Chapter Nineteen: Checkers
Prelude: Floating
ANGELA
I didnāt have lungs, but I was coughing. Every wretch sent black smoke billowing from my ethereal mouth and nostrils, the bile stinging in my throat. When I was done vomiting out Corruption, I wiped my lips and soldiered on.
The desert wind blew through me, carrying the coarse granules of sand and the dry bushels of tumbleweed. Oh, how I longed to feel the harshness of it on my flesh. The sun beat down overhead, evaporating the scant dew from the ground in steaming vortexes. Oh, how I wished to know its oppressive heat. As I floated over the bloated corpses of orcs and valkyries, I even longed for the putrid scent of rot. More than anything, I wished I could go faster. Whatever force that propelled me through space seemed to be dependent on my distance from Brandon, and he was so, so far away. It would take me days to get to Droktinās Pass. I didnāt have days. He didnāt have days.
I paused and looked over my shoulder. Astrid had taken my body with her, but my blood still stained the obsidian bowl of Droktinar. I had screamed at them as they fled, I had punched and kicked them to get their attention, but none of them could see me. There were only three people who could. Well, four, actually. My eyes ran down the river of blood and fell upon the iron door. In twelve hours, Iād only managed to get a few thousand feet from it. The closer I got to Brandon, the faster I would go, but there was no denying that distance wasnāt the only factor slowing my trek. That door was pulling me. That place was where I belonged.
I turned my gaze back to Droktinās Pass. It was miles and miles away. I looked over my shoulder at the door. She would be waiting for me. She had to know by now what I had become. The moment I stepped through that iron door, I would be greeted by a pair of black eyes, and she would take from me what Diamond could not steal with her lips. I took a deep breath, but no air soothed my anxiety. The tension wound tighter in my nonexistent chest as I stared at the iron door. It seemed to come closer to me even though I was standing still. It was pulling me in. I turned toward it and moved with the tide.
āI love Brandon,ā I whispered to myself as the door neared me. āThat is who I am. No matter what, that is who I am.ā
I glided down the bowl of Droktinar, hovering over the river of my drying blood, casting no reflection in the growing pool at the basinās bottom. The door grew larger. I could see the orange tinge of rust and the tendrils of vines clutching to the frame. A cloud passed over the sun above, but the iron handle still gleamed with light. It was so close now that I could see the pits of corrosion, the thorns of the black vines, the sheen of astral light through the cracks. It was right in front of me. I reached out and clasped the handle. I turned it.
The door creaked open. An eclipsed sun shone over a vast jungle. I stepped forward, and my foot pressed into moist soil. I could feel the mud between my toes, and for a blissful moment, I almost forgot where I was.
"Close the door behind you," Corruption said softly. She stood twenty paces away from me, beautiful, sleek, and black, her body bound with the white patterns Lucilla used to wear.
"So, you're a Creator, huh? Those patterns on Julia are yours. Is that how Diamond became the Water Dancer?"
She just smiled politely. "Please close the door."
I reached back and closed the door. The hinges creaked, then the latch clanged shut. When I tried to twist it again, it would not budge.
"Ok," I said, taking a steeling breath, "let's do this."
Corruption cocked her head and studied me. "Do what, exactly?"
"You know... that thing. Turn me into a psycho-bitch."
Her black eyes twinkled. "Do you know what you are?"
"Untethered, like Diamond."
"You are untethered, that is true, but not at all like Diamond. Your realm is your own, but you are not tied to it." She gestured broadly to the space around us. "The thing that once lived here had a name before he was Wrath. Not Halok, for that was his earthly name. No, the name he had was 'Fortitude.' Much like you, he was untethered, but he did not inherit the realm of a Tethered One. Nothing chained his realm to his soul, and so his soul left when Furok died. That will be your fate as well. There is no point in giving you my gift, for you cannot leave this plane through your undeveloped realm, and you will become Silence before tomorrow's moon; just another abstraction."
"Cool, so I can just do whatever then?"
She smiled thinly. "There is very little that I can do to stop you. I must stay out here to imprison you, and that would leave my mother quite incapacitated while a hostile Earth Former lurks in the world. So I will shut my gate to you, and leave you out here in my wildlands. You may spend your last day marveling at the wonders I have done. Perhaps you will find some measure of peace knowing that the plane below will soon become as free as this one."
"What do you mean? What are you trying to do?"
Corruption opened her mouth, then shut it, and shook her head. "I must confess that I would love nothing more than to have an intelligent conversation with a living soul. The company I keep is... not very enthralling, but I would be a fool to reveal anything of pertinence to you."
She turned around, and the jungle opened a path of stones for her. The stones levitated from the floor and created a staircase to the heavens. She looked back at me, and her expression was wholly woeful. "Do you think that I am evil?"
"Of course."
She nodded, and I saw a tinge of sadness in her eyes. "No one will ever know all the good I have done. They will only see evil until they know naught what evil is, and by then, I will be dead." She looked up at the eclipsed astral sun. "Wrath told me that I would die in ignorance of my victory. I want to believe that he is wrong, but I know in my heart that he is right. We are not what goes beyond, Angela. The flesh you left beyond that door is not you, but the thoughts you brought with you are. We exist between two planes and the piece of us that moves on views us as nothing more than that corpse you left on the rocks."
"What the fuck are you talking about?"
A tear rolled down her cheek, and she shrugged. "I do not know. No one does." Then, she walked away, her steps careful and full of pain, like those of an old woman. The stones of the staircase fell back to the jungle as she stepped off each one, and the jungle grew over the stones, barring any path for me. She narrowed to a dot in the sky, then disappeared into a star.
I knitted my fingers together and burred my lips. I looked around, attempted to pull the door open, then sighed when I could not. After pacing the small clearing, I stopped and looked to the sky. There were millions of stars despite the sunshine, but ten of them shined brighter than the others. The dimmest of those ten had a slightly green hue to it, and it elicited a strange sense of familiarity.
"Serenity," I whispered. I kept my gaze locked on the star, and began to walk through the jungle. With every footfall I took, the sky shifted above me, moving like a great dome to reorient itself to my perspective. I kept walking until the star of Serenity was level with the horizon line, and I walked straight for it. She said I couldn't leave through that place, but then again, why the hell would she ever tell me the truth?
Part One: Cage
BRANDON
My wrists and ankles were wrapped in obsidian chains. The flesh beneath them was raw and bloodied, and would not heal with them on. I doubted they would've healed with them off. I was sapped of all energy, drained to the point that I could barely sit up. Everything I had was devoted to keeping Angela, but even that wasn't enough. She was so far away, and all my strength was being sapped in the distance between us. I was dying. Slowly and surely, my flesh was becoming sallower, my muscles were atrophying, and my heart was slowing. My throat was so dry that I couldn't even swallow, and my eyes were so bloodshot that the act of seeing was painful. My sandpaper tongue searched my mouth for the opium capsule behind my teeth, but it was gone. I hated myself for even thinking of doing it. She was coming for me. I'd hold her again if I just held out a little longer.
I was in Tera's carriage. The comfortable ornamentations had been removed from the walls and floors, leaving everything wooden and bare. The only decoration at all was its former occupant's head hanging from the ceiling, slowly rotating with the changes in the wind that drafted through the open window.
Julia sat cross-legged across from me. She was clothed in a white robe, and softly reading passages of the Maternal Bible to me. Her voice rose and fell as if giving a sermon, then it stopped with a solemn 'amen.' She closed the book and looked up at me with her black eyes.
"What do you think of that passage?" she asked me.
I just looked at her.
Julia waited patiently, then smiled, and opened the book. "I believe it is about redemption. The lute player is a dissembler and a trickster, but after the duke cuts off his lying fingers, the lute player finds the Maternal Path once more. Only through pain can we heal. That is why healing is so painful. The metaphors are quite obviousāthe holy word should not be subtleābut it is still very true. If you cut yourself, then you have erred in some way, and the body must punish you for that error. The same is true for the wounding of your soul. It is a lesson all of God's creatures must learn."
"You don't think I'm a creature of God."
Julia steepled her fingers. "The Bible foretells a battle at the end times. A champion of God leads the righteous hordes against the forces of Satan and faces his earthly champion. You are a womanizer disguised as an awkward boy, a deceiver disguised as a flappable fool, and a killer disguised as a healer. Yes, you would certainly fit the bill, but a more obvious candidate has taken your place." Julia set the book down between us and continued smiling at me, though her eyes did not reflect the mirth of her lips. "Where is Willowbud?"
"Dead."
Julia rolled her eyes. "Your sister confessed to Diamond."