Chapter Nineteen
"Ditte!" Katrin's voice came drifting up from below.
Razai peered over the edge of the lookout tower. "She's going back inside," she murmured to the child standing next to her. "We've got some time."
"She'll be mad if I hide from her again," Ditte said.
"It won't be for long," Razai said. "We'll finish up soon."
"But she was going to let us play games today instead of doing learning. She says when the new teacher gets here, we have to do learning every day."
Razai sighed. Ditte was fascinated by the secret lessons on fighting, but more because of their forbidden nature than because they were useful. She didn't face the same realities Razai had been forced into at that age. She was just a normal child, and easily distracted by everything that was going on around her.
Perhaps that wasn't a bad thing.
"All right," Razai said. "I suppose we've been working long enough for today. But don't go yet--I've got a present for you."
"A present?" Ditte's face shone with anticipation. "What is it?"
Razai retrieved the little knife and sheath she'd set aside, then crouched down next to the girl. "Pull your skirt up to your knee so I can tie this on."
Ditte held her skirt out of the way and peered down to watch.
"You cross the laces here and...
here
," Razai said, "then tie it off. Be sure to cross the laces twice or it'll just slip down your leg. And then you can tie it at the bottom too, to keep it from flapping around." She leaned back to eye her work. "I wanted to give you this now because I'll be leaving in a few days."
Ditte's eyes went wide. "You're leaving?"
"Yes, after Nedley and your new teacher get here."
The girl's voice broke into a whine. "But I don't
want
you to go. You're really funny."
Funny? Razai couldn't remember doing anything funny.
"I can't stay here forever, Your Highness," she said, standing up. "Your turn. Try untying it, then tying it back on again."
Ditte gave her one last pout, then knelt down to loosen the knots.
While she worked, Razai said, "Now, do you remember all the rules? When do you use a real knife?"
"Only if bad men try to hurt me."
"That's right, and only if you can surprise them with it. Do you ever use it if you need to cut something?"
"No, I have to find a different knife for that, or ask someone else to do it for me."
"And what if Dev or one of the other older boys is mean to you? Do you use the knife then?"
"Nuh-uh," Ditte said, shaking her head. "I kick him in the ballocks and run away and tell Katrin and Treya and Corec."
She managed to get the sheath off her leg. Razai had just crouched down to help her tie it again when she heard footsteps coming up the stairs.
"Razai?" Corec called out. "Have you seen Ditte? Katrin can't find her." He reached the top of the stairwell. "Oh, there you are, Ditte... what's going on?"
Razai finished off the last knot, then patted Ditte on the leg. "All right, go look for the other kids. I'll handle this."
The girl raced for the stairs, waving to Corec as she passed by.
"Was that a knife?" he asked. "She's a bit young, don't you think?"
"I thought you'd be more mad than that," Razai said.
Corec shrugged. "My father gave me my first belt knife when I was her age. Mine wasn't a weapon, though."
"She needs something to protect herself. You've got an army headed your way!"
"We don't know that yet, and if anything happens, Leena will evacuate the children first."
"She can't evacuate them if she's not here," Razai pointed out. "How long has she been away this time?" Leena had gone to Terevas with Ellerie, only returning briefly to let the others know they'd be spending a few days there.
"If Rusol sends an army, we'll have plenty of warning," Corec said. "If he sends a smaller group, I think we'll be able to handle them."
"How? You don't even have gates in your gatehouse! What good are walls if anyone can just walk right in?"
"Fixing the gates is the first thing Patrig's going to work on after Nedley brings the supplies," Corec said. "I'm doing the best I can with what I have. But you're right--we need to do more. If Rusol sends troops, they're most likely going to come from Fort Hightower. I'd like to hire you to scout it out and see if anything's happening there."
"I told you, as soon as I talk to Nedley, I'm leaving," Razai said. "You'd better not think I'm letting you bond me for a
third
time." She'd made him remove the warden bond after he'd returned from Larso.
"Why are you in such a rush?" Corec said. "You've got friends here, you know. You could stay."
"Friends who turned on me the minute they thought I'd made a mistake? I don't need your damned friends!" That was the first lesson her father had taught her. Never depend on anyone else. How was
she
supposed to have known Rusol wasn't aware Corec's identity? How was she supposed to realize it even mattered, considering that the last she'd heard, Corec had been on his way to the free lands specifically to draw Rusol's attention?
"Did they turn on you, or were they just worried?" Corec asked. "It was my fault more than theirs--I didn't take the time to tell everyone all the details. But you knew. Did you talk to them?"
Razai hesitated. She was certain she hadn't misinterpreted things. Leena, her only real friend in the group, had yelled at her, and even Ditte had realized the others were mad.
But if she was being honest, Razai hadn't made much of an effort on her end either.
Or any effort at all
, her mind added treacherously
.