After about thirty years of monotonous death, passed under a rigid routine, she finally found a blend of permission and courage to go out alone. The elder who watched over her, the one responsible for her transformation, disapproved of such early independence, but he understood these were different times. Life moved too quickly in the 20th century. If she waited the 80 years tradition dictated, she would be just as lost and outdated as any elder. Besides, his fledgling was a careful one. He could trust her.
For a child among the dead, thirty years had already been cruel to her memories and affections. Wherever she went, nothing looked familiar, except for buildings that were now listed as heritage or simply abandoned. There was no trace of the places she used to love while alive. If she got lucky, a bar was still a bar, but with a different name, different crowd, different soundtrack. She didn't expect to see familiar faces and wasn't supposed to seek them, but at least the spirit of that time should live on somehow in a new generation of rebels. It wasn't as easy as she hoped.
Still, it felt good to wear combat boots and walk those old downtown streets again. Surrounded by the ghost-dreams of success in now-empty offices, among buildings older than she was, wrapped in a silence and melancholy that belonged out of time, a spirit older than the time of the dead. It was a strange mixture of delight in a city so beautiful and despair over the capitalist machine that chewed everything up and spat out broken scraps. Wealth and misery on every corner in a way that couldn't be ignored.
She wished she had her camera to capture the city's chiaroscuro, its textures. There was relief in no longer being part of that game. A dead body didn't fear hunger, cold, harm, or being mugged, sensations a woman alone could never escape in life. But beyond that relief, there was a biting nostalgia that night. She missed her dreams from when she was alive: a career, a long body of photographic work, a home, a group of comrades burning for revolution and change, hustling and pushing forward.
She had come to the capital to chase all that. Dying early cut everything at the root.
A little past midnight, the dead woman decided to head back toward the metro. She sat near the station's exit, watching the flow of people rushing home, catching the last train, or just arriving, thinking only of leaving again at sunrise. She pretended to sip a beer and waited. Soon, her people started appearing, and it brought some comfort to realize that some things hadn't changed: combat boots, black clothes, spikes. The bands on the shirts were new, but the spirit was the same. They walked in packs, laughing, debating music, film, soap operas, just as fluently as they spoke about politics.
Her dead heart ached. Those kids... they were so young.
She followed a group to a hidden garage on a side street clogged with people. The party had practically closed the street. Clusters of folks gathered, speaking loudly. A speaker blasted The Smiths. Street vendors sold drinks and snacks out of Styrofoam boxes and car trunks. She realized smoking wasn't allowed indoors any more, cigarette butts now littered the gutters.
Inside, the garage led down into a basement with a small stage. A guitar shrieked in a synthetic, cacophonic wail, and a drunk-sounding vocalist moaned over the noise. Packed in tight, the crowd swayed to the rhythm. When the chorus hit, everything got louder, rougher, angrier. The sweaty mass of people became a jumping wave. The pit exploded into a shoving frenzy, violence constrained to that space and pulse. She didn't know the song, but she already knew she'd fall in love with the rest of the set. She didn't sweat, but her clothes turned damp, and her cold body warmed in the crush of others. In no time, she was pressed against the barrier, screaming the chorus with everyone else, feeling the drums and bass vibrate through her entire frame.
But before the show ended, someone ran a hand across her back, slipping fingers into the slit of her dress where the lace exposed bare skin. The monster within her opened its eyes. She hadn't come to hunt, but the hunger surged, mean and urgent. In the dim lighting, a cruel confidence bloomed, she could grab that man, make him kneel, bite down and drink like he was a juice box, leave nothing behind but a crushed shell.
She fled before it became unbearable. Before the prey pushed her to the edge. She went to sit on the curb and let the night air wash the bloodlust from her senses.
That's when he approached. He crouched beside her, touched her shoulder with no hesitation or restraint.
"You need somewhere to calm down."
His voice was raspy and soft, it wasn't a question. His dark eyes were beautiful, set in a face too symmetrical, like it had been sculpted from dark clay. His smile was gentle, elegant, unlike all the others down there. There was something strange, inhuman about him, and she could only think of one explanation.
"Is this your territory?" she asked, her words slightly slurred, shock still running through her.
"Yeah. I keep the place running, and as safe as it gets."
"Sorry. I didn't know."
She pulled back from his touch, but he insisted.
"You couldn't have known, right?" he corrected.
His hand slid down her arm, his smile widening. His eyes were big, brown, with lazy lids that gave him the look of a satisfied cat, hiding every intention.
"I'll go, before I cause any trouble."
She offered. He declined:
"It's still early. I've got a calmer, comfier spot where you can stay until you feel better. What's your name?"
The voice of the one who made her echoed in her mind, stern: Run. Find a safe place. Call me. That would've been the sensible, safe thing to do, but she knew that if she followed those orders, she'd be taking steps backward in her independence. It was the perfect excuse the elder needed to trap her inside again for another decade.
"I'm MĂ´nica. I... I can't stay long. I have a curfew."
The man smiled even wider.
"I'm LĂrio. Don't worry, I'll give you back in one piece."
He took her hand. Despite his rough skin, his touch was warm, with a softness beneath the coarseness.
The house-turned-party-spot had a second floor, but it wasn't connected to the main one by any indoor stairs. LĂrio excused himself to the group leaning against a small iron gate, unlocked it, and gently tugged MĂ´nica along the tiled concrete steps. They climbed carefully, avoiding the little flower pots scattered along the way. Despite the music still thumping below, the brick walls already muffled most of the noise.
To MĂ´nica, it felt like stepping through a fantasy film portal, traveling between realities. And when LĂrio opened the door to the upstairs room, the contrast struck even harder.
Inside, it smelled of sweet incense. The lighting was soft, indirect. The furniture, in hues of grey and blue, had been chosen carefully to look accidental, artfully arranged, like a mistake that worked. Objects, fabrics, and handmade crafts filled every inch of the space in a way that was asymmetrical, tilted, intentional. Harmony in excess, not in restraint.
Heavy curtains sealed the windows, isolating the space from the outside chaos.
LĂrio slipped off his sandals and left them by the door. MĂ´nica followed, taking a moment to undo the laces of her boots. Then he draped himself across one of the couches like a lounging courtier, gesturing for her to curl up on the opposite seat.
She did. And just by being there, away from the heat, the sweat, the friction of other bodies, the hunger inside her finally quieted. The monster whined about the hunt cut short, but recognized there was something more pressing in that room. Something dangerous that demanded focus. Something it couldn't help her understand, only fight, if needed.
"Better now?" LĂrio asked.
"Yes. Thank you," MĂ´nica replied, a faint smile blooming on her red-painted lips.
LĂrio didn't dress like anyone downstairs. His brocade blazer shimmered with warm browns and golds, far too refined for a party like that. His black jeans were clean, undecorated, not even torn.
And he let her take her time studying every detail, patiently allowing her gaze to linger.
"I really liked what you've done with the place," MĂ´nica said, breaking the silence, out of politeness, but also instinct. It was what she did in any situation: guide the conversation, charm the client. "It felt good to find this. Reminded me of places I used to go. You know, before. A sweet little dose of nostalgia."