The ways of the Fey were still a mystery to Aelwyn. Their cultural traditions were ancient and nearly primal in ways, yet their society, magic, and manners surpassed even that of the City of Towers. As she was led through the Fey kingdom by the High Guardians over the last few days, to attend different royal events and aristocratic parties, Aelwyn couldn't help but be fascinated with just how freely the Fey used magic. It was mundane to them, as common as sweeping a floor or churning butter.
There was another thing she had noticed while she was being led around, Aelwyn had found that all the bridges she'd been on had a place where they met together. Exploring on her own in the evenings, she found that there, underneath its center, laid a hidden verdant path.
Trailing it, the path opened up to another bridge covered in moss and stone. The bridge brought her to a secret courtyard hidden out of view of the city windows. Thick blooming trees circumvented a pool within, with a stone path leading to a center island across the water. The moonlight there streamed through the leaves and illuminated the lush greens that hung down all around her.
She had nimbly made her way across the stone path and sat down in the center of the island under a large tree and gazed out to admire the stars that reflected in the clear waters around her. Minnow-like fish in the shallow pool below glowed in mesmerizing technicolor.
She had stopped to watch them for a while. Evenings had been her only chance to get away from the royal schedule they had placed on her. She took full advantage of those moments of much needed solitude.
It was quiet there. The peace, to Aelwyn's dismay, had given her thoughts ample time to catch up to her. The memory of Kadian's advice had been the first to confront her that evening. It was painful to recount but it was a memory that her mind couldn't help but re--play whenever she was alone.
"Until we can escape, do what we do best... survive." Kaidian's words had etched into Aelwyn, and she recalled them in perfect clarity. "Even if you have to pretend to like it, just do it--whatever they say." he had looked away from her then. "You'll be safer that way." His words were stern, his brow creased.
Aelwyn saw him look up, attempting to meet her eyes with his. Yet, his eyes came short, and darted back down to the floor, "Don't let that pride of yours get yourself killed."
The memory hurt, once again.
If she was honest, at the time, Aelwyn had thought it to be cowardly advice. Yet, it had been nearly a full week since her capture, and she realized she still had no idea what the Fey were fully capable of.
She perceived her surroundings to make sure she was alone. Once confirmed, she took a deep breath and then responded into the night as if Kadian were there with her. "I will learn all I can about the Fey before I do anything... rash." She looked down into the water, her only audience were the fish of the pool and not her Kadian. She rolled her eyes.
She watched the fish for a while longer, continuing to ponder. Their bioluminescence detailed the lilies upon the water as well as the flowery trees that overflowed into the courtyard. The dim lights within the evening had coated everything in ethereal hues.
Aelwyn scowled, thinking more upon Kaidian's advice, "Pretend?" She rubbed her eyes and then set her hands down on the grass.
As soon as she did, a leaf fell on her hand. She picked it up and tilted her head to examine it. She began to play with it in her hand and continued to reaffirm her own dignity, trying to figure out ways to not accept Kadian's advice as valid. Stooping to 'pretending' to like the situation, as Kadian had suggested, was a thing her pride would, simply, not accept.
Her eyes softened and drifted to the stars. The third moon was out, a good sign. The sign of new beginnings.
She sighed. It wasn't all that bad if she was honest. She found herself warming to the better parts of the treatment she was receiving.
The Fey indeed took care of her. The last time she'd been pampered so much was back when she was a child, before everything was destroyed in her life, before she became known as the most famous Spellblade on her side of the Great Siryilay Delta. She was being treated like royalty suddenly, and that was something she could get used to.
Then, she winced. The thought that she was beginning to enjoy being there suddenly made her want to break something. No amount of royal treatment was gonna change the fact that they had kidnapped her and had forced her to do things she would never have agreed to do ever in her life. She continued to think, her thoughts growing darker as she fiddled with the leaf in her hand.
She stopped briefly to lightly tug on the thin magic band that snuggly wrapped her neck with her other hand. It was made of incredibly soft fabric that, while felt fragile and had a slight bit of elasticity, was impossible to break or take off. She often tugged on it habitually ever since the Fey put it on her. It had become less of a bother and more of a reminder recently: A reminder that they were all bastards. Bastards who were gonna pay for kidnapping her.
Aelwyn looked down, and noticed she was clenching her fists. She opened her grip slowly, the leaf was still there in her hand, completely crumpled. She let go of it.
Had it just been her who was kidnapped, she'd not have been so terribly disheartened. She'd be livid at the Fey, yes... but not broken like she was then, trying her best to push out painful thoughts. Yet, of course, it couldn't have just been her who was kidnapped. They had stolen Kadian and those in her protection too.
Aelwyn froze, in that moment, she realized she had no idea where any of them were--again. Her bottom lip started to tremble, her chest tightening within her.
"I should have used this time to look for them. What am I even doing?" She exclaimed aloud, the fish still her captive audience. She stood up and began to pace back and forth, her long hair making waves through the moonlight.
Suddenly, she felt something starting to form behind her eyes. They softly asked her to let them come out. She held them back. She held them all back, except one that had managed to escape, drip down, and fall soundlessly on the crumpled leaf that lay upon the ground.
There had been so much that happened to her in the last few days. Everything had been happening so fast that she hadn't even realized that she hadn't seen Kaidian, Ari, Bjorn or anyone else since two mornings prior.
Her heart continued to sink within her. The thought that they were possibly being imprisoned or worse was enough to nearly make her want to collapse and sob. Yet, she continued to hold back the tears, and sat back down on the grass.
Then a different thought came to her. What would Kaidian think when she told him what they did to her... what they were still doing to her?
She felt her chest squeeze tighter, her breath caught out of her lungs. She tried to push the thoughts out, but they continued to usher in:
What would happen when she told Kaidian it was worse? That it was even worse than what he had already seen, worse than what he saw the Prince do to her, or that she was regularly being forced to pleasure the Lord Protector and the High Guardians too?
Even if she didn't tell him, could he ever look at her again? Prince Rowen had humiliated her in front of Kaidian. He forced Kadian to watch helplessly as the Prince forcefully mated with her while an entire crowd of High Guardians watched, their eyes hungry. He had stared Kaidian down. He had stared him down until he finally....
looked away.
She recaptured herself, instinctually using the mental gymnastics and breathing techniques of her training to calm herself down. The hopeless thoughts soon left her and were replaced with fire. She erected herself upright.
With her new thoughts, she began the long walk back to her quarters in the Cloud Gardens, adding everything she saw along the way to her mental map of the Fey Realm.
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The next morning, Aelwyn was at Prince Rowen's mercy again.
He walked around her, his hand trailed gently around her neck, and then up to her chin. He brushed his hand against her cheek and then brushed her hair from her face. She pulled away and snarled.
The Prince stopped in front of her and gazed into her eyes. Rowen's eyes were a menacingly deep gray. She usually tried to ignore his handsomeness, but it was always harder whenever he held her eyes with his.
Rowen took his time to appreciate her. When he looked at her, it often stopped Aelwyn's heart briefly. His gaze was a perfect blend settled precisely between two extremes: a wolf measuring his prey, and the pure and gentle love one has for their significant other.
Deep down, she wished Kadian looked at her the same way. The Prince had always had a way of looking at her that was predatory and yet, somehow, sweet, protective, and full of love. It was a look that said, "I will utterly destroy anyone who attempts to hurt my Aelwyn or anyone else who would try to come between us." It was a look she would normally respect, had it not been for what he had done.