Chapter Eleven: Daughter
The Maternal Bible: Chapter Fifty, Page One-hundred-two:
Hymnal: to be sung in A-major.
"Forever they will live as one, like two lovers in the sun, shining from creation's birth, to hold a tether to the earth. The life, the joy, the stone, the fire; all together forever in the heavens higher."
Prelude: Atonement
FLORA
The cold metal was soothing on my flesh, and the dim light was calming on my eyes. I no longer felt the tortuous need of my sister's ailment, but only a thrumming desire between my legs. It had been a horrible night, but it had been made bearable by the distraction of conversation. I hadn't wanted to tell Julia my story, but a few coercing caresses of her fingers had loosened my lips. She'd remained silent as I spilled myself to her, only asking for me to clarify something once or twice. By the time I finished my tale, the morning sun was dimly glowing through the basement window.
"Now that you know the truth, what will you do with it?" I asked her. Julia didn't respond. She sat cross-legged and naked in her corner of the room, studying me.
"You think I'm a monster, don't you?" I whispered.
"No, I understand," Julia got up and walked over to me, then sat beside my head. "I've also fallen prey to the seduction of power. You think that by commanding others, you can find some control of yourself, but it's not so. It's an addiction."
"Yes."
"But power doesn't keep you warm at night, or bring you joy in the morning. You sold your daughter for power, and only afterward did you realize you'd sold her cheaply."
"Yes," I whispered again.
Julia nodded empathetically, and looked out the basement window. "I am going to seek atonement this morning," she said. "Tonight, you will do the same."
"How?"
Julia leaned until her face hovered over mine, her kindly emerald eyes tinged with the hint of something dark. She touched a single finger against my exposed belly, and I twisted in ardent reaction.
"Tera's poison is still in you, Flora," Julia sighed. "It will take at least half a day to be rid of it. I'll have to leave you like this for the duration, for your own good."
"How, Julia?" I hissed, "How can I atone?"
"You have to undo what you've done," Julia replied. "You sold Willowbud into slavery, now you must buy her freedom."
"At what cost?"
Julia smiled ruefully at me. "I've been asking the Holy Mother that all my life. The answer is always 'more.'"
Part One: Martyr
JULIA
"You know you don't have to do this," Lucilla said softly. The tunnel was immense, dark except for the morning light that glared at its end. Normally, the light would be a welcome sight in such cavernous blackness, but now, it only filled me with dread.
"Yes, I do," I whispered. My hands were clasped before me, my ankles were clasped beneath me, and I was completely naked save for the crescent symbol necklace that hung between my breasts.
"I forgave you," Lucilla hissed.
"I need more than just your forgiveness."
"There are those that will never forgive you," Lucilla said, molding herself to the crook of me.
"I need to forgive me," I said, offering her a sad smile.
"You can't do that, Julia," Lucilla returned the smile with equal sadness. "You never could."
She pressed her lips to mine, and I tasted her worry in the kiss. I broke from the embrace with a shallow gasp, and saw fear in her sapphire eyes. It was oddly comforting; at least I wasn't alone in my terror. I turned from her, took a breath, and stepped forward. The light of the tunnel grew brighter with each successive footfall, and a low rumble became audible to me. The rumble became a growl, and soon, it was a roar. It was like continuous thunder, and the noise beat at my body like the wind, making me cringe against it, but still, I walked. The thunder grew louder, the terror grew hotter, but every time I thought to retreat, I forced an image of Diamond's black eyes, of Lucilla's blank eyes, of Passion's horrified eyes, and of my mother's dead eyes. I stepped beneath the threshold, the cold stone beneath my feet turned to hot sand, and the blinding sunlight consumed me. The monster roared my entrance, and I walked willingly into its mouth.
The Pit seemed much larger from the sands than it had from the outside. The stands rose a hundred feet all around me, the risers stretching back, every space filled with the writhing, screaming blur of sixty-thousand people. Their heinous roar was of hatred, of laughter, of amusement at seeing a god so humbled. This beast of the masses did not even know the word 'mercy.' It only wanted more, only wanted worse, and I would give it to them. I took a deep breath, held my head high, and walked to the platform at the center of the sand. From across the arena, I could see Brandon and Night Eyes in their booth. I felt the hunger in my lungs, and I gritted my teeth to suppress it. My desire for Corruption had become a dependency sometime in the night, and it was only getting worse. I needed something terrible to distract my mind.
BRANDON
I hoped Julia couldn't hear the things they were saying about her. They screamed their insults from the stands above us, threw refuse onto the arena, and jeered Julia as she stepped to the platform. As individuals, people were generally good, but get them in a crowd, and they're just shit.
"It's because fear is what makes people 'good,'" Willowbud said beside me after I'd vocalized the thought, "and when cattle are in a herd, they no longer fear the wolf."
"That's cynical," I snorted. "How very typical of you."
Willowbud grinned beside me on the couch, and Corruption grinned with her. I pulled Willowbud's head to my chest so that I wouldn't have to see those white eyes burning into me, and I tried vainly to ignore the strands of black hair that mingled with Willowbud's stark white. The two of them didn't move as one anymore. Diamond had noticed it too, and as their meld grew weaker, Corruption became more obvious to me. It wasn't just the visual change, but the behavioral change as well. When Willowbud came to my bed last night, she didn't pounce on me in the heat of passion, but simply stared at me from the foot of the bed. I couldn't see anything of Willowbud but her silhouette, but I could see Corruption's white irises wide and alight, and her teeth shining from that broad, hungry grin. When Willowbud finally crawled into bed next to me, I didn't feel much like sleeping anymore.
"Why aren't you with Julia?" I asked. "Isn't this at least half your fault?"
"Sister Julia's taking one for the team," Willowbud chuckled. "She's doing this for you too, Brandon."
"I didn't fucking do anything!" I growled.
"Do you think they care?" Willowbud gestured to the tented canopy of our box, the translucent lavender revealing the churning masses that stretched above and behind us. "They're about ready to blow. If Sister Julia can't release the pressure here, we'll have to do things my way."
"I thought you loved the rabble?"
"I've made a habit of killing the things I love," Willowbud answered softly. I would've vastly preferred her sardonic chuckle. At the center of the sands, Tera was chaining Julia's cuffs to the crossbars of a squared frame, displaying the god's beautiful spread nakedness for all to see. The voluptuous succubus looked oddly lonely by herself on stage.
"I take it you didn't want the main event to be spoiled?" I said, glancing at the statue of Astrid looming in the distance.
"She's not suited for this kind of thing anyway; it's usually her in chains, not the other way around," Willowbud sighed. "I just hope this little display doesn't take the wind out of the championship's sails."
"Oh, I don't think Julia could ever do that," I chuckled. "We might have our temples, but this place is Astrid's cathedral, and there's only one god of the arena."
ASTRID
Step right, duck, fly up four meters, slice, drop three meters, slide with the parry, feign high, swing low, spin, extend the elbow, duck again, feign a stab, and... punch the bitch in the twat. Ladies and gentlemen, your new champion of the Pit: Astrid Skyborne!
Jade Tao stumbled back, clutching her crotch, dropping her wooden practice sword to the floor of Mistress's atrium. The Pussy Palace was eerily quiet this morning after most of its occupants had fled, but I didn't mind. I needed the space to practice without distraction.