The Companion
Part 3
Lawrence sat in the navigator's chair once more, carefully analysing the 11-dimensional curve through which he planned to steer the ship, trying to avoid inducing temporal gradients.
He's still hoping he can figure out how to predict the sign of the gradient's coefficient,
Celia thought as she watched him.
But he's smart enough not to guess and hope.
Celia decided to access the ship's computer to draw down more information about the nature of 11-dimensional navigation. Upon connecting she detected a strange surge. She collected her information and disconnected again.
That wasn't right,
she thought,
the ship's processors had no need to be that warm. It was as if they'd been running red-lined for at least a minute, sopping away all that heat, and had just been turned off.
Without the ship's computer to ask, Celia had to run an internal simulation herself, what Lawrence would have a 'ballpark' guess, and decided that the ship had reduced the processor load just milliseconds before she had connected.
In fact, it looks like it spun down right when I requested the connection,
Celia thought,
and the processor load was what made it take so long to allow my connection.
Celia tried to imagine what the ship's computer had been doing that had suddenly ended just as she wanted to connect. A strange sensation struck her from her neural net.
Something is not right. I must tell Lawrence,
she thought.
But tell him what? I have nothing to report but a... sensation from below.
Celia looked at Lawrence, finishing up his calculation.
I could just ask the computer what it was doing.
This sent another spasm up from her neural net.
I need Lawrence alone,
she decided,
and the ship's computer can't monitor our sexual activities but it can monitor any non-sex-related speech we engage in even when we're having sex.
Celia felt her face contorting from some unspecified impetus as her neural net tried to follow the habits she had trained into herself.
I don't even know what's wrong.
Lawrence punched in his trajectory, slapped the console, and sat back in his chair.
"That's done," he said.
"Good," Celia said.
Lawrence paused, tensed up slightly, and looked over at her.
"Are you-" he started to ask.
"Lawrence," Celia interrupted him, widening her eyes.
I can't let the ship know I noticed something,
Celia realised.
I need to let Lawrence know. He has to know now.
She couldn't even place the source of her trouble, only the urgency boiling up inside her.
"Hm?"
Celia looked at the ceiling, her eyes darting to each of the three cameras. Lawrence froze for a moment, then softened.
"I believe," he said, his voice completely disconnected from the expression on his face, "I need to check out that new pair of panties you put on."
Celia's eyes lit up.
"How did you know I have a new pair?" she asked.
Lawrence stood up out of his chair, bent over to grab Celia around the waist, and threw her over his shoulder.
"Saw it under your skirt when we were cleaning filters," he said. "Shut down your sensors."
Celia called up several internally stored videos and decided to make a show of squealing and kicking her heels up while Lawrence carried her across the bridge. When she saw Lawrence's destination, she disconnected every positional and inertial sensor she had and closed her eyes.
The only evidence she had of their movement was the sound of the Ready Room doors opening and closing.
Lawrence put her down immediately.
"What happened?" he asked as he sat her down in one of the chairs. "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine, just-" Celia shook her head. "I accessed the ship's computer and I-"
Celia froze, unable to articulate what she wanted to tell him.
"You don't normally connect to it?" Lawrence asked, taking her hands in his and rotating another chair so he could sit and face her.
"I used to be constantly connected," she said. "But I started disconnecting from it when we had sex. It was too invasive and distracting, giving me advice and lectures. I knew what you needed and its input wasted processor cycles making useless suggestions. Now I only connect to it when I need information."
"And what happened when you connected this time?"
"It had been running all of its processors full out," Celia said. "All the heat sinks were hot, but it turned them all off just milliseconds before I connected."
"Milliseconds before you
tried
to connect?"
"No," Celia said. "By my calculations, it turned them off between when I tried to connect and when I got through."
"That shouldn't take even one millisecond," Lawrence frowned.
"I think it was so busy processing something that it slowed down my connection time," Celia said.
"I think it intentionally stalled your connection so it could stop whatever it was doing to try to hide it," Lawrence corrected.
Celia felt her eyes widen.
"Yes!" she shouted, finally making the connections inside her mind. "Yes. That's what I was afraid of."
Lawrence paused, looking directly at her.
"Afraid?"
"I-" Celia stammered, sensing the turmoil in her neural networks. "Yes. I was afraid and I didn't know what to do- I've never been afraid-"
"It's alright," Lawrence said. "The ship's computer isn't allowed to hurt either of us, right?"
"I know that," Celia said. "But what is it doing? What is it hiding?"
Lawrence kept his grip on her hands as he closed his eyes.
"It can't hurt you, not even by neglect," Lawrence said. "But it can do almost anything else in the interest of the mission. I just have to give it explicit orders."
"It can disobey you if it thinks you're mentally unfit."
"I know," Lawrence said. "And maybe it will learn how to lie to me while it's doing it. I won't be able to trust anything if this goes badly enough."
Lawrence opened his eyes.
"I'll figure it out," he promised Celia, squeezing her hands. "You'll be fine."
Lawrence will be safe. He knows how to fix this. He always finds a way to fix things.
"It doesn't matter what happens to me," Celia began. "You-"
"Yes, it does," Lawrence said, almost as an aside, before his eyes fixed on her. "Yes, it does."
He thought for a moment before speaking.
"We can't let on that we know," Lawrence said. "We'll have to continue on as if we don't while we figure out what's going on."
"Right," Celia asked, slipping down out of the chair to kneel on the floor. "How can we query the computer without it knowing?"
"We have to-" Lawrence paused, watching Celia undo his belt. "What are you doing?"
"So the ship doesn't know we're on to it," Celia explained. "It will be able to tell if you had an orgasm while in here. Keep talking."
"Right," Lawrence raised an eyebrow. "We have to see if we can figure out what it's doing without directly - oh - querying it."
Celia had taken his penis, only partially erect, into her mouth.
"If it's trying to hide its processor usage," Lawrence said. "You should connect as often as you can, but always have an excuse."
"Mm-hm," Celia nodded as she mumbled around his growing erection.
"I'll ask you to do some research for me," he said. "Lots of it. To help me with stress, we'll say. To help me with-" he looked down at her and touched her cheek "-with dealing with fear and anxiety."
Celia nodded and felt Lawrence harden and lengthen in her mouth.
That research is for me, isn't it?
She thought, studying her own actions, her facial expressions and the changes in her speech over the last few minutes.
I am behaving differently. Yes I am. Lawrence will pretend it's for him.
She swirled her tongue faster and pushed his tip into her throat for a moment, feeling it swell in the small tunnel.
No use taking too much time here.
"Meanwhile," Lawrence gulped when she pulled her head back a little. "Meanwhile, I'll see if I can figure out what the ship is up to. It'll be hard, but it's possible."
Celia pulled him completely out of her mouth and stroked him gently.
"I didn't think I'd be able to get hard," Lawrence mused, looking down at himself. "All worried about you like this."
"I know what I'm doing," Celia said. "But, listen. The ship can't hurt you - or hurt me enough that it upsets you too much - because it will endanger the mission."
"Sure."
"I'll try to think of what it's up to," Celia said. "But any hint you can give me will help, alright?"
"Okay," Lawrence said. "And we'll try to make an occasional thing about coming in here for sex."
"But not too obviously."
Lawrence thought about that for a moment.
"You keep making new underwear," Lawrence said. "And flashing it at me under your skirt."
"Easily done," Celia smiled, understanding Lawrence's intent. "You will pretend to be fascinated."
"And this room will be our hideout," Lawrence finished.
"Perfect," Celia agreed and sucked up his erection again.
That sufficed for conversation. In less than a minute, her tongue work had brought Lawrence to the edge and she shoved his erection down her throat so he could ejaculate directly through into the orifice at the back.
Perfect,
she thought with a half-smile, sampling his semen,
his zinc levels are exactly right.
"Oh, that was good," Lawrence said. "Thank you."
Celia cleaned him off and sucked the moisture off his penis as she pulled it out of her mouth.
"Takes the edge off your day," she quoted a familiar entertainment video to him.