Would it be so bad, boy? To submit to me?
His words wriggle about my mind just as his sperm wriggles about in my belly, though at least the latter will have dying movements and ultimately cease entirely.
I half-expect some trap, a hex or curse, but there isn't one. What happened tonight, between Archaelaus and I, was purely sexual and not in the least magical. It was me, a twenty-year-old man, getting down on my knees and fellating a two-hundred-and-ninety-three-year-old wizard.
For him to be so ancient, for me to do such a degrading thing -- no love, no affection, only servitude and lust -- defies my self-expectations. I don't quite know who I am, because I'm certainly not the person who arrived in this plane of reality however many weeks ago. That man wouldn't have done this dirty deed, but...I've slowly fallen from who I was, over so short a time period. Slowly been corrupted by this place, by the initially disturbing and now deeply enticing sex acts I've engaged in with Archaelaus.
I'm almost certainly going to give him another blowjob. It might even be tomorrow. Is he going to ask, or command me? I...I want it to happen, I think. As wrong as it is, that most degrading of acts I can picture, the most vulgar of all -- and to consume his semen, the semen of such an ancient man, is the vile icing on a depraved cake -- is the one that is most exciting and weirdly tempting.
Worse, how much it clearly means to him. That his bloated old balls, liver-spotted and hairy, could produce something that I'd actually find pleasant, actually desire, filled his terribly intelligent eyes with a smugness I've never seen equalled anywhere else. It'd be one thing for me to enjoy this act and for him to find it purely a matter of pleasure, because then it would be less dirty, somehow.
It'd be something that would happen and not, in the process, so thoroughly degrade my spirit. But for Archaelaus, there's something incredibly emboldening about having me here, having corroded my sense of self, and having me not just partake of but actually enjoy the extraction of his ancient and virile sperm from within his clearly potent body.
I lick my lips in the dark of my room, remembering and tasting. Isn't cum meant to be awful? It's not like his was strawberry ice cream or the like, but the only gay guy I know, whenever such conversations arise, has always expressed a deep a dramatic dislike of jizz.
So how can Archaelaus, just shy of three centuries old, as clearly ancient as he looks, produce something that I...that I actually appreciate?
I need to sleep. I need to hope that I wake up saner.
I need to wake and up and have this all been a fever dream.
*
In the morning, after washing and clothing myself, I go into the kitchen area to find the old man sat in his dressing gown at the little round table.
Archaelaus smirks at me as I walk through, his bristly eyebrows hinting at subtle mockery. As if today, as a result of yesterday's events, I am less than I was. An object of some humour, in the ancient mage's eyes.
'Sonny,' he says, 'what would you like to eat this morning?'
And before I can reply, he calmy parts his robe, letting his heavy hairy old genitals droops down over the lip of his stool. The sight freezes me in place, familiar though it may be. A large and slightly gnarled penis, hanging low from a thicket of curly grey hairs. Liver-spotted pale flesh, hairy testicles the size of oversized kiwi fruits dangling low.
I run my eyes up his furry pot belly, past his slightly saggy chest, beyond his crooked yellow-toothed smile, to meet his intelligent and rather terrifying gaze.
'That was just yesterday,' I say, glancing away. 'I'm not your on-demand cocksucker.'
'My morning loads are the largest, sonny.' Archaelaus winks at me, wholly ignoring what I said. 'Would it be so wrong, boyo? I was thinking of changing the nutritional rules of the tower, if you want. You'd get all you need from my loins. I am your master, after all.'
Master. I'd forgotten that. A self-degrading other-affirming title. To lower myself beneath him, without actually stating that I am somehow lacking in value. It provokes a shiver, conjures up a chill to the bones of the spine.
It also, unmistakeably, has my cock twitching.
Would it be so bad, boy? To submit to me?
Those words again, echoing through my thoughts. Submission, to the dirty old magus, has a heavy element of oral service. Of kneeling and sucking, of tasting and savouring and swallowing what his fat testicles produce. It says something about how broken I am, how far from my true self, that I find myself tacitly examining the big drooping balls, momentarily forgetting that I'm in his presence.
Archaelaus's eyes flare blue, and for just a moment, I'm gifted the sight of their insides. Billions if not trillions of his sperm, his genes, swimming about in waiting. In waiting to be extracted from within him, milked from his ancient body.
'I can simply change the rules,' the old mage says, 'if such will make you feel better, sonny.'
'W-hat?' I quickly meet his gaze, that smile the height of smugness. 'What rules?'
'You're clearly unable to accept just what it is that you want, boyo. You want to suck my penis, and taste the lineage of my body, just as you did yesterday, but you've all these silly reservations that are holding you back.' Archaelaus lifts a hand, swirling faint blue electricity around its fingers. 'A gesture, and I can make it so that you need my semen to survive, sonny. And then you can give blowjobs to your heart's content, knowing that it's necessary. Knowing that you can hide behind the fact that if you don't, the world ends.'
A twisted concept, and yet...he's right, isn't he? If I had to do it, if I had to blow him, I'd find myself enjoying it. Just like I enjoyed it yesterday.
The contradiction within me, this division of interests, has no easy fix. Archaelaus is old and hairy, distinctively male. Perhaps if he were beautiful, perhaps if he were young, I'd have no issues here. To enjoy sucking the penis of a young, beautiful man, and for that act to be as pleasing as I now know fellating Archaelaus is, would have a dramatically different effect on my thoughts.
'Please don't,' I say, frozen on the spot.
Archaelaus chuckles. 'No more blowjobs then, is it? Just the one?'
And that thought should be a saviour thing, freeing me from this concern.
It doesn't. I don't know how I'm going to wrap my head around the fact that I enjoyed sucking off the old mage, with his liver spots and wrinkles and grey hairs and gnarled crooked cock, but I did. It was an incredibly pleasant, erotic experience.