The Miniaturists Desire Ch 05

As the warmth of the serum spread through Sarah's body, she felt a tingling sensation radiate from her core to her fingertips. The initial intensity began to subside, leaving her enveloped in a profound sense of well-being she had never experienced before. She opened her eyes and met Tomas's gaze.

"Welcome, Neighbor Sarah," he said softly, his voice carrying a hint of reverence. "How do you feel?"

Sarah took a deep breath, surprised by how clear and invigorating the air felt in her lungs. "It's... incredible," she breathed, her eyes widening. "Everything feels so vivid, so alive."

Tomas smiled, a warmth in his expression that was hard to ignore. Yet, despite the physical chemistry that had ignited between them during their day together, Sarah wasn't ready to embrace gratitude or affection. Just yesterday, she had harbored intense feelings of hatred toward him. Now, after giving herself to him as part of her pledge to the community, she felt a confusing mix of acceptance and lingering resentment.

"I spent so long hating you," she admitted, her voice trembling slightly. "But now... it's complicated."

Tomas nodded, his expression patient and understanding. "It's a lot to process."

Sarah felt vulnerable, caught between the exhilaration of their physical connection and the remnants of her previous animosity. She had chosen this path not out of love but as a means to gain acceptance within the community--to find the mental peace and happiness that the other Neighbors seemed to possess.

"Why does everything feel so different?" she asked, searching for clarity in her swirling emotions. "It's not just physical; it's like I'm seeing everything--and everyone--in a new light."

Tomas gently took her hand, his touch sending a cascade of sensations through her. It felt good, undeniably so, but it didn't erase the conflict brewing inside her.

Tomas's smile was warm but held no expectation. "You made your choice, Sarah. I'm glad you're here."

As she sat there, basking in the afterglow of the serum and their unexpected connection, Sarah realized that while she was beginning to accept Tomas as part of her life, she wasn't ready to like him as a person--not yet. The attraction was undeniable, but it was tangled with confusion and unresolved feelings.

Her journey had just begun. The world around her seemed full of new possibilities, and for the first time in a long while, she felt genuinely excited about what lay ahead--despite the uncertainty that still lingered in her heart.

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The next morning, Sarah woke up with a mix of excitement and trepidation. The Tomas's spunk infusing through her body had left her feeling invigorated, but the thoughts swirling in her mind were anything but clear. As she prepared to step out into the Neighborhood, she couldn't shake the memories of her recent sexual activities with Tomas. The arousal she felt was undeniable, yet it was tangled with shame and guilt from her upbringing.

As she wandered through the community, the vibrant colors and laughter around her contrasted sharply with the internal conflict brewing within. She had spent years believing that her fantasies were sinful, something to be repressed and hidden away. But now, those very thoughts danced at the edges of her consciousness, begging for acknowledgment.

"Hey there!" a cheerful voice broke through her reverie. Sarah turned to see Eliz approaching, her smile bright and inviting.

"Hi, Eliz," Sarah replied, feeling a spark of relief at the sight of someone who might understand her turmoil.

"Out exploring?" Eliz asked, joining Sarah on her stroll.

"Yeah, just trying to take it all in," Sarah said, glancing around at the lively atmosphere filled with laughter and conversation. "It's beautiful here."

Eliz nodded knowingly. "It really is. I remember feeling overwhelmed with all the possibilities when I first joined."

Sarah hesitated before speaking again. "I've been thinking a lot about... everything. About Tomas and what happened." She felt a blush creep up her cheeks as she mentioned his name.

Eliz's expression softened with understanding. "It's a lot to process, isn't it? I went through something similar."

"Did you?" Sarah asked, intrigued. "I mean, how did you deal with it?"

Eliz paused for a moment, choosing her words carefully. "I grew up in a strict Southern Baptist family--very anti-LGBTQ+. I was taught that my feelings were wrong, that I was a sinner for even thinking about another woman. They said those thoughts were poison to my soul. It took me years to realize that those teachings were the real poison."

Sarah felt a flicker of recognition at Eliz's words. "Poison... that's an interesting way to put it."

"Exactly," Eliz continued passionately. "It wasn't my fantasies that were harmful; it was the fear and shame instilled in me by my upbringing. Once I started to reject those teachings, I began to accept myself."

Sarah pondered this for a moment, feeling a shift within her. "What if those teachings are indeed poison? And if the serum pushes out physical poisons from our bodies... maybe it also works to push out psychological poisons?"

Eliz raised an eyebrow, intrigued by Sarah's hypothesis. "That's an interesting thought."

"If that's true," Sarah mused aloud, "then maybe getting more of the serum will help me accept my natural feelings--my desires." She felt a surge of hope mixed with uncertainty.

Eliz smiled warmly at Sarah's insight. "It's possible. The serum seems to open our minds and bodies in ways we never expected."

As they walked together, Sarah felt lighter as if some weight had been lifted from her shoulders. The conversation with Eliz had sparked something within her--a glimmer of understanding about herself and her journey ahead.

"I'm glad I ran into you today," Sarah said sincerely as they reached a small park filled with blooming flowers and laughing children.

"Me too," Eliz replied, her eyes shining with empathy. "Remember, you're not alone in this."

With newfound clarity and determination, Sarah looked around at the vibrant community surrounding her. Perhaps this was just the beginning of not only embracing who she was but also redefining what freedom truly meant for herself.

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After her conversation with Eliz, she felt a surge of determination. If Tomas's cum could push out physical poisons, perhaps it could also help her rid herself of the psychological toxins left over from her upbringing.

With a newfound sense of purpose, Sarah set out to find Tomas. She wanted to find out from him if this could be true; to explore the idea that the serum might help her accept her natural sexual feelings and desires. As she walked through the Neighborhood, the vibrant energy around her felt different--more alive and welcoming than ever before.

After a short search, Sarah found Tomas in a small garden area, tending to some flowers. The sight of him brought back memories of their intimate encounter, a mix of attraction and confusion swirling within her.

"Tomas!" she called out, her voice steady despite the flutter in her stomach.

He looked up, his expression brightening at the sight of her. "Sarah! Good to see you. How are you feeling today?"

"Better, actually," she replied, stepping closer. "I wanted to talk to you about something."

"Of course," he said, setting down his gardening tools and giving her his full attention. "What's on your mind?"

Taking a deep breath, Sarah plunged into her thoughts. "After our... experience last night, I've been thinking a lot your ejaculation and what it does for us," she said with a blush. Despite having exposed every inch of her body to him and the rest of the Neighborhood, she was still uncomfortable talking about it. "I had this idea that maybe helps us not just physically but mentally too."

Tomas raised an eyebrow, intrigued. "Go on. I never thought about that or noticed. No one told me about the powers I have. I only discovered it by accident and I'm learning about it as much as you are."

"I spoke with Eliz this morning," she continued, "and we discussed how our upbringing filled us with guilt and shame about our desires. I'm starting to believe that those teachings were the real poison in our lives--not our fantasies or feelings."

Tomas nodded slowly, encouraging her to elaborate. "What if the serum pushes out physical poisons from our bodies? What if it also works to remove psychological poisons?" Sarah's voice was filled with excitement as she shared her hypothesis. "If that's true, then maybe getting more of it will help me accept my natural sexual feelings."

Tomas considered this for a moment before responding. "That's an interesting perspective, Sarah. My sperm has already shown us its transformative effects physically; it makes sense that it could have mental benefits too."

"I just feel like there's so much more to explore," she said earnestly as she reach her hand out and slowly rubbed his arm. "I want to rid myself of this guilt that lingers from my past--this feeling that my desires are dirty or wrong."

Tomas stepped closer, his gaze intense yet reassuring. "You're not alone in this struggle. Many of us have faced similar battles with our pasts and what we were taught. It's okay to want to embrace who you are fully."

Sarah felt a rush of blood to her face, an extra pound of her heart, and a swelling in her clit. "I just... I want to be free of these constraints," she admitted. With her other hand, she reached down and stroked the front of his pants.

"Then let's explore this together," Tomas suggested gently. "If you believe that more spunk could help you on this journey..." He leaned down and gently met her lips. Sarah responded by pressing her lips against his and pushing through with the tip of her tongue. Her rubbing of his crotch had already engorged his member as well as shot hormones running through his veins.

With renewed determination, Sarah nodded. "Give me more of your juice."

"You've got to earn it," he replied, pushing her shoulders down. She willingly knelt in front of him, pulled his pants down and off his legs, and kissed the head of his cock. She licked the length then moved down to the base, drew circles around his sack with the tip of her tongue, then gently sucked on them. The nerves from the tip of his dick to the core of his balls tingled. The pleasure pain from her pulling on his sack forced him to his tippy toes. Sarah turned around and moved further under him so that now her nose was pressing and rubbing against his perineum as she continued to suck his sack. He squatted down on her face to get more force from her face and rolled his hips back and forth. That pushed both of his balls into her hungry mouth for her to squeeze and drive him to the edge. She reached up and grabbed the base of his cock pumping it front head to base.

Soon she felt the involuntary muscle twitch and knew he was getting close to the edge. That was too soon. She wanted his body to generate more before he shot. She wanted his balls to be filled to the brim before he unloaded on her. She pulled off him and smacked his ass. "No! Not yet!" she commanded without thinking, surprising herself and him both.

The hard smack brought Tomas back to reality and yanked him off the edge. Where did that come from? Who was in charge here? was Tomas's initial thought. While it cooled him off the edge physically, it stimulated his mind. All these years and none of the Neighbors had commanded him like that, even briefly. The nature of the freeuse agreement put him in command. This was new and a little exciting.

"Yes ma'am. I'm sorry." His response surprised Sarah as well as himself, but it had the effect she wanted. He came off the edge but was still rock hard.

Pushing her luck, she stood up and guided him onto his hands and knees, spread his knees apart and moved herself underneath him with her mouth just an inch under the tip of his dick. She scooped the precum from his tip and spat on his dick then started milking him, squeezing him tightly while slowly polishing his pole.

Tomas was going mad with his arousal. He felt the urge in his balls to cum. He wanted to give himself to Sarah. He wanted her to command him again. He wanted her approval. Oh Mommy! He wanted her to take control of him. He was on the edge, and that edge felt so good. He looked around, stared at the trees. He avoided looking at her or thinking about her to avoid going over the edge. He hung on the edge for nearly a minute when suddenly he felt her finger push into his anus and he couldn't hold it anymore. "I'm coming! I'm coming!"

With one hand gripping his cock and the other hooked into his ass, Sarah pulled him down and impaled his dick deep into her mouth, down her throat with her tongue. She felt the contractions start at the base of his dick and the first wad of cum shoot through his staff and half way down her throat. Rope after rope of his warmth coated her pipes. The magical serum started radiating out to all parts of her body as he kept on coming. Each contraction drove his forward pushing her head down into the dirt she was laying on, leaving a crater in the soft ground. He hoped he wasn't hurting her but he couldn't stop. She was completely warm to the tips of her toes before his contractions started to fade.

The warmth culminated in her head and a feeling of peace and clarity temporarily cut through the conflict she was struggling with. She could feel the brainwashing subside. She felt the dirty taboo of having a dick crammed so far down her throat dissolve away. She felt permission to enjoy the engorgement fill her mouth and liquid fill her stomach, which heightened her senses. Her pelvis and anus clenched. What was happening? Breaking free from the chains of her past threw her into a climax. She convulsed on his pole like a fish writhing on a stick. Mentally freed, it was the most intense climax she had ever had. She rolled her eyes back and passed out from the intensity.

Tomas pulled out and laid beside her, cradling her until she roused. Just like that he moved back from the brief joy of being commanded by her to now feeling protective of her again. She had images of herself with a big dick crammed into her and pulling him into her like a slut. She felt the return of the feeling of immoral guilt that she had all her life. It creeped back into her head and she felt almost embarrassed about her actions as she would have before, but not quite as much. She knew it was ok. She knew now she shouldn't feel the guilt and yet she did. More cum from Tomas. That's what she needed. But not today. She was exhausted and sore. But she had time. With the gift of his semen, she had eternity. She rolled over to him and cuddled in the nook of his armpit.

Now she understood why Neighbors seemed so happy. It wasn't just that the were effectively immortal and illness free while they consumed his seed. They lost the society taints that we all grew up with. They were free to accept who they really were.