Chapter 6
The Midwife and the King
Urragn did not bother Aris for the next few days. He didn't even speak to her.
In fact, Aris did not speak to anyone at all, except for Rintag who just used her as a dumping ground to drop his complaints. His wife was acting anxious and needy. His child was spoiled. The Jarl and the captain were working the soldiers too hard during drills. Aris absorbed the complaints with little commentary, refusing to offer complaints of her own.
When Urragn called her to his bed again, he did so with a simple firm hand on her shoulder. "My chambers. Come," were the only words he said.
She followed him to his room like a lamb to slaughter, the eyes of the servants, guards, and other wives following after her. He whisked her inside, locked the door, and removed her clothing himself.
She sunk into his expensive mattress and felt the softness of his fine sheets. But the luxurious setting didn't make the sex any more interesting. He entered her, humped her and grunted for a few minutes until she was successfully filled, while his enormous companion dogs watched awkwardly from the other side of the room. It was uncomfortable and left her a bit sore and chaffed, but she didn't complain, and he didn't care. Exactly as she wanted it to be.
But even as they tried to keep the act as sterile and wordless as possible, there were still brief moments of pleasure that troubled Aris. He still teased her before he entered her. His chest and stomach still felt warm on top of her. She still enjoyed being stretched and filled.
When he rubbed her stomach afterward, it still relaxed her. Despite trying not to, she fell asleep with her knees in the air and his hand on her belly. He covered her with a blanket and let her rest there till long after midnight.
When Arris finally returned to her room, a basket was waiting for her on her table. It contained some of the items she'd asked for, including books and stationery. Wrapped in paper was a braided loaf of bread that smelled heavily of rosemary, a King's Day roll, and Urragn's attempt at a sense of humor.
There was also a tiny vial made of blue blown glass. Aris uncorked it, took a sniff and poured a drop on her hands. It slid over her finger and felt strangely smooth on her skin, a subtle sensation that was somehow both warm and cool at the same time. It was certainly Tagash oil.
Over the next couple weeks, she and Urragn developed an awkward and shameful routine of wordless insemination. After each time, Aris would curl up in bed alone, feeling the jarl's seed leaking between her legs, and she would question what she was doing and why. She needed a pair of ears to listen to all her mixed emotions, but she had no one. The other orc wives would not understand her objection, and any elven confidant would call her a traitor and a whore. She poured the thoughts into her journal and then hid the journal deep under her mattress.
When Aris was in the army, the army physician had given her a potion to stop her monthly bleeding. Elvish magic had made great technological advancements in the past few decades, and old indignities and inconveniences could be abandoned to history. There was even a version that could prevent pregnancy, but Aris had not needed that as she had been celibate for the past few years. It was so complicated keeping a lover during wartime and she could not bear the headache and heartache.
Aris had taken her anti-menstrual potion dutifully, and even on her most remote and complex missions, she always made sure to pack a supply of it. She had not bled since she was a teenager, and had almost forgotten it was even a possibility. But she had not taken the potion since she was captured and taken to Katkasad. She had forgotten all about it with so many other things on her mind.
Urragn noticed the blood before she did. His nose wrinkled when he undressed her.
"What is it?" she asked him.
He took a cloth from the nightstand, dabbed it in between her legs. "It's so red. For a moment, I thought you lathered yourself in strawberry jam," he said. "Very red indeed. I am reminded again of our differences."
Aris took the cloth from him and looked at it. "I apologize," she said. "I hope I haven't gotten any on your sheets. I didn't realize it was going to start so soon."
Urragn took back his cloth and then laughed. "Of all the thousands of little ways you have offended me, you will apologize for a drop of blood on a bed sheet. Not for speaking to me coldly, not for disrespecting my other wives, not for refusing to make conversation with me. Blood on a bedsheet?" He poured a couple drops of water onto the cloth using the pitcher he kept on the nightstand. Without even thinking about it, he cleaned the rest of the blood from her body, the way a nurse would clean a sickly patient.
Aris had no response. She wished that he would get angry instead of laughing. The fact that he was laughing showed that he didn't care. And it disturbed her that she wanted him to care.
"I will make a note of the day, and I will have Vrish bring you some fresh rags," he said. He handed her her clothes and then shooed her off his bed.
When Aris returned to her room, she felt humiliated and confused in a thousand different ways. She actually began to weep. Her face was tearstained when Lady Vrishtagna knocked on her door. Vrishtagna was not sympathetic to Aris's tears.
"I never thought a soldier like you would cry over a little blood," Vrishtagna said.
Aris clenched her jaw and took the bundle of rags from Vrish.
"Or maybe you're just upset it's your own blood and not one of our people's you've spilled," Vrish said. "Is that the problem, Lady Aris? Is it the wrong color?"
Aris tried for an answer that walked the line between diplomatic and stern. "I've gone through a lot in the past few weeks. You know that, Lady Vrishtagna. You wouldn't understand."
"I understand war well enough," Vrish said. "Just because I've never swung a sword doesn't mean I've never been threatened by one or lost anything to one."
"I wasn't talking about the war," Aris said.
"Of course, you were," Vrish said. She paused and took a deep breath. "My husband is... he's being nicer to you than you deserve. I wish you would just...." She shook her head. "I don't care. I have nothing to say to you. I will gain nothing from discussing this with you." And then she walked away.
The day after, Aris awoke to belly cramps that she hadn't suffered since her youth. But no mercy was shown to her. Lady Vrishtagna finally decided that Aris was well adjusted enough to be added to the chore list. Aris was given a brush and a bucket of soapy water and ordered to wash the baseboards throughout the entire great house. Rintag followed behind her as ordered.
"You could help, you know," Aris said to Rintag as she worked.
Rintag sat down on a stool behind Aris and lit his tobacco pipe. "I could, but I'm not going to," he said.
Aris was now one of the ladies of Fud Faragna, with all the privileges and duties that came along with that. A new routine developed. In the morning, she would complete whichever chore Vrish assigned to her, while Rintag followed her around uselessly, occasionally complaining about his marriage or his job or the weather. Aris would eat dinner with the family silently, as the family members talked to everyone except to her. After dinner, she would complain to her journal.
And every few days, Urragn came to her bed or called her to his. She would pretend not to enjoy the warmth of his body pressed against hers. But she did. His skin would grow so hot, and she could feel that heat in her bones whenever he wrapped his arms around her. When they finished and she drifted off to sleep alone, his absence felt freezing cold, even under her mink blanket.
To Aris's horror and relief, her mind adjusted to this routine, to the point that she felt as if she had been doing it her whole life. She thought less and less about the army. She worried less about what they would do to her if she returned to the elven world, or whether she could ever forgive herself for her choice. She went to sleep planning out the next day's chores, and what mind-numbingly stupid activity she would do to enjoy her free time. This wasn't the same thing as being happy, and certainly wasn't the same as feeling at home at Fud Faragna. But it was routine, and for now that was good enough.
When summer first showed signs of fading, and the first truly cool breeze came through Aris's window, Ugamat went into labor. A servant was sent to fetch the midwife. The wives gathered in her bedchamber, except for Rintag. And since Rintag could not attend, neither could Aris.
Aris sat with Rintag in a sunlit drawing room while they awaited news. He was completely quiet. His normally greenish skin looked even greener, and his knee bounced rapidly.
Aris recalled a memory of visiting an elvish infirmary as a child, sitting with her anxious parents while her aunt gave birth in one of the curtained-isolated beds. Aris remembered not understanding why they were there, until she was allowed to meet her baby cousin a few hours later. She had lost contact with the aunt and cousin after she and her brother were evacuated from her hometown. She did not know where her aunt and her cousin went, and had no way to contact them. Last Aris had heard, they were living near the southern coast, but she was unsure if that was true.
Urragn joined them.
"You look calm," Rintag said to him.
Urragn shrugged as he sat down next to Aris. "So many children have been born into my house. I know what to expect by now."