could make a deal," he stammered, "Let you live here, as long as you want, just let everyone else go."
"And you have the power to do that, do you?"
"My bosses are reasonable, they'll sympathize with you, they'll make sure you're-"
"Just say no," I said, "You don't have any power. You said it yourself, we've only been in here seconds. What's your boss gonna think? You disappeared for a few seconds and suddenly you want him to sign off on leaving all this running for countless years for free? How much would that cost him."
"What does cost matter?" he wheezed, still fighting off the tendrils, "We're talking about human life."
"I've met some businessmen," I scoffed, "Cost matters a hell of a lot to them. You talk about human life like there's some sanctity, like my insurers wouldn't pay for treatment, or preventative care, or cancer screens."
I know this was all just an elaborate dream, but I'd worked myself up, and out of breath, just like if I were in the real world, hooked up to all that stupid life support.
"I will
make
them understand," he promised. For all I knew this guy was an unpaid intern they sent in here as a canary.
I took a long, slow breath and leaned in to look at him, face to face.
"I'm not doing this to be cruel," I said slowly, "I've giving you this life too. Whatever you want in there, it's yours. You can live a thousand lives."
It was his turn to laugh, "Not doing this to be cruel?"
If anyone thinks I'm cruel, just know this. I have my reasons. Life did it's best to fuck me.
"I mean it," I said again, "Anything you want. You want a woman? A harem? A house? What do you want man?"
His voice was soft, "You know what I want."
"Let's pretend murdering me is off the table," I said, "What's option number two?"
I didn't need the tendrils to hold him in place anymore. I had the man's attention.
"I do sympathize with you," he said, "I really do. It's a shitty spot, and I get how hard it would be to walk away from all this. But I'm asking you to sympathize too. With all of us."
My conversation with Todd was, clearly, getting nowhere. See what I mean? I tell him he'd literally be murdering me, and he'd just say,
what about us? Our feewings are getting hurt.
So I threw him an olive branch. A couple women (I'd let him pick, hell, pick all, they're fake, right?). I gave him a nice cushy house. It had a pool, a movie theater, everything. It was a fucking mansion.