It was a luxury to just lie on the straw pallet and watch the sun rise through a chink in the barn planks. The first rays of sunlight peaked over the tree tops on the horizon, spread across the field, touched Molly's garden, and kissed the stone foundation of the cottage. Summer at Molly and Will's place meant that there were more than enough daylight hours for all the chores to get done. There'd be time, in the evening, to listen to Will tell a tale - mostly true, she thought, at least most of the time - of an adventure he'd had during one of his many trips abroad to purchase goods for his store, or for her to tune up her sorry excuse for a fiddle and scrape out a tune. There'd be time at midday to gather some flowers to decorate Molly's table. And there was time now to just lay and appreciate the sunrise.
It seemed to her that with this luxury she should feel calmer than she did. Something was interfering with her peace, irritating her like the straw poking through her thin blanket into her backside. She tried to figure out the source of her unease, but it baffled her. Then she heard the barn door creak on its hinges, and Will's footsteps as he approached his horse. She abruptly lost all interest in her musings. She hopped up and grabbed her skirt from the stool, and, pulling it on over her chemise, jumped down out of the loft.
This morning leap from the loft was another nice thing about staying with Molly and Will. It was far enough down that she could do a little pirouette in midair. Almost anyone else would have landed with a thud and a grunt, but she settled lightly down on her toes.
Her quick entrance meant that she hadn't given a thought to what she'd say to Will in greeting. He'd watched for her descent, though, and winked at her. "Mornin', Peg. You know, your skirt swirls fetchingly when you do that."
She flushed at the compliment. "Could I help you load your cart this morning?" she asked, hoping she didn't sound too eager. She loved to watch the muscles in his legs strain against his leggings as he knelt to lift a heavy load, the hair at his neck turning into ringlets with sweat.
He looked at her, but she couldn't read his expression. "Maybe you should help Molly with breakfast this morning."
“I’ll do that.” Disappointed, she turned away to root through the chicken house for eggs and draw a pail of water from the well. She could see Will out of the corner of her eye as she stooped there, and she tried to see if he was looking in her direction. She thought he might be, perhaps admiring the slenderness of her waist or neatness of her ankles. Or maybe he was intrigued by the glossiness of her long, pale hair or her unusual eyes. She walked along the stone path that led from the barn to the cottage, passing through Molly’s garden and near the huge dolmen, a relic from some forgotten time that had passed along with the land through generations of Will’s family. The summer had been fairly cool so far, but today the granite dolmen seemed to shimmer with heat in the morning sun. She noticed the season’s first ripe strawberries, and bent to pluck some to serve with breakfast.
She was the first one in the kitchen this morning, and she bent over the hearth to stir the fire back to life, then busied herself frying eggs, slicing the berries, and cooking oatmeal. The breakfast smells seemed to draw everyone to the table at once. Molly climbed carefully down the ladder from their sleeping loft, her swollen belly making it hard to see her feet. Cassie and Alex ran in just ahead of Will, who was threatening to toss a bucket of water over them if they didn't wash their hands and faces more carefully.
Peg set out the food on Molly's table. The table was decorated with a lacy cloth Molly had tatted, and other examples of Molly's handiwork adorned the room: pretty baskets, embroidered cloths, woven wall hangings. As a merchant's wife she didn't have to spend her days working in the fields, and with no children to occupy her time, Molly had channeled her innate industriousness and artisanship into making her home pleasant. She'd attempted several times to teach Peg basketry and crocheting, but Peg just seemed to have no head for it. Peg, who could remember more verses to more ballads than anyone else in the county, couldn't complete the repetitive steps in order. She'd inevitably lose track of what she was doing, and stare at her unfinished work in consternation.
Molly and Will weren't sticklers for saying grace before meals, and everyone dug into the breakfast without ceremony but with considerable enthusiasm. Watching Cassie and Alex eat their fill of wholesome fare was the best thing of all about staying with Molly and Will, Peg thought, and the reason she'd never do anything that would cause Molly to regret her hospitality. Will was clever and strong and attractive, and he had a lightness of spirit so akin to her own that she enjoyed any time spent in his company. And even though her head sung, her tongue thickened, her skin tightened whenever Will was near, she admired Molly's generosity and steadfastness, and she wanted Molly to like her, too.
"Peg, your hair's especially pretty this morning. It looks lighter than it did just yesterday. How did you manage that?" Molly asked.
Everyone was looking at her - even Cassie and Alex were starting to be aware that their mother was a bit different from the other village children's mothers.
"I don't know, it just does that sometimes," Peg answered, running her hands through it as if to muss it up and make it look more normal. She tried to change the subject. "Cassie and Alex, did you know that today is the longest day of the year?"
Cassie and Alex didn't look all that impressed with her pronouncement, but Molly and Will both looked at her with interest. "And how did you know that? Did you see that in my book?" Will had managed to acquire a handful of books during his travels; along with his wife, they were his most prized possessions. One of the books, he'd showed her, listed feast days and other special days of the year. Will had been teaching Cassie and Alex to read, and maybe he hoped that she'd been learning her letters too.
Molly made a small sound of protest, of discomfort. Peg noticed that Molly's hands were clutching the table, and her brow was beading with sweat. "Molly?" Molly's eyes were large and fearful, glistening with unshed tears. Will jumped from the bench and supported her.
"Molly?" Peg asked again. "Does it feel like the times you lost your other babies?"
Molly nodded in misery.
"Cassie and Alex, you take the cart and tend the store by yourselves today," Peg shooed them out the door. Will's eyes never left his wife, but he still joked with the children as they left: "And there'd better be maple candies left tomorrow! Or I'll dock your pay!"
"Let's get her up to bed," Peg ordered, and between them they supported her, half-carrying her back up to the loft. They stopped for a minute on the ladder as another contraction wracked her. Laying her gently down on her blanket, Peg stepped over a small cedar chest at the foot of the bed. Inside the chest, Molly had shown her, were the tiny gowns she'd embroidered and blankets she'd woven each time she'd been with child. None had ever been used.
"I'll have a look at your belly, and see how the baby's doing," Peg suggested, and Molly nodded and pulled up her frock. Molly had fine, slender legs, in contrast to the great roundness of her belly. Peg ran her hands gently over it.
"The baby's in a good position for birthing. The head is down, the bottom's right here-" rubbing the upper right curve of the belly, "and here's an arm - do you feel it?" Molly and Will seemed somewhat reassured. "Let's listen to the heartbeat...I hear it - swish, swish, swish - the baby seems strong, a doughty little fighter. I'm going to check inside now."
Molly nodded, and Peg carefully worked her fingers into Molly's slit, feeling the warmth and moistness and mystery of the woman's most intimate parts. "Well, your cervix has thinned and opened a little. The herb I gave you won't do anything more to prolong your pregnancy." Her words sounded so harsh; she wished she could find a gentler way to say this. "The baby is about this size - " using her hands to demonstrate - "I've heard tell of babies this size surviving."
As she was speaking, Molly's belly was tightening in another contraction. Her head turned towards Will, and his eyes, too, filled with tears. Peg had never seen a marriage like theirs. She'd never seen Will strike his wife, or even speak harshly to her. Though they'd been married for many years, they were tender with each other, and even though their personalities were so different, they were always companionable. She saw despair in Molly's eyes; in response, Will's face seemed to harden in resolution.
"I'd like a word with you, Peg," he said, and he kissed his wife's forehead before propelling Peg back down the ladder and into the kitchen.
Peg turned to Will and spoke softly. "Will, I'm sorry - I can't give her more of the herb, it wouldn't be good for her or the baby."
And she was right about Will's expression - his voice, though quiet, was stiff as iron. "But you're not just an herbalist, Peg." He leaned closer to her. He hadn't taken his hand from her arm, and his touch sent a wave of warmth through her. "I'll never forget what I saw that day. When that soldier tried to assault you, you summoned some sort of power to help you. Isn't there anything you can do with that power to help my wife?"