Epilogue
Prelude: Aftermath
ASTRID
At some point in their training, every valkyrie had to participate in the most tedious exercise imaginable: orienteering. Generally, this was done during the winter months when the foliage was sparse, allowing for geological formations to be seen more clearly. Like all tasks of my youth, I treated my orienteering session as a direct challenge to my pride, and so I forced myself to become an expert navigator of the land around the Gratoran Wall. I knew exactly how far every rock formation was from every other and could chart the entire Gratoran Desert all the way to Hektinar's ruins. Julia and Willowbud's battle in the desert had destroyed many of these geological markers, but not all of them. That was how I knew I was currently two hundred miles west of Breyta. I had been in a dark cave beneath the volcano only a second ago. How I had ended up here was a mystery, but
why
I had ended up here was extremely evident.
I groaned, and squinted against the glaring noon sun. The Gratoran Wall was so far away that it was an azure sliver, and only the tallest mountains could be discerned from the horizon. Willowbud's mountain now stood like a great central spire of the wall, and would've been the most prominent feature on earth were it not for the thing that dwarfed it.
I didn't have the words to describe what I saw, other than that it was a big fucking tree. It was so gargantuan that the radian of the trunk closest to me appeared in clear detail, but the curved edges were so far from my perspective that they were blurred with distance. It stood where Breyta had once been, was a hundred miles in diameter at the base, and had roots that snaked for countless miles along the Gratoran Wall and into the desert. One such root was buried in the sand right before my feet. Here, it was only about twenty feet thick, but its girth widened the closer it got to its parent trunk until the root itself was taller than most of the mountains around it. I couldn't say how high the tree was, because I couldn't see its top. It shot straight up into the sky, then became translucent, then disappeared entirely. No Life Giver could ever have dreamed of making such a thing. The Creators were gods, yes, but even their most magnificent creations were limited by the earth itself. This tree was not of this earth, and neither was the God who made it.
"Hey, Astrid," Justina said, lying in the dune next to me. I only knew that it was her from her voice. Her black hair was now a shimmering white, her eyes were glowing orbs without pupils or irises, and energy moved in shapeless patterns across her bronze flesh. Sometimes the patterns almost looked like fire, fauna or water; sometimes they almost looked like the patterns that used to decorate me, but they were never static. I looked down at my body and saw that I was healed. My arms and legs were whole, the scores of scars were gone, and my wings were intact.
I turned back to Justina. "I thought you were an atheist?"
She snorted. "I'm not God, Astrid. I'm an idea. If anything, everyone else is God."
"Did everyone else make
that?
" I said, pointing to the bisected horizon.
"Love made that," she smiled. "I know it sounds sappy, but love is the bridge of existence."
"I never pegged you for a romantic."
"I'm not," she chuckled, shaking her head. "Lucky for me, all the groundwork for this relationship was laid down by someone else."
I frowned at her. "It's Petranumen, isn't it?"
She nodded.
I was quiet for a moment. "Justina, I'm not sure how to feel about that."
"Me neither," she sighed, burring her lips. "There's so much of her that I don't like. She's irrational, impulsive, and emotional beyond control."
"She's analytical, strategic, and views emotions as equations," drawled a human woman on the other side of me. Her hair was white, her glowing eyes were without pupils or irises, and her youthful alabaster flesh swam with myriad patterns. She relaxed in the sand as if enjoying a day on the beach, and simply stared at the horizon.
"I never believed that opposites attract," Justina pontificated. "Differences sow division. You can only compromise so much before you compromise yourself."
"Love is a journey," Petranumen replied musically. "If the pieces fit perfectly, then there's no room for growth. They will separate as easily as they were put together."
"I just need time to think alone."
"Thinking alone is mental masturbation."
"I'm not even twenty years old, and I am fated to be with only one soul for eternity. Don't I get to choose?"
"I'm older than recorded time and have wandered through countless souls. What does choice matter if there's only one answer?"
"If I could just--"
"I'm right here!" I snapped.
Justina gave me a confused look. "Yeah, I know you're--oh, hi Petra. I didn't realize you were here."
I blinked at Justina. "You were talking to her."
"She means she didn't realize I was
here,
" Petranumen chuckled, and ran her fingers through the sand. "When you spend so much time in your own head, you tend to vocalize your thoughts."
"When you spend so much time in someone else's head,
you
tend to vocalize
their
thoughts," Justina scowled across from me. "You're going to have to learn how to communicate without sounding like a manipulative bitch."
"I am sorry, Love," she actually blushed. "I am terribly unpracticed in normal conversation."
"Hey um... Petranumen?" I asked softly.
She looked up from the patterns she was drawing in the sand and seemed a little ashamed to meet my gaze. "Yes, Astrid?"
I rolled to my side. "There's something I've been meaning to ask you since we met at Tentigo."
She looked at me unsurely. "You may ask me anything."
"Ever since you touched me, I've had this mark on my hand. What does it mean?"
She frowned and inspected my hand. "I do not leave a physical mark. Are you sure you didn't just--oh, goddamnit--"
And I punched the bitch so hard that her face caved like a pumpkin. Her brains splattered out like confetti, my knuckles exited the back of her skull, and her head ended up as a gory bracelet on my forearm.
"I supposed I deserved that," said another Petranumen growing from the root of the tree. "I can't believe I was deceived by a valkyrie."
"You'll be getting quite a lot of that for a while," Justina sighed.
"You could explain to them why I did what I did."
"Everyone knows why you did it."
"The story we tell--"
"--will be the truth. Not what could have been, not what should have been. What happened, and nothing else." Justina leveled Petranumen with a glare.
Petranumen knitted her fingers and bowed her head. "They will hate me, Justina. Everything I did, I did for our parents, and they will hate me forever for it."
"The only people who will hate you are those you've personally wronged. To everyone else, you're like a hurricane. There's a long and detailed history of hurricanes--we even name the worst ones--but nobody goes around hating the wind."
A hopeful smile crossed her face. "That is good to hear."
"Don't worry; I'll still hate you," I said around a mouthful of human meat, "By the way, you're delicious."
"Enjoy it," she said with an irreverent wave. "Have sex with it, defecate in it, make a skin costume and wear it to parties. I've been melded to thousands of sadistic psychopaths. There's nothing you can do to shock me."
I grinned bloodily. "I just wanted lunch."
She smirked back at me. "We'll see each other again, Astrid, and much sooner than both of us would like." Then she vanished.
"So..." I said, smacking my lips, "...are you ready to tell me what the fuck is going on?"
Justina pointed to the tree. "That's a bridge that connects all three planes of existence. Petranumen and I had to bind to make it. It ensures that there's an afterlife in the astral plane."
I took a hunk of Petranumen's shoulder. "Neat."
"It is indeed, neat," Justina frowned. "Astrid, there's so much I need to tell you, but I'm not sure if I should."
"Excuse me?"