The Forest of Need

The Kayd - Reim Chapters

Ch1. Transformation

It was the first time that we had taken a holiday together, well it was only a short trip really. We'd been seeing one another for a couple of months before we decided to go away for the weekend to a cabin in the mountains. It was an old place, and very remote, away from the real world where work and social lives clashed and intertwined to create a complex and sometimes exhausting life.

We were late to leave the city because we'd both had to meet friends before we could escape together, not that I don't enjoy meeting friends it's just that since being with Reim I had been feeling something new about myself and I couldn't wait to see him again each time we parted company. It was still the exciting new stage of a relationship when you still have questions about the other person and find them fascinating.

I had always been quite shy and self-conscious, which meant that I found it hard to connect with people, always wondering what they thought about me and how I must be being judged by everyone.

With this new relationship it was a little different, and I was beginning to feel a bit more at ease with Reim. I think it was his quiet way of smiling whenever I said anything which I was nervous about which calmed me.

I hadn't shared anything that I was particularly scared to let him know just yet but he encouraged me to tell him anything I wanted to, no matter what the context, and this made me feel as if he would probably accept me a bit more easily than most. Whenever we had spoken briefly about sex I found it more difficult to be open about any desires that I'd been harbouring over the years. He'd suggested telling one another a real fantasy and a non-real fantasy, meaning something that we thought about but didn't really think was possible, or that we weren't sure that we'd actually want to do for real. Some things are better kept as fantasy, as an idea or dream rather than bringing them down in to our physical world. This idea had been comforting to me because it meant that I could talk about things without the fear of sounding too silly. I guess the problem with this was that I was always afraid that even with his calming smile, he may reject me for one of my fantasies. And looking back, it's now clear that I didn't even really have a fantasy, not by today's standards! I just wanted to try a few different positions really, but even saying this made me feel a little embarrassed and worried that he'd somehow flinch at the idea.

But this story isn't a fantasy, this is a true story about our first holiday together. I decided to write it afterwards because, well I don't ever want those memories to slip away, so sharing them with you will help to keep them alive for a little longer.

We left the flat and took the car out of the city towards the mountains, driving in to the night.

The further we travelled away from the bright lights of the city the fewer cars there were around us. The roads got quieter and darker as we took smaller and smaller roads through the low hills.

As the lights faded away the stars began to shine brighter above us and I looked out of the window at them as we sped along, Reim's hand occasionally reaching over to stroke my thigh. His touch brought something inside of me to life, but I didn't know how to really show this to him. Or perhaps I did but that voice in the back of my mind always stopped me from acting on my impulses, that voice which tells you not to be silly or warns you that the other person will laugh. Even when we had sex, when he was deep inside of me and I could feel his pulsing desire I was scared to move in to a position to increase the feeling. I got scared when I was about to orgasm that I may make too much noise and risk the neighbours hearing me! I would picture the listener frowning and shaking their bespectacled face in disapproving acknowledgement of the noise they heard. I wished I could be more free, especially when I was with Reim, because I really wanted to show him how much I wanted him, but my self-consciousness always held me back.

We passed through the still night together until we arrived near the cabin. We had to walk the path through the trees for about a mile to reach it. The woods were cool and the full moon in the sky full of bright stars shed enough silver light on the sparse trees that we could walk hand in hand, without needing a flashlight. The path wound through the trees, it's relaxed turns weaving their way up towards the cabin. I pressed my body against Reim's feeling his warmth soaking into my skin in the night air. His hand wound its way around my waist and pulled me closer. I could feel my body responding to his touch. Thinking about our bodies becoming tied together, naked throughout the night. Our footsteps came in to sync so that we walked in time with one another, Reim's thumb tucked in to the waist of my jeans This made our bodies move together with a rhythmic swaying as we made our way along the starlit path. I was looking at the trees, their bark silver under the night lights when I saw something which caught my attention.

Looking through the foliage I could see colour! Only a small spot of colour but colour none the less. In a night time world you can never see colour, there just isn't enough light from the moon and the stars to let you, and yet here it was. This must mean that whatever it was was creating it's own light, maybe some kind of glow in the dark animal? I stopped and peered through the trees at it, moving my head a little each way to see how deep in the forest it was. I guessed that it was something small, and not far off the path so I tugged at Reim's to show him.

I wanted to go and see what it was so I left the path and took a few steps in to the undergrowth towards the odd light, now shimmering with a yellow-orange kind of glow. Reim stayed on the path so that I could find it again easily, I don't think he was very adventurous back then anyway, so I went on my own.

The closer I got to the strange light the more clearly I could see it, and now I was sure that it was gradually changing colour from a reddish orange all the way through the spectrum to a bright purple and then a violet. After a few steps I reached it and saw that it looked like some kind of fruit!

There was something compelling about it and it's magical appearance which made me want to reach out and touch it's soft surface with small grooves running down from a small crown to the stem with which it was attached to a bush. It was about the size of my thumb, no bigger, and was shaped like a very rounded tear drop. I couldn't stop myself from reaching out to it. I had to at least touch this thing, and when my finger tips came in to contact with it's surface I felt an excitement course through me. It felt like the same excited energy I felt when Reim and I were touching each other's bodies. Something electric and floating darted through me, from my throat down to my stomach I felt butterflies and I suddenly gasped as the feeling overwhelmed me briefly, forcing me to withdraw my hand.

I recovered almost immediately and reached out to it a second time closing my fingers around it. I pulled gently on the fruit until it released from it's stem and then looked at the thing glowing with it's transient colours in my palm. I brought it up to my mouth and bit in to it, feeling its juice explode in my mouth, it was sweet but what I remember most about that fruit wasn't how it tasted but how it felt.

The butterfly feeling in my I had felt in my stomach now careened around my entire body, starting from the tip of my tongue and passing through every part of me. I felt it grow and wash over my neck, my arms, chest, stomach, down my legs and in to my feet. I even felt it rumble through me, unstoppably travelling down to the wetness between my legs which was now tingling in pleasure. I licked my lower lip, bit it slightly as I regained myself and then turned back towards the path and my waiting Reim.

I described the fruit to him excitedly. When he asked if I'd brought him one back I shook my head. "But we can look for another on the way." I said, feeling a little as if I had been a bit selfish, not sharing the newfound thing with him as he wrapped his arm around my waist again, pulling me in to him and kissing my head before stepping off towards our cabin again. We walked for another ten minutes through the woods, and with each step I could feel my excitement growing. Those butterflies hadn't left me yet, they were still fluttering around my navel somewhere, occasionally they would dive lower, making me feel my own sex glowing.

I could feel a wetness seeping into my underwear. I felt a craving for something to fill me up, to complete me. I badly wanted Reim's to be inside me now but all we could do was walk towards the cabin. I pulled myself closer to him and felt my breath shortening. "My god" I thought! I had never felt this worked up before. Something building up inside me, some primal desire awakened, by the fruit maybe?

By the time we reached the door to the cabin I was almost choking on my desire to feel Reim inside me. As soon as he'd turned the key in the lock I pushed the door open and pulled him inside after me. Turning to him I jumped up in to his arms, my legs splayed either side of his hips as his hands found my ass, holding me off the ground.

With my hands around his neck I kissed him desperately. It was as if the need to be kissing him was replacing the need I had for breathing air. I thrust my face in to his, pushing my tongue in to his mouth, sucking his lips, his tongue, craning my neck to kiss his. He responded with a moan and a heavy breath as he dropped me back down on to the floor, I was six inches shorter than he was so I had so raise my face to keep kissing him as I pushed my palms in to his chest, driving him in to the wall and forcing my body in to his, feeling for the hem of his t-shirt so that I could lift it up off his torso.

His hands were doing he same with my top and rapidly we were pressed against one another, our skins touching and the heat coming off us in waves. I could feel the muscles of his chest tighten as he pulled me in to him, his strong hands pulling my hips towards him. I needed to kiss him more, to feel his tongue against mine, I didn't need to breathe right then, so I didn't.

My hands found his belt, found the fastening and pulled to undo it, not getting it right straight away. A brief scrabble later and it came undone sliding out of his jeans with a satisfying hiss as I fell to my knees in front of him, tugging at his jeans, trying to peel them off his hips.

Powerfully the butterflies returned, this time with more force than before, their flight around my body physically rocked me, making me crumple forward, incredibly on the verge of orgasm! I gasped and then moaned as their fluttering wings spread down into my deepest channel and squeezed mercilessly. I came, I actually came, right there curled on the floor at my boyfriend's feet, I came and I gasped for air. I was in extasy and there is no other way to describe it. I couldn't control myself so I just curled on the floor shaking in pleasure and gasping, gasping for air, a part of me feeling as if I should be embarrassed by this.

Reim knelt down next to me and began to run his hands over my body, I could see the grooves and ridges of muscle in his strong forearms, highlighted by the veins that only an athlete has as he passed his caressing hands up and down my still convulsing body.

The feeling subsided and I felt blissfully out of breath. I literally crawled to the doorway and towards the cool fresh air that was creeping in from outside. Reim watched me with a bemused, comical expression on his kind face which was full of interest and care rather than any scorn or derision for my absurd action. He was entertained at least.

I reached the doorway and now I seriously needed air, I couldn't breath properly and I began thinking that perhaps something was wrong. A small quiver of panic began to tremble inside me but I somehow knew that if I just lay in the outside air I would be OK, I hoped I'd be OK. As I crossed back out of the cabin and out in to the open space under the forest sky, I felt the tingle of the night air and the caress of the moonlight on my naked back. My throat felt tight, as if i was very thirsty, and had been singing too loud. I felt like something was constricting my throat with a steady, dry grip until the kindly night air full of starlight caressed me back towards normality.

I collapsed forwards on to the deck with relief, my chest pressing into the wood, the cool grain feeling rough against my breasts and soothing against my hard nipples, hot from my racking orgasms. I pictured steam rising off my naked back and up into the night sky, although perhaps it wasn't really.

After taking several minutes to calm down my throat still felt tight, but I could now at least breathe almost normally again so I sat up and leant against the wooden wall of the cabin. Looking down at my body, still flushed from the incredible experience I had just had, I took in my shape. I had always had an average figure, although athletic but nothing that made men stop and stare. Perhaps it was just the lighting, or the lack of it, but looking down at that moment I was sure that my stomach looked flatter, my hardly seen abs seemed to actually be standing out for once!

I ran my hands down my throat and over my breasts, down to my waist. Everything felt slightly different, tighter almost. I shivered at the cold air and my breasts seemed to shake and tremble, as if they wanted to be seen. Lost in a moment of thought, which could have taken a second or a minute or an hour, I suddenly regained myself and stood up to return to the cabin. I walked to the doorway which was now illuminated by the lights inside the house. Reim must have turned them on, but something stopped me from entering.

Reim, his lovely body still unclad stepped into the entrance room and smiled at me saying "well, that was something new wasn't it!". I smiled, laughed a little because of what had just happened and tried to answer but nothing came out, just a breath. I put a hand to my mouth and tried again but still no noise escaped my lips! I couldn't speak, I must have lost my voice I thought. I tried to use my hands to sign this to Reim who tilted his head and looked at me quizzically. He walked towards me and took my hand, pulling me inside the cabin.

After redressing and a bit of flamboyant gesticulating I managed to explain that I couldn't speak but that I felt fine and that we didn't need to worry about it. I was sure this passing illness would be gone in the morning, so we relaxed into the sofa in one another's arms for a while, Reim reading while I focused on the feelings still flitting through my body, the butterflies occasionally made themselves known, sometimes in a toe, sometimes in my chest, but not as strong as before. I wondered if it was him or if it was that strange fruit or if it was a combination of both which made me feel this way. I was never concerned about it, it felt good, peaceful almost; as if my body was just discovering some new form of pleasure and wanted to test it here and there. Eventually my head rolled to the side and I fell asleep, only waking when I felt Reim pick me up and carry me to the bedroom where I fell into a deep sleep full of bright dreams.

I dreamed that the moon was talking to me through it's beams of light, the stars applauded our conversation which felt full of meaning and left me feeling fulfilled. Only it didn't seem like the normal moon, and the stars weren't their usual silver selves. In this world of dreams the moon and the stars shone with the same intense and changeable light as the one that had shone from that fruit I had found.

The conversation with the moon reached a point where I needed to reply but I couldn't find the words. In fact, it wasn't just the words I couldn't find it was my breath! I couldn't breath again, I was suffocating! I woke with a start, my breath caught in my throat as I threw off the covers and sat up. I gasped again and looked out of the window at the cool night air, knowing that it would offer me sanctuary from this breathlessness.

In a panic I got silently out of bed and walked to the door, opened it and stepped out into the refreshing air, letting my lungs expand and tug the rich night air inside me. As I began to relax again, I felt each breath I drew filling up my chest with a tingling joy as if each were a kaleidoscope of butterflies entering my body.

The feeling was incredible, as if I could breath pleasure into my own body. Feeling this pleasure, I looked down again at my body which seemed to be relishing in it. Feeling the tightness of my t-shirt against my breasts, I could see my nipples pushing through the cotton, two beacons of sexuality floating in front of my heart. I ran my hands over them for the second time that night, feeling the firmness of my breasts moving with the pressure of my hands. They felt bigger than before, no doubt about it, my boobs had grown, they were stretching the t-shirt I had worn to bed which usually just hung loosely off me. I took a moment for this marvel to sink in, but oddly I don't remember feeling particularly surprised by it.

Feeling my breasts through my t-shirt and the air filling my lungs made me feel quite content. But I wanted to feel more connected to the sky and to the silver light of the stars, I didn't want to be wearing my top, I was here outside in nature and wanted to let my body connect with it, I wanted to feel the pin pricks of the night-time air against my skin and see the moonlight on my body. I could be as naked as I wanted, I decided, so I pulled my t-shirt up over my head and let it fall to the floor, the moonlight now glistening off the tops of my breasts, leaving me stood only in my pyjama bottoms.

I ran my hands over the moon-kissed skin of my breasts again, enjoying the sensations, feeling a tingle of excitement coursing through me as my hands continued down my sides to my hips, feeling the firmness of my stomach under my fingertips. I felt different, as if my body had gone through some kind of sexual transformation, accentuating all my womanly features beyond what was natural.

I moved forward on the decking into the night, a light wooden knocking noise accompanied each step as my feet passed over the deck. The tightness I could feel in my calves and the tension that ran up the back of my legs to my bottom made it feel as if I was wearing heels.

As I stepped forward something brushed the back of my legs. A breeze moving the material of my pyjamas I thought, but it made me notice their cotton material and so; again, I wanted to be naked and let my skin touch the natural air around me so I reached down and pulled off my bottoms, accompanied by a knocking noise as my feet pressed in to the decking each time I stood on one leg.

I dropped the pyjamas on the deck and stood there naked in the night. Swish something brushed the back of my naked legs again, I turned to see what was there but found nothing. I thought that perhaps there was some small creature out here playing with me. Smiling and turning again I felt it once more, that swish as something brushed my legs. I looked over my shoulder and saw something in the corner of my eye, but as I turned again it was gone.

I could see some faint glow of colour though, some kind of shimmering orange out here with me, or was it a yellow? I decided to walk around the cabin on the decking. Each step made a little noise and I didn't want to wake Reim so I moved slowly until I turned the first corner and felt that swish again.

It brushed the back of my right leg just behind my knee, making me jump, spinning around. As I span around to the right I felt something flick against my left thigh, something had gripped on to my leg! I reached down and grabbed it, feeling the strands of hair between my fingers and pulled. "Oww!" I meant to say, but the noise just came out as a kind of strained grunt, lost into the night air.